it seems no one can help

On Feb 25 I fell off the wagon.  I got drunk.  I got oral with a condom from a girl.  I also fingered her and may have had a nick.  The next day
I slept with a women using condom.  I don't think it broke.  I also received 15 seconds of unprotected oral from her.  The following day I went to a clinic & had a oral hiv test.  It was positive.  They did a second test it was negative.  I immediatly go to an ID doctor.  He gave me pep.  not sure why.  After 3 days of pep I returned to ID and asked why he didn't do baseline test.  He then ordered pcr test 3 days after I started pep.  The results were negative.  He said this confirmed the oral test was a false positive.  I then completed 28 days of pep.  I also fired the Dr.  Since then I tested negative at 6 wks, 90 &174 days after exposure.  These were all rapid fingerstick tests.  They all were negative.  I was still troubled so I went and had a statpak fingerstick test.  The test was started.  After 15 mins the test did nothing.  It was completetly white like it just came out of the package.  There were no lines at all.  The counselor said the test didn't work. The test was redone.  This time the test was neg.  At my insistence the counselor did  3rd test.  This time the test turned red but after 15 mins it remained red with no lines at all.  No control line no test line.  I immediately ran out of the clinic all upset.  I went to another clinic and had a unigold rapid fingerstick test.  The results were negative.  The next day I had another rapid fingerstick.  the results were neg at 193 days post exposure.

Both girls were tested 8 wks after hookup.  They were neg.
What should I do?  My last test was 193 days after last expo w/ girls I mentioned.  I also followed the post pep testing guide of six wks, 90 & 180 days.

1.Do I need more tests?
2.  Could I be converting that's why I got those two invalid tests with no control line?
2. Can I move on?  

I don't want to hurt  partner. I am spooked.

[H. Hunter Handsfield, M.D.]

For a couple of years you have been asking variations on the same questions on this, the HIV community, and the HIV international forums.  You have been repeatedly reassured that the HIV test results are reliable when done more than a few weeks after the last possible exposure; and that the exposures you have described carried little or no risk for HIV anyway.  The details how how the lines looked on the tests are irrelevant.  And in any case, you now provide evidence that your sex partners did not have HIV.

1) No more testing is needed.

2) There is no chance you are seroconverting

3) You can and should move on.  However, it is obvious that you are not going to be able to do so without professional counseling.  But neither this nor any MedHelp forum is a substitute for that sort of care.

There will be no follow-up comments or discussion.  If you try, the entire thread will be immediately deleted without further comment.

HHH, MD