waiting for test result

[Bodbood]

hello everyone, i finally took the blood test today which went horribly wrong as i almost fainted either because i was having too much anxiety or low blood pressure or something. anyway, i am now very, very, very scared and i just hope that it will be negative but i think i have a 50/50 chance so who knows..

my exposure/risk is a problem because it might have been risky or not i am simply not sure. it was with a complete stranger and we did what i think Anal frottage, both naked and i assume he did not insert it in me (because i would sure have felt it if he did) but who know it was dark so i am not sure. if i was sure 100% that it was just frottage i wouldn't have even tested, but with the alarming symptoms i had i had the what if's..

anyway, this site is very helpful and i thank everyone. please keep me in your prayers and my test result won't come till 6-8 days and i will be waiting, breathless. thank you.

[Teak]

You never had an exposure to begin with/.

[Bodbood]

just came back, NEGATIVE! thank god! hope your test goes well! good luck! :)

[Bodbood]

HIV

[Bodbood]

extremely nervous. i called because the test result is late it's been 8 days now and she told me she doesn't know why the test didn't arrive yet, which really freaked me out, she then said i call in about half an hour.. i am almost breaking down. it's just me dealing with this i haven't told anyone which makes it harder..

wish me luck please.. thanks

[Bodbood]

hey Teak, thanks..

i am hoping that is the case. like i said i tested because of both the symptoms i got and because i questioned what happened. i am still pretty confident that there wasn't penetration but i am not completely sure. thanks again.

[Teak]

You never had an exposure. Had you been penetrated you would have known without a doubt.

[Bodbood]

thanks teak.. (sorry for the late reply i haven't checked this page for a few days)

i guess i am 1-2 days away to know my test results, i am trying to prepare myself for the worst.. can one rely on symptoms to know in advance?

the symptoms i got is what got me tested in the first place. i am havingon and off diarrhea since last month now which is very strange, and also loose stool, i lost weight, i got sick at least 2 times since the exposure (i think it was in February) i have countless small red bumps/spots on both upper arms..

now the only persistent symptoms are stomach ache including the diarrhea and loose stool and the bumps on the upper arms. and like i said i lost some weight (even though i am still eating the same).

i am preparing for a positive but i pray to god it's a negative. what do you think? thanks in advance as i won't be able to check this page again till tomorrow night maybe.

[Teak]

You never had an exposure. Had you been penetrated you would have known without a doubt.

[LiveWel1]

yeah no doubt. No matter how sexually experienced you are you would feel something. which is why i gave you the mouth thing, if a penis went inside your mouth no matter what you would feel it go in. He most likely just was rubbing it on the walls which would not put you at risk. But for sure test so you can move on because If you don't you will think you might have something when you don't and might end up making poor choices in the future :)

[Bodbood]

i will try my best to do that!

thanks! :)

[Bodbood]

thank you for your reply

maybe it's just my mind playing tricks on me. because what i remember is that he just rubbed it from the outside of my anus, and i then felt his cum on my thighs. but like i said maybe it's just my mind playing tricks on me plus the symptoms i got, and plus i am a very anxious person so i got myself convinced that he may have been inside me but i didn't felt it.

thanks again!

[LiveWel1]

You would for sure have felt something no matter how sexually experienced you are. Its like giving oral sex to someone you would feel something. If there was no penetration you are ok but due to you not feeling anything that sort of penetration might not be enough to transmit the virus. I would still test just to be sure and be able to move on. You don't want this haunting you for months or even years

[lowmax86]

1st understand that no1 lives 4ever,in this life anyway,im no doc but for the last few months all i have did is read about hiv,you would have knew,if he was in you,i think everything is in your favor,but in mean time enjoy family,its keeping me sane right now

[Bodbood]

how can i distract till the test result? any tips? i am very scared. i am someone who has a lot of Anxiety, fear of death and diseases. this will be a one long week!

thanks in advance..

[Bodbood]

yes it's been 4/5 months..