i got 1 hell of alot goin on right now

Ok well i lost my mom in october of 2008 and i kind of whent wild well not so much wild but i was just lookin 4 love and i think i found a lil more then wat i was lookin 4 im 20 now but i was 19 whent i think i got it something to tell u the truth im crying right now. i has sex with some1 i thought i could trust however after doing so i think with in i dont know about 5 weeks i could not set due to the fact that my anus felt like it was on fire i was on fire i whent to my doctor and she told me it looked like worts i could just die right on the spot then i was sent to a 2nd doctor to get a 2nd say so and she told me it looked like hurpies and gave me veltrex the rash slow whent away so at that point i wanted to kill my self for bein so stupid but now its comin back its not as bad as the 1st time but its still bad it makes me fell ugly even if i am a model this is ugly and then i got to thinkin wat if its more wat if i have hiv my mom past away of hurpies and hiv i dont wan to be next this is killing me and i know i know i can just go get tested but at the same time im young and vary afraid to find out hurpies is bad but hiv i dont think i can take that right now.
wat should i do?
plz someone tell me

[LIZZIE LOU]

the only way to know your status is to test.

a test at 6-8 weeks post exposure will give you a good indication of your status...but follow it up at 3 months for a conclusive result.

[LIZZIE LOU]

sorry...just noticed the date.  you can do a test now for a conclusive result, if you've had no other unprotected partners since that time.