Attitude

[Dennis_]

Ok ... Attitude ...I am mean, meaner and meanest.  Does anyone have any advice on how to quell the annoyance at the smallest thing ?    

[Lady Lauri]

  This can be a real emotional roller coaster.
What has REALLY 'saved' me is the luxery of being alone a lot, little stress, little interaction with others (tho a cashier got a bit of the Riba one day, but she was ignorant,lol!)  There is little patience, tolerating skill's on these drugs, so walk away and go be alone in those times. DO explain to wife, kids, anyone around you a lot that this IS part of tx, you love them and sorry if it 'comes out on them ' at times. My older son, 3 sons, all very close, has a few times let me rant and just said 'calm down mom, it'll get taken care of, go chill out, no worries', but let me rant 1st and never took it personal, knew I was just very sick, frustrated because I sat all down starting into this and told them how I may be. Bless all as they have tolerated my few bad days. I haven't had the rage too bad tho, and honestly feel it's because I stayed away from the public, limited stress, a lot of alone time,etc.
  You'll make it, learn to do 'time outs' for yourself!

LL

[Bill1954]

It looks like you're getting some good thoughts in here... lots of wisdom aboard this boat. Did you hear from the doc about that nosebleed issue?

Hang in there :o),

Bill

[Dennis_]

Thank you so much for your comments.  I just started tx Jan 11 and this is so great to be able to both commiserate and celebrate.  I hope that I can help someone else when they come in like you guys have helped me.  The only word I can think of now is GRATEFUL.  

[HARRYBEADS]

what sort of meds have Docs got you on, any anti's or tranq's ask him for some.
My wife just doubles up on the morphine and i shut right up.

Harry

[ejoli]

Hey, that's a great idea! I'd like to have a private storage shed to go to. Then no one could ask for anything from me and I wouldn't have to clean up after anyone!  Sounds wonderful...  You could have a big screen and a small fridge for cold drinks and stuff. You would only have to go into the house when you get lonely.   I finished tx last Aug. but I still want a shed!        Take care,   -Libby

[R Glass]

My wife wants me to buy a Storage Shed from Home Depot, convert it in to a living quarters, and wants me to move into it until I finish tx.

[Terrylee8]

I take Prozac and it really seems to help

[wyntre9]

I had to go back on AD's 2 weeks ago.  I'm at week 62 of TX and the past three months have been horrible!  Dr. put me on Wellbutrin and i cannot believe the difference in my attitude, not to mention my energy level.

I should have started taking it sooner.  i was on prozac from months 4 - 7 but stopped that over the summer coz it made me feel like a slug.

Anyway, if you're on the right AD (I was not) it can make a huge difference.

[FlGuy]

Even though you feel like junk and the meds have you at the end of your patience rope, you are still responsible for your behavior. Sometimes one needs to raise the consciencious level to exercise, or contain, the impulse to lash out. It might the opportunity to isolate yourself from those situations when it's possible to be the most hurtful.  No one is at fault for your need to take these meds and no one should pay the price, it's bad enough that you are.  That fact that your are aware that you have the potential to be mean indicates that you have some level of reason to deal with it.  Good luck, it's not forever.

[annekynch]

Yesterday I started taking Welbutrin.  Suddenly it makes perfect sense.  I'm not getting along at work and I really dislike not working.  I wish I would have come to this conclusion sooner.  It's not like people didn't tell me.  The stubborness was probably something I couldn't control either.  So I'm hoping the second half of tx is a little easier thanks to Welbutrin.

[desrt]

Prayer worked for me. So did taking way too much hydrocodone - but that comes with it's own set of problems, and eventually led back to more prayer.

[comeagain]

Last time on tx i felt mean to the bone. everyone in the streets, in shops was dilliberately standing in my way i thought, wanted to push them to the ground hated my dog and I´m a dog lover yea  i was a really nasty person, two weeks after tx it was all gone My adwise to you is try to get on your own   as much as possible, feels so much better left alone and remeber its not your true self its the  meds!!!

[merryBe]

yur seretnin is stripped from your brain...everything is overwhelming the beauty and the srrows......1. get lots of rest, brain wants to hole up right now\
2 ask for a mild antidepressant or get on sam-e for sme help before it gets t bad
3. learn to pray and t focus on others..."think on those things which are lovely and of  good report" St. Paul said.....it's good advice, because minus seratonin its easy to see everything as half empty and the more we focus on that, the emptier than glass gets.

I think the lack of patience "snapping" is  because we have more trouble celebrating peoples faults when every thought, every new thing is an everest in our minds.
"the don't sweat the small stuff"  message here is harder to apply......what happens when nothing is small stuff.....that means your brain has no ability to regulate peace because the chemicals that sooth agitated cells are missing.

try getting plenty of naps, and NO cafiene or stimulants. If you do need a mild anti-dep ask for it very matter of fact....no details....just I'm snapping over nothing is enough said....if you are really depressed and suicidal even do not bring it up....they will stop your treatment cold if you are thinking of harming yurself.  You do need to have some control however, or you will drive yourself and your spouse through the roof.
trust me, it's called Riba Rage fr a reason.    hope you get some relief,
maryb

[sfbaygirl]

Are you talking about on tx or off?  On tx I could be really mean and nasty about the smallest thing. I think now that I am not on tx I am better....but I think you need to ask my husband!  lol