perverted

when i was 4 i was molested with my brother which i just take as a play. That time i don`t have any idea about sex and masturbation. I don`t even know that i am suffering from a traumatic experience. As the years pass by i enjoy masturbating which i didn`t know what would be the result. i can`t control myself and i always dream about sex.

I reached 10 years old and i notice different changes in my body. Im a boy! a teenage boy. and for my age it is very rare that i experience many changes in my body. Grow fast in height, voice tone change, pubic hair starts to grow and also i got acne on my face

would somebody help me?
what is my disease?
how could yhis affect my mental health?
im not able to see a doctor because we are lack of money
that`s why i need your help and suggestions

THANKS!

[Dr. Kokil Mathur]

Hi
Welcome to the forum!
Puberty in boys begins at the age of 12. However it may start as early as 9 years old. So there is nothing wrong in starting at 10 years old. You have been through a traumatic experience without realizing it and hence feel guilty about this. There is nothing wrong in a teenager if he enjoys masturbation or has body hair, increase in size of genitalia voice break etc. The degree of changes differ from boy to boy with some teenagers looking like men earlier than others. Please do not think much about it and try and forget about the past.
However on net a confirmed statement cannot be made. Hence when possible consult a doctor too.
Hope this helps. Please let me know if there is any thing else and do keep me posted. Take care!

[gyneboy]

thanks doc!

how about my sex experience when i was 4?
this happens together with my cousin
what would be the effect of this?

what kind of doctor should i consult?

hope i would still have a healthy lifestyles

THANKS!

[Dr. Kokil Mathur]

Hi
Thanks for keeping me posted!
The sexual exposure at the age of 4 years is probably causing you a lot of stress. You also feel that you are not normal for your age. For these hormonal changes that you feel are more in you, you need to consult an endocrine specialist. For the traumatic experience you need some counseling from a psychiatrist. Take care!

[gyneboy]

thanks doc

all of your informations help me a lot

hope i`ll discover anything that is abnormal in my body

thanks!

[gyneboy]

doc can you give some pictures of boy having an earlier puberty
or some evidence

thanks doc

[concerned621]

Hi, I am very sorry this happened to you. You were molested and it was wrong.  You body is your body and someone older of the same sex or of the opposite sex never has the right to take advantage of you at such a young age. You didn't know what was occurring and it is not unusual that it felt good.  In the right circumstances it does feel good and it can be a wonderful experience.  In this case this person harmed you. It may not of felt like that but you were a sweet, innocent young child that should have NEVER been touched in any way like this.  
There is all kinds of help for people without money. You need to seek help. Can you talk to your mother, father, aunt or uncle? They can take you to the school nurse or you can talk to the school nurse or counselor or teacher at school and they can find a way to help you. You need to talk to someone trained that can help you understand this better. I am not trained to do that or I would.  Also be very careful online discussing this.   Please reach out and talk to someone in your area you trust about this.  
You are a boy growing and all children mature at different times. Getting pubic hair, thinking about sex is very normal and boys do think about sex a lot.  Please do not act on it at this time.  Your body is your body, it is normal and healthy to masturbate in a healthy way.  But do not act out with another person at this time.  Do talk to someone you trust that can get you help.  There are resources for people without money.  Please take care of yourself and remember this was done to you, you did nothing wrong.  Be smart going forward, if you pray, say your prayers when your thoughts get confusing and don't wait to talk to someone about what happened.