wanna die

[alreadydead2yrsago]

I just took 10 pills or ribavirin(400 mg) one shot,and will take my pegasys shot now..I wonder is it gonna kill me! Is it enough to kill me or just gonna be hospitalized and got severe anemia and bleeding!

I wanna die badly,my life is misery,my parents passed away last year after 2 yrs of suffering both from cancer,I live with my brother,he has beaten me directly after my both parents death and force me to break up with my boyfriend and I went into a nervous break down....then I get engaged month later to another guy and figured out I have hep c...now he broke up with me,I'm always alone,this medicine make me unable to be friendly or to talk or move,my full time job is Ruined uop,dun wanna go to work anymore,it's my 7th shot...my fiancé can't handle my pain,hates me,fed up and was never there,he broke up with me,it's not about him,I dun give a damn for him,he was already making me feel lonely all the time and never hugged me when I'm in pain,he is an ***,I'm extreme lonely and my life is misery. I'm in PAIN

[James10500]

Hi Nora,

You can do this, you will get through this.  We care about you !!

James

[alreadydead2yrsago]

There r many names I didn't write,I want to thank each one of you,you are all amazing,and ur words are really helpful and sincere.

[alreadydead2yrsago]

James,Trish,marti,flcyclist,his3707,copyman,curiouslady and everyone..thanks for your words and support,it really means a lot to me,want to reply on each post..u give me hope,I know life is beautiful and worth living,life can be tough big time,but the best is yet to Come always..that's y we go thru this tough treatment to get a healthy life and healthy moments for the rest of our lives.

Live with an active body without pain is a treasure...I was hysterical yesterday,totally gave up and it was the longest moments ever..but thanks GOD,nothing serious happened,only some extra fatigue,headache and myalgia..I fell asleep or maybe fainted yesterday after hours of crying,emotional and physical pain..but here comes a new day,I'll go to my doctor now...wish that overdose won't affect the treatment in a wrong way.

Marti,u have been thru a lot,brave u r,god bless u,wish u happiness and healthy body and life.

The spirit of love and support here is a blessing,may GOD bless u all.

Thanks a dozen,
Nora

[marti45]

Please get to a mental health professional and get some help.  When my son was diagnosed with cancer I spent every waking moment thinking of killing myself.  Antidepressants helped quickly. Felt like a curtain was lifting. I got to live to see him become a healthy successful political activist making the world a better place.  In 2000 my husband died from cirrhosis caused by Hep C.  We got 3 calls for transplants but none of the livers were viable, Got back on meds for depression promptly . I did a year of treatment in 2005 followed by a year of almost 2 yrs of interferon maintenance. Was going to start to start Incevik this week and started Zoloft to hopefully prevent the awful anxiety and Riba rage I had on treatment. Just got my pretreatment labs back and learned somewhere along the way the virus cleared. I am so happy to be alive. I still have compensated cirrhosis but
without the virus I feel I have some quality of life left and an opportunity to give back. I lost several friends to drug addiction in the 70's and 80's and am so grateful something allowed me to get through those crazy times. I only briefly allowed myself to be in an unhealthy relationship. You have to get help so you can learn to care about yourself . There is no excuse for physical violence. None! Once the antidepressants start to work you will be able to start to work on your relationship and health issues. Learn to live alone and be happy before jumping into another bad relationship. With the right support you will get through the treatment. If you do not have cirrhosis talk to your doc about putting it off until you get your house in order. Life is beautiful and we all deserve happiness.  You can get there.  I am so happy to be alive. Just can't believe I cleared the virus.
Call a suicide or help line for abused woman and they will give you options for getting yourself in a safe and loving environment. Life can be wonderful.

[flcyclist]

Do hope she's ok and checks in today to follow up.  

[curiouslady1]

Has anyone heard from this individual?  Is there a way for the list administrator to contact her/him to see if she is ok?  I tried to back channel and got no response.