NYGIRL.. So so so sorry...

I just wanted to tell you that you are in my thoughts, I'm so very sorry for your loss.

Meki

[Valtod]

Deb, I'm really sorry for this horrible blow the blind Fate had in store for you... My sincere and deepest condolences on your loss. I know that you have great strength which I've always admired. Keeping you in my thoughts,
Val

[debnevada]

???

Have I missed something Deb posted?

[debnevada]

i saw. when? where? How?

my heart is in my throat

[pigeonca]

I don't know what to say.  Please accept my deepest condolences and best wishes to you and your son.  With love and prayers...
pigeon (Barbara)

[debnevada]

Deb, if there is ANYTHING, I mean ANYTHING that I can do or anyone else here can do, name it. I wish i were closer even if just for some lousy casserole at your door. My heart hurts for you and your son.

Deb

[shastri20032003]

Though nobody has mentioned the reason for the condolences....I  think I can assume it and I hope I am wrong
In case I am right.....please accept my deepest sympathies
Take care

[copyman]

sorry NYG. but i wish i knew what i was saying sorry for, can someone please tell me what happen?

[lostpass]

I also would like to know and if NYGirl is not on line maybe someone else who posted will inform copyman, me and others of her loss.  We are here to support.

[Andiamo1]

I also don't know what happened, but I rented and apartment in Stamford for September and October.  I, and I can speak for my wife as well, are there for you if you need anything at  all.  I have plenty of spare time and I am willing to do anything I can to help you out.

[desrt]

See Capirusa's post re: Ringing in my ears"

My condolences also nygirl.

[mikesimon]

I am sorry for your loss. Be well, Mike

[couchpotato]

So sorry to hear of your loss and the pain you and your son are dealing with. Take care of each other.

Mattie

[jmjm530]

Very sorry for your loss.

-- Jim

[meki]

I am so sorry guys - desrt is correct. I didn't mean to leave anyone in the dark.

[AngelsOnMySide2]

Dear Deb,
Please accept my deepest condolences to you and to your son,
on your loss.

With Love and Light Always,
Donna

[ponyshel]

I am so sorry I missed the post.....You are my stronghold and I know I haven't seen you post for sometime...I missed you...I am so very sorry for your loss....it is hard enough going through the move,tx.work... I can't even imagine...I hope you keep your chin up as your a very strong person..your a survivor...Keep smiling throughout even if your weeping on the inside..give your son a big hug let him know its gonna be okay....if you need ANYTHING...post and I'll be there...I mean it! please take care....BIG HUGS :)shelly

[nygirl7]

Thank you everybody for your thoughts and prayers.  My husband had MANY many many issues over the years and the eventuality of them all finally arrived - his brain just snapped off while he was very drunk and I know he never even realized what he had done...I know he is at peace now and that it's just us missing him but the knowledge doesn't make it easier.

And I just LOVE how the company gives you THREE countem THREE death benefit days for the grieving and burial of a spouse. That's freaking NUTS I tell you!

Anyway - I'm trying to get some gumption back up and seeing this post just helped to fill the hole that is in my heart.  I can't thank you enough guys.

(Needless to say I put my six month PCR off for a little while - Lord knows what all this crying has done to my liver enzymes and I dont wanna KNOW!!!!!!!!!!!


PS I have a daughter and a son (I just don't want her missing out on any prayers if you know what I mean!~)

[ponyshel]

I pray for you all...and as for the company they don't give a rats as*  as far as time off is concerned..I hope you feel stronger everyday and get your pcr done I'm sure you'll be fine....Crying is good for you releases hormones...I finally cried after last injection...I  was numb for awhile but now after tx I am getting some brains back...i think...and I am feeling emotional..a good thing..I will say prayers for you and your family.....HUGS :) shelly

[kimberlynn]

I am very sorry for you also.  I had no idea anything was even wrong. You were trying to help me and you had huge problems of your own. I wish I could do something to help you now.  Thought and prayers are mwith you. Love Kim

[frijole]

Deb,
I am so sorry.  I hope the kids are holding up okay.  THis has to be a hard thing for them, regardless of the course his life took.  You know, we either make changes or we continure down the path we are on.  I know you tried to influence him to change.  I am sorry.
Kath

[honey11]

I'm so sorry!!!   I had no idea what this post was all about and when I finally read what happened,,,,I was shocked,,,,you were just here other day helping others when your own  heart is breaking.  You and your kids are in my prayers and I hope each day gets a little better for you guys!  Uggghhhh and your work!!!  3 days is crazy!!!  

