In August I spent two days in the hospital. I don't think at the time they realized I was having a panic attack from anxiety. That's what I tell myself now in order to keep myself calm. For months afterwards I made the cardiologist very rich off me lol. I had a nuclear stress test done to rule out anything wrong with my heart which came back normal. I would appreciate it if someone could tell me if what I went through sounds, or was a panic/anxiety attack.
A little on my family history: Both grand fathers died of heart attacks, one was only in his 30's. My father had a heart attack, stroke, a triple by-pass, bladder cancer, anxiety/panic from fear of heart problems, heart disease, high blood pressure, diabetes, congestive heart failure, neuropathy, and liver problems which he passed away from in Feb. My grandmother had two heart attacks one after the other. She had a mild heart attack and when the nurses ran into her room it scared her so bad she had a massive heart attack. She lived! She also has diabetes. My other grandmother died of liver cancer, diabetes, and congestive heart failure, BUT she got the CHF from chemo and radiation therapy to try and kill the cancer. She also had gall bladder stones which resulted in removal. So it wasn't a genetic heart problem. My mother had a operation to take out some of her intestines because she had diverticulitis. She's had gall bladder stones which resulted in removal, and endometriosis which resulted in a hysterectomy. She has acid reflux. Please note: Before August 2008, I did not sit and think about all the things I might get from inheriting them. Now I do after my hospital visit.
Here is my timeline/outline/symptoms of what happened.
October 2007 - Job as a patent assistant to a law firm. A high stress job simply because it was virtual and I am the type of person that once I start on a project I want to get it done now, not take my sweet time. There was a co-worker that was teaching me the foreign side of the patent filing and I was annoyed with how slow she was with support. I felt her attitude was that she really didn't care and I could wait all day for whatever I needed. I wake up not feeling so very well. I remember I felt like what I call toxic. It's hard to explain, but it wasn't like sick coming down with something. It was like someone injected something toxic running through my veins. And my eyes and head felt yucky too. So I wasn't in the best mood already. Then to start my day I was getting irritated with the co-worker.
Note: The day before I had been researching online the symptoms of a heart attack because my blood pressure was high.
So has I try to calm myself from the irritation, all of a sudden I felt a little dizzy/lightheaded and like I was going to pass out. To me that feeling of passing out was it felt like I couldn't get any air through my nose. It was strange. So I jump up out of my seat thinking something was wrong with me. I call 911 and tell them to please hurry because I think I'm going to pass out!! While I'm on the phone with them all of a sudden my heart starts pounding really fast. Ok that had never happened to me before so I really start to "panic" and run out of the house to meet 911 at THEIR door! When the guys got out of the truck they looked at me and said..this is for you? I felt like a frog or something weird they'd never seen before. I said, "yeah" and pretty much pushed them out of the way and climbed up into the truck! They took my BP and heart rate and EKG said the HR was already back to normal, but my BP was high and I needed to get it checked out. I was not having a heart attack and that I probably had a panic or anxiety attack which mimic heart attacks, that I was fine. They said I probably got a big rush of adrenaline and I would probably feel really sick. I get out of the truck, go back into my house, call my mom and proceed to cry about it because I think they just didn't want to deal with me and there is something wrong with me. She finally talked me out of it and I went on about my life.
Feb 2008 my dad passed away. I became really depressed. My high BP is still untreated because I don't have health insurance. Even though this was the most traumatic experience of my life, I did not have any type of attack, and you would think if I had panic/anxiety disorder this would be the time for it to make itself known.
August 2008. Days leading up to my second attack I had a lot going on. My job was stressing me out, I quit and then went back after my dad died. I wasn't happy with the company because I was an IC, but they were treating me like an employee. I was looking for work trying to find something before I quit again so that my husband wouldn't carry the full financial burden. I started to get even more depressed as I soon figured out that I wasn't going to find any other law firms willing to work with me virtually and there aren't any IP law firms in my town. Going into other field wasn't an option because I wouldn't be paid what I was used to being paid with the law firm. So I was stressed out about that. Then the day before my attack my sister asked me to go with her to pick up her boys from their fathers house because he was refusing to give them back to her. She let them go to his house in another state for his visitation etc. So we get there and I start getting anxious because it was really stressful the whole situation. We had to call the cops, and to make matters worse they wouldn't get evolved even though my sister had court ordered papers that she has primary custody. I felt so bad for her! So we had to leave and start back home. On the way home we stopped at a store with a pharmacy and I checked my BP. It said 188/95. I was like wow, but it didn't bother me.
The next evening I had a slice of pizza, coke, and a king size chocolate bar. Yeah, not very good for me. Maybe an hour later I was reading some manuals on odesk and all of a sudden I got that dizzy/lightheaded/passing out feeling again. So I jumped up and go sit down on the couch next to my husband and try to calm down. Then I feel my heart do that pounding thing in my chest. The pounding thing lasts for a few seconds. I just starts pounding so hard so I feel it. A few seconds later I don't feel it anymore, but it's still pounding because of what my vitals say. So I go check my blood pressure. I don't remember the exact reading but it was so high that it freaked me out and I tell my husband to take me to the closest pharmacy so I can check my BP because mine is probably broke. I get out the door and not even to the car and the heart starts pounding again! And the passing out feeling starts up again. Then I start to have a hard time breathing. I think I'm having a heart attack!! My husband calls 911 and the whole time I was shaking and going through the other symptoms thinking I was having a heart attack! It was so bad I start asking the lord to forgive every sin I have ever committed because I thought this was my last night on earth.
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