help please

[hope_lives]

I want to drink myself into a coma.....  I hate this disease..... I hate the way people treat me... wtf can i do... everone seems to be my enemey? help me plz...

[JennyPenny2009]

You got some incredible postsw here. Please listen to those who have been there and done that. You will make it through to the other end. Your life is NOT over. When I was diagnosed in 1992 I already had cirrhosis. That is 18 years ago. Treatment has not worked for me but I am still here and well-compensated. Please try to find a support group. In fact Alert Health is run by a woman named
Andi who has recently become SVR. I know she can help you through this. She is in N. Miami. Call her at Toll-free:
877.HELP4HEP (877.435.7443)

[Anne1717]

Hector is right - My Dad has been in AA for 45 years and when a newcomer would come in with a list of problems he would take them for a ride to the Boston Children's Hospital cancer ward where there were so many different levels of gratitude amongst the sickest children. They found a way to be grateful to have 6 months of life because they found out the kid next to them had 3 months.  Humbling.

I know this is dramatic and does not alleviate the pain of finding out you are HCV positive.  It does put our disease in perspective though.  We have so much opportunity to live long and healthy lives where so many others do not.  I am not "happy" to have HCV but I have lost two sisters at a young age to cancer and Cystic Fibrosis and will never forget my Dad's lesson.

Perspective and gratitude

[Trinity4]

Sure, you can drink yourself into a coma but when you wake up you'll still have hepc along with a hangover and more depression.  You can't unring the bell, hepatitis is part of your life right now.  When I found out in the fall of '07 I had chronic hepc I thought my life was over.  I didn't know anything about this disease and because of the stigma attached to it I figured I was one those people who nobody wanted to associate with and was unclean and untouchable to my family and friends UNTIL I educated myself.  That's when I realized my life was far from over and there were steps only me, myself and I needed to take so that I could relieve my anxiety and try to eradicate the virus. The only people I disclosed my diagnosis to was my immediate family and the members of this forum.  I treated for 72 weeks, unfortuantely in my case the treatment was unsuccessful but to this very day no one at my place of employment knows I have hepc.  It's really not anyone's business and when I treat again with the newer drugs that are expected to be released in 2011, I plan on using the same stategy as before which is I'll disclose only on a need to know basis.  

Use counseling, anti-depressants, support groups, this forum or any other tool that will help you snap out of your funk.  You're no good to yourself or anyone else until you get a grip on your situation, educate yourself about hepc and develop a plan which will help you to move forward.  

I wish you the best.  Many have been right where you are now, have fought the battle and won so you can do it too.

Trinity

[HectorSF]

Life is a gift. Sometimes it takes almost losing it to full appreciate.
And yes I have been in the cancer wards. It is truly humbling.

Hectorsf

[HectorSF]

Seriously. If you want some perspective on having hep c go to the cancer ward at your local hospital. Go sit in a waiting room. Just say your waiting for someone, if they ask why you're there. Keep your eyes open. See the little kids there and the people who are dying. People without limbs because of cancer. It is very sad. Very very sad. They didn't sign up for cancer either. They are there suffering at a level we can't imagine. And are luck enough to not have to imagine. When you leave the hospital you'll be grateful you can walk out the door, unlike so many cancer patients who will never leave. It can be very sobering. I recommend it to anyone feeling down about their life. It will give you a new perspective on life.

Hectorsf

[spectda]

You have a great outlook. In spite of what you are facing, you are here helping others deal with their fears. We are lucky to have your support and knowledge.
Thanks,
- Dave

[HectorSF]

Why tell anyone about your disease? I would suggest telling only people close to you who you know will support you.
This disease is a disease what other think about it is their problem.
Try to pull yourself together and take care of your health. That is all the matters. Everyone gets ill eventually once they experience illness they will change their tune. Again that is their life not yours. You are only responsible for your own life.

Try to slow down. Being self destructive isn't gonna help at all. It is not black and white. You are going to be fine. As I said before, educate yourself about the disease. This disease is curable, unlike many other diseases where people have no hope. Try to get some perspective. It is not the disease at this point that is the problem, it is your fears based on sometime imagined rather than the facts of the disease. This disease is not the end of the world. Think about all the others on this forum. Some have even failed treatment. Have they given up? No. They are dealing with it and so can you. It might be worth thinking about what is good with your life then only focusing on the bad.

Good luck to you.
Hectorsf

[Trish77]

There are much worse diseases and situations out here than having Hep C.  There are diseases from which there is no cure and where you gradually lose all your bodily functions and then die.  A dear friend of mine who was full of life in every possible way succumbed to Lou Gehrig's disease over the space of 3-4 years, gradually losing mobility and the ability to communicate and then eventually passed away.  Get your sh!t together and focus on what you DO have.

You need therapy from a professional.  This is a Hep C support group and we can support each other through our Hep C journeys.  What you require is help from a trained professional.  I hope you seek that out.