risk assessment or OCD is this wierd?

Hello all. I hope everyone is well. I have a question. I know HIV cannot survivie or live long outside of the body. Today I was in a restroom and I did not sit down on the seat, but I did notice a very small speck of red. I had to look closely. I took a long sheet of TP and brushed it up on the speck. Then I did it again this time it came off. I had a long piece of TP, but my fear is that somehow when I threw it in the toilet it could have brushed my hand or something. I have bit marks on my cuticles but they were not close to bleeding. I wanted to know if this was a risk if the small speck of blood touched me or is this just my OCD? should I go to a new site? Please help response would be great!

[full_of_regret]

significant amount of blood must get into your blood stream in order for any risk to happen. On top of that, dont think there has ever been a case as u mentioned. If there was, it would have made headlines all around the world!

[mc2004]

O you would not be concerned? Thanks for the fast response. IF you have anything you would like to discuss Im here :)

[full_of_regret]

i share quite the same concerns n fears with u. Im afraid tht infected blood which was in my mouth from an infected person may have given me hiv. My exposure was kissing (mouth to mouth). Im afraid i have cuts/sores in my throat or anywhere along tht line, which could hv allowed the blood to get in...

:(

[mc2004]

If this helps at all kissing is low risk. Did you get someones blood in your mouth or is this just your fear? sorry Im lost

[full_of_regret]

yes i got someones blood in my mouth during a kiss.

[mc2004]

Well that is scary, but think of it this way. That person must have to have HIV and you would need to have a fresh cut or open wound for the virus to enter your body. People who are exposed to HIV do not catch it all of the time and saliva produces something that can protect you from HIV. I think that you should test in three months for your peace of mind and then at six if you need to, but I think you will be ok. Another thing my mom was talking to me tonite she has been an ER nerse for 28 years and she said that she would hands down want cancer instead of HIV. People with HIV can live full lives and be healthy all you have to do is take meds and take care of yourself. There is a guy on here named Teak and he is of great help. He has a lot of good thinks to say. People live full lives with HIV. I hope this helps.

[mc2004]

I mean my mom would rather have HIV than cancer any day. Lots of people have told me this. The many doctors and nurses I have talked to say that people live with it everyday and have normal productive lives. I hope this helps I really do because anxiety and worry is so hard.

[full_of_regret]

yes but i cannot bare the fact tht i MAY put my wife at risk, with my current situation...
how am i going to live on like this? for 3 mths being uncertain and waiting to be tested to knw the verdict?

[mc2004]

Im sure this is so overwhelming. You need to understand that people are human. You kissed another woman. I know this is being unfaithful but it is not like you slept with her. I'm sure that there have been many people who have kissed someone while in a relationship. Dont be so hard on yourself. This is a personal question and if you dont want to answer TOTALLY understandable but have you been sexual with your wife since this kiss? I mean its a blatant question but I promise not to tell :) Who would I tell lol? Go get a baseline test. How long has it been since this kiss?

[full_of_regret]

2 weeks, never did anything with the wife yet.

[mc2004]

See there you go! You have not put her at risk then! You do not need to be scared of that so please let that go and make sure that you abstain from sex or anything. Hugs will be good until you go get tested. There are many people who have been exposed and do not end up with HIV. They say that it is a hard one to catch. I think that shows how great you have been through this by not putting your wife at any risk. I'm sure that people who wait for results are idiots and only care about themselves and put others in danger. I have a feeling that everything will be fine for you. :) seriously
I would try to contact this woman and discuss this with her and ask her status Imean if you know her. Dont be too hard on yourself.

[full_of_regret]

I saw this, wht do u think?

http://www.medhelp.org/forums/HIV/messages/535.html

http://www.medhelp.org/posts/show/309162

[mc2004]

Wow and those were answers from the doctor! This should be reassuring. I'm glad you sent those message sites to me. I think things will be ok. Get tested for peace of mind, but you have to remember that even though there was blood it did not go directly into your blood system. My mom had been poked with AIDS infected needles and is Neg.

[mc2004]

I must be going to bed its soooo late. I will pray for you and your nerves. I think its great that you are not only thinking about yourself in this situation but also your wife. I hope you sleep well and remember that worrying gets us NOWHERE. I'm such a hipocrite lol. Nite Nite anytime you need to talk message me.

[Teak]

Kissing is not a risk of contracting HIV and you cannot contract HIV off of evironmental surfaces.