You need to swallow your pride, go to your doctor, tell them your situation, what you believe your 'symptoms' are, and tell them you are scared of HIV. They will probably look at you and tell you are crazy (in MD nomenclature). Get tested 12/13 weeks after 'exposure.' This is the only way to overcome many of your fears
Not swollen.
Seriously, I have no idea. I'm not sure if I even was feeling my lymphnodes. I'm not trained to feel them; I'm not an MD. Neither are you. They probably have "been there" for 4 weeks only because you have been feeling for them for 4 weeks. In all likelihood, they are exactly the same now as they were 5 weeks ago.