i just want it to be over....

[justjazzy]

Two negative rapid tests at a week short of 7 months post exposure, and I was finally starting to be confident and get over this long horrible ordeal I've subjected myself to. I was advised by my local clinic to get some blood work done to be extra sure, so I did that as well but my results will probably not be back until sometime next week. I hate to obsesss....I dont want to, but what I do want is an explanation for all the changes my body has been going through even after my negative results.....I woke up this morning with a raised, itchy rash like area on my arm, and my left breast is also itchy and white flakes and tiny bumps....that just looks and feels to peculiar for me to ignore...I can't help but feel I fall into the late  seroconversion. I haven't engaged in !!!ANY!!! kind of sexual activity since May 9th, 2009....the day I made that dreadful mistake and even after waiting for so long to test....I am being told I may have to wait up until a year before fully knowing, because there is no set window period for every person...every person is different. I live in New Jersey, and all the clinics are saying that my results at this time are still not considered conclusive especially given the fact my risk was somewhat high (unprotected sex in a third world country with a male of unknown status)....I don't no what to do. I am having a mental breakdown that I can no longer hide from peers.....I am depressed and fearful....am i alright? do I have HIV? what are these rashes...what is wrong...with me

[LIZZIE LOU]

please dont expect us to keep repeating ourselves.

for the FINAL time...3 months is RELIABLE AND CONCLUSIVE.  YOU DO NOT HAVE HIV.

kindly move on...you do NOT have a hiv concern.

[Teak]

That's for All HIV tests.

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[justjazzy]

But that's just with fourth generation tests, or rapid tests as well are conclusive at 3 mos?  Can I bank on my results now, at almost 7 months (based on two rapid tests at only a week apart) or should I really test up to a year?  Thats honestly what I want clarification on. I'm 19, not on any meds for anything...no faulty immune system that I'm aware of, although I do have sickle cell trait (not anemia just trait) and drink occasionally. I've been so fatigued lately...I have itchy rash, appetite and weight loss...some diarrhea from day to day...things that have never happened to me in such a matter before. And with all this still happening even after my two negative rapids...I just don't get it man.

[LIZZIE LOU]

the CURRENT guideline, set by the fda, cdc, and the manufacturers of the tests, is 3 months post exposure for a conclusive result.

[justjazzy]

from these people 3 months...from other people 6....others a year....this window period **** is pretty crazy and consequently driving me up a damn wall, however i am really trying to move on regardless of what my body has been experiencing. its almost been 7 months....i suppose antibodies would have been more than detectable by now....its just difficult to ignore these weird symptoms. i think once i get my blood results back i will know whats wrong...if anything. im hoping nothing. but trust me i will never place myself in a situation like this EVER again....it really puts things into perspective

[BADWINDS]

I think you can move on man.  I was in the same boat, worry worry worry for the last 6 months.  Finally got my six month test negitive.  What I am getting from these people is that 3 months is conclusive.  You have 7 months your good to go.  

Just be careful......Enjoy the second chance.................I sure as hell will.  No risks for me....**** that noise.

[justjazzy]

and then that link i posted about the guy who tested negative at 3 months and then positive after another four.....i just dont want that to be me you know. how do things like that occur.... i want to move on...maybe this  has become a mental issue now...i dont know. i apologize... and appreciate your patience

[Teak]

End of discussion....

[justjazzy]

I don't mean to post excessively about a "conclusive" negative, however with one group of people telling me I am conclusive and the next saying my results at this time are still not considered conclusive especially given the fact my risk was somewhat high (unprotected sex in a third world country with a male of unknown status), that I should keep testing up to a year.....its just totally mind boggling...and now with this rash...you have to understand....i simply want closure. I want to KNOW without a doubt that my negative results at this point ARE closure, and I know you and generally everyone on this forum will agree that they are....but why are these clinics telling me otherwise?

[Teak]

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