Aa
Not my plan
Im 53 yrs old,my persanality has been based on alcohol since 12. I did 10 weeks on the Peg-Red treatment totally convinced I could be alcohol free and kick this disease of mine with 2 heads.They took me off said it wasnt for me.My anger was treated with Paxil 3 Doc said it is the only one that dosnt go threw liver.Today I feel like **** every morning, my VL is growing into the 4000. No one seems to care or apreciate the new me.Im having a bad day becouse I except my dying as it comes,with alcohol. that is who I am.
I don't follow your post. were you drinking while treating? why isn't treatment for you? was it not working or you had bad side effects. are you drinking now.
Drinking has been a big part of my adult life. Now this hep c stuff. Its one of the biggest challenges I'm now facing. I fluctuate between being angry and depressed. So, you're not alone.
moytoy; well, if you are still drinking and still hcv positive, are you preparing to live a shorter life? Do you have family that will sorely miss you? My boss's 43 yr old brother was just turning his life around from drinking, after ending in ICU with ESLD. He also had hep c, yes, HAD. He did not finish turning his life around. At age 43, done. HCV + alcohol helped get him there. Your choice. DOn't wait too long if you are still hoping to turn things around.
Do take care of yourself.
Rev, that is one of the best planned deaths I have seen. I want what you are having!
Do take care of yourself.
Rev, that is one of the best planned deaths I have seen. I want what you are having!
I hate when alcoholism is called a " disease". Hep C and HIV are true diseases. I my opinion alcoholism is a slow suicidal deathwish and can be stopped at will, if the will is strong enough. I wish I had that luxury of being able to just will the virus away when it comes to my hep c, which is a legitimate disease. My grandfather who was addicted to booze stopped cold turkey one day so screw all the cry baby whing " diseased " alcoholics.
I dont know if it matters if it is classified as a disease or not. All I know is when I read the initial post I felt a twinge of compassion. I know how it feels to feel low. Anyway, yup he does need to pick himself up and do something about it. I just dont think the tirade was helpful at that moment.
okay. I can't stand ir. This is supposed to be a support forum. This person, unfortunately has HCV like most of the other folks here. Even worse - they have an addiction on top of it. They did stop drinking during TX, or least gave it a heck of a try. I just buried my best friend aged 55, alcholic, and HCV posistive - he endured terrible pain (physical and mental - he was anguished because he just got married 6 mo.s before he died, terribly distraught about how unfair he was being to her knowing he was dying...) - he endured gangrene, terrible pain from his liver shutting down amd his kidneys failing and his digestive system failing., and finally, thank god, he died quickly from mennangitis probably picked up while he was makeing the rounds visiitng people with cancer, lukemia, HIV... bringing groceries, medication, emotional support jokes and laughs. He never was able to completely stop drinking. Couldn't even tolerate pain pills the last few months of his life. Kept visiting right up to the day before he died. Wanted to quit drinking, god knows he cut down and TRIED to not hurt his liver too much. But the pain was too much, and the addiction (48 years) too strong. He was a "high functioning" drunk right up until the HCV and Alchohol finally beat his very strong body into the ground. It took 5 years for him to die after they told him his liver was damaged. Man this just makes me so emotional. I know there are spelling and typos - I am trying to not cry. Just because somone has a weakness (god knows we all have em) does not mean they do not deserve the best support you can give them. I am not saying to buy a drunk a drink - but maybe take them out to eat or share a little humanity. And yeah - they often don't even remeber what happened - but the heart and soul does. Lighten up, and show some compassion and love. please....
st. george as in Utah? Please tell me you didn't name yourself after a saint..
your "just quit you loser" attitude to addiction is naive.
diseases kill. alcoholism/addiction kills. you do the math.
your "just quit you loser" attitude to addiction is naive.
diseases kill. alcoholism/addiction kills. you do the math.
AT TIMES I WISH I ONLY HAD HEP C OR CANCER. THERE ARE DRUGS THAT CAN CURE THOSE DISEASES AND THE CHANCES OF RECOVERY ARE BETTER THAN 50% OR THE 10% RECOVERY RATE OF REAL ALCOHOLICS. I HAVE BEEN FIGHTING ALCOHOL ALL MY LIFE. I DO NOT HAVE A DEATH WISH. ONLY THOSE WHO HAVE IT KNOW WHAT IS LIKE TO LOOSE ALL OVER A OBSESSION TO DRINK. TO GET UP EACH MORNING AND SAY NEVER AGAIN AND BE DRUNK BY NOON TO HEAR YOU WIFE CRY HERSELF TO SLEEP TO TAKE ANTIBUSE AND THEN SIT IN THE PARKING LOT OF A HOSPITAL DRINKING SO YOU WILL NOT BE FAR FROM HELP. YOU WILL NEVER NEVER UNDERSTAND.
BOBBY
BOBBY
Why do you drink? What aspect of "you" do you dislike or what dark corner of your personality are you afraid to face head on. No need to hide behind a bottle, face your fear and be done with it!
WOW what a comeback. Thanks to all even St George you gave me streangth threw the positive and not so kind words.St George at times I have witnessed alcoholics .One friend was left alone in the middle of nowhere in a gold mining shack.2 hour walk to town.Her husband came back 4 days later thinking the withdrawals would be over and she was dead from drinking syanide.
Mom gave it to me and my sister at birth. Mom got it from a needle stick at work (shes a nurse).
enough of your 2 cent psyco-analizing, as i said...you will never understand. i have read some of your previous posts. have you ever tried ad's? you sound like you need them or at least one friend who will stay by you with that attitude. it must be a bit@h to be you.
bobby
bobby
Most alcoholics I have known have been immature adults who never really left childhood behind.
are you just in a bad mood? are you just looking for a fight? how did you really get hep c? why don't you read a bit more about alocholism and then you can be better informed because you clearly don't know what you are talking about.
Who said I was depressed.Far from that. I made a straight comment that I was angry that I have to put my best friend ,my companion that has been with me threw alot of family and friends deaths,to rest.Alcohol has always been there.Now Im told it cant be in my life.The pain is the same as loosing the most loved person in your life.You surely have no knowledge of alcoholism.
all i can say is i hope it works out for you moytoy. and for st george sounds like you got it all together so what are you doing in a support forum. a perfect person (minus the hcv) like you should not be here. i think you blew any chace for people helping you here after your remarks, but what the hey if/when you will be able to work it out on your own. god bless and happy thanksgiving to all.
Stopping drinking was the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. Unless you've actually had to go through it - it's an understatement if anyone says they understand blah blah blah.
But you cannot give up. That is not a viable decision. Please find a good qualified therapist to talk to and get their help. Drinking isn't just physical it is very much mental.
And the mental part...that was the part that made it the hardest for me. I tried and tried and finally now...it's sunk in. It really IS a one day at a time thing and I am only one drink away from where I was.
I wish the best of luck and hope that you can do it.
But you cannot give up. That is not a viable decision. Please find a good qualified therapist to talk to and get their help. Drinking isn't just physical it is very much mental.
And the mental part...that was the part that made it the hardest for me. I tried and tried and finally now...it's sunk in. It really IS a one day at a time thing and I am only one drink away from where I was.
I wish the best of luck and hope that you can do it.
Good for you !!! Be angry, be sad, feel all of those nasty feelings and share them, somewhere, with others enduring the same. Your doing GREAT! Feel the good stuff too - when it comes along. I'll be rooting for you!
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