[Andiamo1]

Now that I know the issue I want to redouble my offer to help you and your children with anything you need.  We rented an apartment on Glenbrook Avenue for September and October, so we will be neighbors if you still live in Stamford. So please let me know if you need anything at all.

I know full well the pain of losing a father at a young age, since it happened to me as well.

You and your children are in my thoughts.

[mremeet]

Real sorry to hear of your loss. Sure seems like you've had an awful lot of suffering dumped on your plate in the last 2 years. I've never met you, but there's one I definitely know about you: you're a survivor. You'll get through this and live to see better days - with your SVR and kids, MUCH better days. Hang in there...

[nygirl7]

Oh you're going to crack up - I live on Hope Street - we must be within a mile or two of each other right now (well I'm at work but you know what I mean)!  WHAT are the chances of THAT?

Thank you so much for your kindness.  We're trying to put one foot in front of the other right now because that is really all you can do (and pray every day the pain lessens just a bit to make it tolerable).

What in the world brought you to Stamford of all of the places in the world?

How absolutely bizarre is this.  I take Glenbrook every single solitary day I mean Glenbrook turns into Hope UNBELIEVABLE!!!!!!!!

[GrandmaA]

I'm truly sorry to hear about the sudden loss of your husband.  I'm sure you will be strong as always. And yes, prayers go out to you, your son and daughter.  The Lord and time are great healers.
Thinking of you.

[FloridaMouse]

My condolences to you and your family.

Mouse

[Andiamo1]

My niece lives in New Canaan and is getting married in early October.  We used to live in Norwalk before I retired.  We sold our house and went sailing for two years and then bought a place in Florida.  We kept our boat in Westport Ct for the summer, but I couldn't sail much this year due to the side effects of TX.  We rented a cabin in Maine for some of August and that is where we are today.  We rented the Stamford apartment as of 9/1 on a two month short term lease, so we can be here to help our niece with her wedding and of course GO TO THE PARTY!!

We are heading back to CT tomorrow and should be in the area by Monday.  So please, take me up on the offer of help in any way at all.
Eric

[dlr2007]

I'm so sorry to hear about your husband. I lost the father of my kids to a drug overdose in 2001- we were newly separated. I know how difficult it is, especially worrying about the kids dealing with it and tring to hold your own sanity together. I went back and forth between devastation and a cold numb feeling of disbeleif. I spent the funeral trying not to cry because I had my 7 yrold son and my 2 teenage stepdaughters to be strong for (my daughter was 3- too young for a funeral I thought). I've read your posts- I know you have the strength to get through this. I'm so sorry you have to though. Remember to take time for yourself and grieve however you need to. I just buried my feelings and they came back to haunt me later. Your kids will be OK- they have a wonderful strong mother like you to guide them through this. You and your children are in my prayers.
  With deepest sympathy,
   Dee

[nygirl7]

Oh you're from the area that makes much more sense...not that Stamford doesn' thave it's nice sections but it's not exactly a tourist destination if you know what I mean - in that case you'd think people would hit the next town down, the 90210 of the NE Greenwich if they could afford it LOL

Thank you so much for your kindness.  It just again proves the value and quality of the people on this board and it just blows my mind.

Debby

[Myown]

So very sorry to hear this. Hang in there. My prayers go up for you and your family.

[Andiamo1]

We will be living in the apartment on 87 Glenbrook avenue.  Perhaps my wife and I can  buy you lunch or dinner or coffee sometime in September.

I am glad to see you still have a sense of humor.  I lost mine once I started TX; I hope it comes back quickly after I am done.  I am still chuckling about the 90210 of the north east.

[ladywhy]

I am really sorry to hear of you and your kids loss. Please accept my sympathies and prayers.
Yvonne

I didn't know what happened....and my heart was pounding...trying to find the other post..to figure out what had happened. It's really amazing, though the majority of us have not met, how much care and concern we feel towards one another.

God is Good

[orphanedhawk]

    I'm sitting here with my morning coffee feeling shocked and overwhelmed with  empathy for you. I'm deeply sorry for your sorrow, pain and sadness.  Although my kids are grown, I'd be devastated if anything happened to their dad, my soul mate.  We lost my dad when I was 7, and it must have been so hard for my mom to carry on.  She always said, her kids pulled her through it.  I'm glad you have your children with you.

     You have always been a bright shining beacon on this forum.  

