alcholic cardiomyopathy or pani attack in 24 yr old mother of 3

I have been an alcoholic now for about 6 years, i have 3 young children which is very stressful. I also suffer from ocd. about 8 months ago i had some heart pulpatations i called an ambulance but by the time they got there it was finished and a week ago it happened again but for much longer this time and was admitted to hospital they thought it may have been alcoholic cardiomyopathy so i cold turkey quit and have been sober now for 8 days and go in for an echocardiagram tomorrow my problem is can i still drink with out my heart flipping to 240bpm again an ending up in hospital, alchol has never been an issue as far as getting on with life is concerned and i don't drink when my kids are awake and only drink at night , i have just found i don't like the person i am when i have not had a drink the ocd takes control any help would be great thanks . also have a chest infection

[Trackermom]

No you can not drink and expect to get better.  Alcohol is not helping your OCD.  You need psychiatric help and addiction help.  Get someone to watch your children and go into treatment.  
Otherwise you will die.