hey, everyone.
hope you guys can help me.
i was a normal 16 year old female. i've been living in germany now for about 4 years, and i never really had any serious medical problems. i'm 5'2, 116 pounds. which i think is pretty good for my age. anyway, up until about 2 weeks ago, i started feeling my heart beat in my chest literally ALL the time. seriously, i can always feel my heart beating in my chest!! and it feels like it's beating WAY too hard and too fast (even though my pulse is usually about 72). i'm scared to death about this every single day, and when i told my parents about it, they brought me to some doctors. on my virst doctor visit, i was EXTREMELY nervous, so of course my blood pressure and pulse were high. then i had an EKG test performed there, and the results were abnormal. so my doc prescribed atenelol for me, an di take one a day. it's a small dose. just one little pill. but i take two because it makes me feel better than just 1 pill would. anyway, and sometimes 2 aspirin. then i went to my second doctor, a german heart doctor, who said my heart has a good rhythm, and he didn't really find anything so far to worry about. i have to come in for a stress test and wear a holter monitor for 24 hours next time i come in. i also had an EKG test done there AND an ultrasound done. i've had 2 blood tests. all results came back normal. but i'm still waiting for the results from my third and most recent one. does any one know what might be wrong with me? what i'm feeling i know for sure isn't quite normal.
this problem is really affecting my life and i'm scared every day. i can't eat. i can't sleep. i don't really go out and hang with friends anymore because i'm scared for my heart. and to make matters worse, my parents think i'm imagining things or making things worse than they really are. doc says i have a very small deficiency in my heart, but that i can live to 100 with how the condition he 'thinks' my heart is in. but i don't think that's what's causing all this. i wish my parents would check me into the hospital for a couple of days just to get some more and proper testing done. proper procedures such as more ultrasounds, cardiac MRI, chest X-Rays, ECG and EKG, Cardiac catheterization, and whatever else there is. i'm suffering from extreme anxiety and everyday gets harder and harder for me. if there is something wrong with me, which i really think there is, maybe i could just get it fixed and recover and move on with my life. but i can't. i've forgotten what it feels like not to worry and i'm terrified that i'll never feel normal again. sometimes i get pains in my neck, back, shoulders, throat, and sides. sometimes even my chest. when i talk to my parents about it, they get upset and yell at me which makes me feel even worse.
can any one help me? any advice or help is GREATLY appreciated!