Good luck sweetheart.                The sun will shine again.
             I'm sending you buckets hugs and a shoulder of love to lean on from  across the country.                              OH                      

[chevyelcam79]

Please accept my deepest condolensences (SP?).  May god speed to the recovery of you and your children's sorrow!

And yes, I agree, corporate america is BS.  I work for a county government in Maryland and we get a whole 4 days!  Woopee!!  

May you find solitude in knowing that you have love and friendship from people you don't even know!!

God Bless!!

Shari  

[chevyelcam79]

Oh, and I absolutely love Aerosmith too!  

[scubadiver30]

Got no words to express my sorrow
Mi sentido pésame

scuba

[cigaso]

Sorry about your loss. You and the kids will be in my prayers.

[GrandOak]

Sorry to hear of your loss.  I realize words often are not enough and often seem to fall sort of alleviating what you must be going through right now.  Iknow you've had to endure some tough times these past couple of years.

I hope you can find some solstice in knowing that our thoughts and prayers are for you and your family. I will be lifting you and your family up in prayer for some better smoother times ahead.

I will also be praying that your company will be one of those who understands that the closer the loss, the more time it requires to deal with the impact is has upon us emotionaly and physically thus allowing you adaquate time to cope with the impact this loss will have upon you.

You've been through a lot and always seem to come through.

[Willy50]

I'd also like to express my condolences for the loss experienced by both you and your kids.  Take care......don't over do it and give you and your kids some time.  

Willy

[geterdone]

NYgirl, my condolences to you and your family.

jasper

[merlino]

Deb, I am away and just checked in. I am so very very sorry to hear this. You and your children are in my thought and prayers. I will be back on Monday - you are not far from me so if there is ANYTHING I can do just ask.   D

[FlGuy]

Before you run back to the beach...how's your hgb at last check?

[tobywankenobi]

I am so sorry!!!!! My thoughts and prayers are with YOU!!!

[Teufelhunden]

Amazing grace!  How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found;
Was blind, but now I see.

‘Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved;
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares;
I have already come!
‘Tis grace hath brought me safe thus far,
And grace will lead me home.

The Lord has promised good to me,
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.

Yea, when this flesh and heart shall fail,
And mortal life shall cease,
I shall possess, within the veil,
A life of joy and peace.

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow,
The sun forebear to shine;
But God who called me here below,
Will be forever mine.

When we've been there ten thousand years,
Bright shining as the sun,
We've no less days to sing God's praise
Than when we'd first begun.

[Lonestar823]

I knew something had happened.  I had last week off work and spent some time reading so I could catch up on everybody.  I looked for you every day and so I just knew.  I knew it wasn't that you had relapsed.  You wouldn't have stayed away for that reason.  I found this board for the first time one winter night while I was deep into my sixties weeks of tx.  I was alone here  and I was so sick and half crazy in the head.  It was storming like crazy  and the power went out but the battery held on my little old laptop.  The very first post I read was yours.  You were just starting week fifty I think. You were struggling.  Really struggling like a badly wounded soldier but still so strong.  The strength it took for me to finish I took from you. Since that night I've always secretly called you candle in the night.  Thank you for all you've taught me.  I'm so sad and sorry for your family's loss and pain.

[goldyn]

My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family in this time of  saddness, I pray that  a peaceful healing and forgivness,and Grace falls on you family as you are going through this hard time.
                                          
                                              Blessings to you and family

                                                              Angie

[Becky D]

So deeply sorry for your loss. You sound like such a strong person and I feel certain that you have imparted some of this strenght into your children. I honestly can say that for all on this forum to be strangers you couldn't find a better group of people who will at all cost be here to support you through this most devastating loss. May God bless you, Make his face to shine upon you and be gracious and give you peace.  My thoughts and prayers are with you and your children.
God Bless.  Becky D

[wyntre9]

I just realized what was going on. . .

I have no words, lady, other than I'm so sorry.

Wyntre

[couchpotato]

And please tell your daughter how sorry I am for the loss of her father, she will not be forgotten in my prayers this evening.  And this too, shall pass..................... Loving memories get us through times like this, I'm sure you have a million.

Be well
Mattie

[CockSparrow]

Your loss is so sad.
Yeh Coporations suck. I work for a large multi national US IT company and was able to take off as much time as I wanted when my brother died. Others in my family got stuff all time off. Depends on the company I guess. Its not just a US thing. Like your attitude taking 10 days anyway.

