swallowing from used condom

[fetishcondom]

Hi everybody ,
I am writing this since I've not found anything similar on this forum
I've always used a fetish for used condoms, to the point that I regularly visit places (parks and so on ) where I know I can find some used condom.

I normally just "play" with them but last time I did something stupid.
There was an used condom tied with a knot so it's was somehow still filled with "fresh" cum ( maybe it had been used not a long time before I found it ). I don't know why but I brought it home and I swallowed the cum out of it.

I immediately freaked out and I forgot that somehow the saliva "blocks" the HIV so I did something that I guess is even more stupid which is to rinse my mouth with a solution of bleach and water ( because I confusely knew that bleack kills HIV ).

So my questions are:
-do you think that the HIV virus (if there was in the first place ) could have still been active in the condom ?
-do you think that that bleach mouthwash may have damaged my mouth and made it easier for the HIV ?
-and bottom line , do you think that there is a chance I may have been infected and shall I have a test or am I just overreacting and I should forget about it, and move on ?

thank you for everything , especially knowing I wont't be judged here in this community...

[Sara_MHModerator]

Hello.  As expressed, HIV is not transmitted by swallowing semen.  This is an unsafe practice as is drinking bleach.  While you do not need to test for HIV from this episode, you do need to speak to your doctor regarding risks associated with your fetish for infection and illness as well as the dangers of ingesting bleach.  Speaking to a psychologist or psychiatrist would be beneficial.  As you did not risk transmission of HIV, we are closing this thread.  Best of luck to you and please speak to your doctor.

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[fetishcondom]

thank you everybody , I feel relieved. I mixed bleach with water so it was very diluted I guess...so you don't think I should get tested for HIV ?

[Chima7]

There is a very serious risk here for a hepatitis infection when engaging in this type of behavior.

Also, bleach is not meant for human consumption and that could also be severely toxic when ingested.

I strongly advise going to see a doctor ASAP to get a full evaluation. If you're still breathing then that is probably a good sign but I wouldn't take any chances with not knowing what might be going on inside your body right now as a result of this behavior.

[CurfewX]

As an adult, the only risk behaviors for HIV are:
1) having unprotected, penetrative vaginal or anal sex, or
2) sharing IV drug needles with other IV drug users.

You did not have a risk for HIV from this event.  However, you should be concerned going forward about the dangers of handling and ingesting what amounts to garbage.  You're potentially exposing yourself to a variety of bacterial infections, some of which could be quite serious.

[AnxiousNoMore]

You should see your doctor if you swallow bleach so you can be advised of the dangers that the bottle warns on its label.