All the Best
CS

[tumbleweed1999]

Just came across the news of your loss.  I'm am so very sorry.  My prayers will be with you and the children.  How can you get any more support than by being a BAC and a member of this board??.  It doesn't get any better than that.  We are all here to let you "vent" any time that you feel you need to.

Romans 8:28. "All things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose."

Eventho' we don't understand the whys and wherefores of His thinking, you are a very strong person and will make it thru this time  His Grace is sufficient.

He ( and we ) are with you in this  time - and always.

In His love
Geri

[GoofyDad]

I am really sorry. I can't pretend to know what you feel, but can only tell you that time will be healing  - it sometimes feels like it can't - but eventually it gets easier. Take care.

[JackABCD]

I am very sorry for your loss. All the Best.

[meki]

NYGirl - I just wanted to add - you've been a massive inspiration to hundreds of people that have come to this board... Even if only for one day... You've changed lives for others, you've been a lighthouse beacon amidst foggy days for a lot of us around here. When things have gone badly for you - you've rousted up the energy to be there for others.

So keep filling your heart with good thoughts... and stay strong!

I will continue to keep you, your daughter and your son in my thoughts all week long - and beyond!

Meki

[lostpass]

There are times ,like now, that I get this gentle nudge and thought........ "Patti, you ought to write a book."  This is one of those times.  I am a weeble... I wooble but I don't fall down.  That is you, N.Y. Girl.  You have strength.  My strength has always been from God.  As a little girl, I would take scotch tape and put it over the words of my "God books" as I called them, so the words would be shiny and smooth as I ran my fingers over them.  I loved esp. the words, " God loves you and He has given each of us a guardian angel to look after us to be with us here on earth and to accompany us to heaven after this life is over." I gave my angel a name and I call on him all of the time.  During difficult times in my life esp., my angel has dropped pennies from heaven as an outward sign that everything is going to be o.k. and I am not alone.  Sounds crazy??? Well, I found them when my husband passed away in '02, when my daughter was on a life support system for 9 days with only a 1% chance of survival  in "91 { she came out of the coma on the 9th day.. she shared with me her experience on the other side and said that God has a sense of humor, loves unconditionally.  She learned many things in HIS company... that the 2 most important things in life are love and knowledge.}  She married and now has 4 children.  It was during her ordeal that I kept finding pennies in abundance and wondered why and what the meaning was.  I found a book by June Howard and she explained that her angel dropped pennies to let her know that what was happening in her life at the time was ok... that she was not alone.  Another writer, in tune with their angel ,wrote that heads or tails means nothing... but notice what is written on the penny.."In God We Trust"  Needless to say, I pick up every penny I find and it puts a smile on my face .  My husband passed away in '02 and in '04 my other daughter {I also have a son} said it was time for me to get out and meet people.  She put me on Cupid.com After 32 years of marriage, I was a little scared to say the least.  I read this man's profile.  He lived in Sharon, Ct. 10 minutes from me. I lived over the border in N.Y. State.  He was looking for a lady and someone who believed in God.  Hmm-mmm didn't sound like an ax murderer to me {smile here} so I responded.  To make a long story short.  It turned out that this man I was going to do detective work to find out about before I let him know my full name --------------------after he read my comment about horses{ which he said he liked and I said I was afraid of }  and the fact that my brother ,John Edwards,  was 3rd in the nation in bareback bronc riding ... -------------------- I actually knew!!!!!.. yup, that's where I gave away my maiden name.  He read" Edwards" and said to his son, who had put him on the computer, " Oh my God! Patti Edwards!  I was in H.S. with her.  She was in my class.  I had the biggest crush on her!"  Ron sent a response on my daughter's computer and she called me with the news.  Neither he nor I knew how to use the computer so he gave his tel # for me to call.  I did and we talked for almost 3 hours and we met that night at Cumberland Farms in Amenia, N.Y. 10 minutes from his as well as my home.  I got there before him.... nervous as ever and there on the floor was a penny.  During the course of our phone conversation, I had told him about the penny and its meaning.  He walked into the store and I looked at him and turned and pointed to the penny on the floor. I knew the minute I saw him that this was IT!!! Now I must cut this short, so  to sum things up, we were together for a year.  He had asked me to marry him right away, but my 83 year old Mom told me to WAIT.  We waited and  then on June 25th 05 WE WERE MARRIED !!!! He is my soulmate.  I love him to pieces.  One month after our marriage,  I had surgery and then 2 months after that I had life or death surgery because of an infection from the first operation.  He was there for me. While in the hospital the Dr. said that I needed to address the Hep C problem that I had contacted in 86 from a blood transfusion.  We met with the Dr. and decided to go for a cure since there was a cure.  Ron has been my caretaker and as you know this yr. { on June 19th, his birthday}, I was declared CURED.  He and I find pennies practically everyday and we put them in a special container.
NY GIRL this is to you for HOPE and out of LOVE and CARING.  One door closes and another opens.  You are on a journey, but not alone. God has a plan for each one of us... and if you look around you,  you will find outward signs to remind you of this fact.  If you look back on your life, you will discover that you have made it through because of the fact that you are not so much in charge ... that there is a higher Being watching over you and yours.  Things happen for a reason.  If I had not had the operations, I probably would not have done anything about the Hep C... also, it was discovered that I had not been given shots to prevent Hep B and on top of C that could have been fatal. P.S. WWW.millertonnews.com Thursday, June 30, 2005 A Wedding Story Four Decades in the Making.  Our wedding story made the front page!  Hope, Love and a Hug to you NYGIRL!!!!

[dperry10]

Deb ~ My condolences to you and your children.  Its a tough road, but you are a survivor..  

Lostpass !  what a fate story that is.  I was in tears reading it..  

[worry06]

I have no words to say. Very sorry for your loss.

Worry

[jools57]

you, your daughter, and son are in my thoughts and prayers....i am so sorry for your loss!!!

May God's peace and love surround you always...
hugs, Julie

[Cindy10]

I just read this and so sorry I am late, just checking in. Deb I feel terrible for you. What you and your kids have had to endure is much more than many. I lost my brother to overdose 5 years ago and the loss was devasting. I can't even imagine if it was my husband. I will pray for you and your kids that God will give you the strength you need to get through this. My sympathy is with you all.

[beamishboy]

My condolences,dear lady....

[PrettyPoisonNoMore]

I am so sorry for your loss, and for your children's loss.  No words to express it.  

[HappyDeb]

My heart goes out to you and your family through this time of adjusting to this new life of which god has given you. We do not know why he takes certain people,I feel that he needs them to do gods work in other places. We all have to adjust to taking care of ourselves and the other loved ones that feel the pain, but it could only make us more stronger for the future and for our loved ones who will need us to lead them into the future also.



                                          God Bless Debbie

[Tallahassee]

My deepest condolences to you and your family.  Be well.

[sunspot]

You have always been in my thoughts due to your battle with HCV and now more then ever I will think of and pray for you and your children for the loss in all of your hearts from the passing of your husband.
I pray for your husband that he is in a better place, free from the trials he had in life.
Best to you, Dana

[rosedarling]

Add me to the list of those offering prayers and condolences to you and your children.  Your kids are what will get you through this devastating time.  As echoed by all here, you have so often been an inspiration  to all of us.  Our hearts are with you.

[nygirl7]

Thank you for printing out the worlds to amazing grace.  The singer was going to sing Take me Home Precious Lord but I knew it would be WAY too hard to hear that song and requested instead he sing Amazing Grace as it was appropriate to my husbands life.


Andiamo - you guys are ON for lunch or dinner one day in September I would just love to meet up with you all in real life...even if my husband hadn't just passed away (well that sounded bad but you k now what I mean).  I really wish I could meet everybody on the forum - if I win the big Mega Millions it will be one of my first priorities to hold a great big giant NutJobHepper Only party!   :)

[nygirl7]

You guys.......................tears tears tears - thank God.

[Andiamo1]

As soon as we are settled, I will post something to you on the forum and we can pick a place.  I really look forward to meeting you.  You are one of my heroes on this forum.

[willing]

I'm very sorry to hear about your hardship; stay strong.

[OceanLiver]

NY, I can only imagine what you are going through.  One thing after the next.  I've heard it said, the universe only gives you what you are able to handle.  If that is the case, you are one strong, resiliant, resourseful human being.  I hope that you will gain some comfort from the love of your children, family and friends.  And from the strength of your healthy body!

[Forseegood]

So sorry to hear about this...sending my healing vibes to you...stay strong as you always do...light at the end of the tunnel, and all that...I only wish the best for you!

[dancegirl54]

Deb,

I am so sorry, you and your family are in my prayers. Reading your posts has been a godsend. If you are ever in the Boston area, please let me know - I would love to be able to give you a hug in person.

Lisa