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Crumbling
It really hit me today, 10 months into TX, cowering on the side of the NYS thruway on my way to my monthly gastro appointment, rear passenger side tire flat as a pancake, just how much of an invalid I've become.
I didn't have a cell phone; it's one of the one of the many things I've forgotten to keep up with; the contract lapsed months ago.
I didn't have the strength to even attempt to change the tire myself. In my pre-TX days, i could have eventually figured it out. it might have taken me all friggin' day but I would have done it.
Steamy Indian summer morning, car parked next to a lush grove of apple trees with plump ripe fruit dangling: I got as far as emptying the trunk to pull out the spare and then started trembling, felt nauseous, couldn't breathe. Raised the trunk and leaned against the rear bumper, hoping I'd spot a good samaritan or a state cop whizzing by. In the back of my mind scenes from my niece's death, 5 years ago, on the side of a Florida interstate, trying to troubleshoot engine problems, mowed down by an out-of-control tractor-trailer . . . I wasn't THERE but I was there . . .
I was in luck. A k-9 unit pulled up, took my info and relayed it to the state troopers but no one showed up.
Joe from PA came by half an hour later and changed the tire in less than 5 minutes, refusing to take the $40 I tried to press on him.
"You've redeemed my faith in human nature," I told him
By this time I was close to passing out; didn't want to drive 60 miles back to my cottage on a spare, got off the next exit and bought a couple of new tires at a local Mavis, drove home, called the gastro telling them why I hadn't shown up, forced myself to go to the local Walmart to buy one of those prepaid phones coz with my luck, when i try to make the trip again tomorrow I'll have a similar incident requiring access to AAA and will once again be stuck.
I'm wiped out. One friggin little crisis and I'm burned, wondering how I'm gonna manage the trip tomorrow. Wondering how I managed to get back home safely today. Wondering if I'll ever again be able to handle such irritating but routine daily crises. . .
Feeling weak, scared, realizing I have next to zero strength left . . .
Very depressed.
Just had to ramble. Thanks.
wyntre
I didn't have a cell phone; it's one of the one of the many things I've forgotten to keep up with; the contract lapsed months ago.
I didn't have the strength to even attempt to change the tire myself. In my pre-TX days, i could have eventually figured it out. it might have taken me all friggin' day but I would have done it.
Steamy Indian summer morning, car parked next to a lush grove of apple trees with plump ripe fruit dangling: I got as far as emptying the trunk to pull out the spare and then started trembling, felt nauseous, couldn't breathe. Raised the trunk and leaned against the rear bumper, hoping I'd spot a good samaritan or a state cop whizzing by. In the back of my mind scenes from my niece's death, 5 years ago, on the side of a Florida interstate, trying to troubleshoot engine problems, mowed down by an out-of-control tractor-trailer . . . I wasn't THERE but I was there . . .
I was in luck. A k-9 unit pulled up, took my info and relayed it to the state troopers but no one showed up.
Joe from PA came by half an hour later and changed the tire in less than 5 minutes, refusing to take the $40 I tried to press on him.
"You've redeemed my faith in human nature," I told him
By this time I was close to passing out; didn't want to drive 60 miles back to my cottage on a spare, got off the next exit and bought a couple of new tires at a local Mavis, drove home, called the gastro telling them why I hadn't shown up, forced myself to go to the local Walmart to buy one of those prepaid phones coz with my luck, when i try to make the trip again tomorrow I'll have a similar incident requiring access to AAA and will once again be stuck.
I'm wiped out. One friggin little crisis and I'm burned, wondering how I'm gonna manage the trip tomorrow. Wondering how I managed to get back home safely today. Wondering if I'll ever again be able to handle such irritating but routine daily crises. . .
Feeling weak, scared, realizing I have next to zero strength left . . .
Very depressed.
Just had to ramble. Thanks.
wyntre
#49...............................1328 riba to go (lol)
My last shipment of riba came in capsule form...I've had various shapes and sizes of pills, but these are the first capsules
My last shipment of riba came in capsule form...I've had various shapes and sizes of pills, but these are the first capsules
Never heard of them but I will track them down for sure.
glad derm checked out ok.
Shot 41 tonight and neup tomorrow. You must be around #48, right?
wyn
glad derm checked out ok.
Shot 41 tonight and neup tomorrow. You must be around #48, right?
wyn
"Why the dermatologist? " Just an annual checkup. Checked out fine...;^)
You mentioned an orchard during your tire ordeal.....Tip O the day,,orchards began picking "Honey Crisp" apples around here a few weeks ago....If you have never had a honey crisp apple, you ain't been liv'in right, they are absolutely fab.....
You mentioned an orchard during your tire ordeal.....Tip O the day,,orchards began picking "Honey Crisp" apples around here a few weeks ago....If you have never had a honey crisp apple, you ain't been liv'in right, they are absolutely fab.....
The bird's name is . . . .
WHAT!!!!!!!
I agree - maybe Marie has a secret pet name for the conure, something pronounceable!
BTW, something that often works with birds is taking them into a small space, like a bathroom, for training. They can't get any speed up and can't injure themselves if they try to fly away coz there's nowhere to go.
just make sure you tell Nick to CLOSE the toilet cover! Seriously!
birds have been known to land there by mistake and . . . yup. . . . drown.
Oh, I'm a virtual encyclopedia of useless parrot lore. *LOL*
wyn
WHAT!!!!!!!
I agree - maybe Marie has a secret pet name for the conure, something pronounceable!
BTW, something that often works with birds is taking them into a small space, like a bathroom, for training. They can't get any speed up and can't injure themselves if they try to fly away coz there's nowhere to go.
just make sure you tell Nick to CLOSE the toilet cover! Seriously!
birds have been known to land there by mistake and . . . yup. . . . drown.
Oh, I'm a virtual encyclopedia of useless parrot lore. *LOL*
wyn
*LOL*
yeah, it's weird. ya don't know whether to offer congratulations or condolences.
Thanks for the concern about meds but the office manager has already gotten pre-authorization from the prescription plan for peg, riba and she's working on the neup.
the correspondence I have says the refills are approved through April, 2008, so i guess I'm good to go on that front.
that's one reason i don't want to change Dr.'s right now, despite the long RT. The staff is so competent, efficient and on top of all paperwork.
So at least these pumpkins are in a row. (can't stand the thought of the poor ducks suffering)
I know what you mean about all the appointments. Sometimes I feel like an old car going in for replacement parts. Often wish I could ditch the current model and get a whole new body. hahahaha
Why the dermatologist?
wyntre
yeah, it's weird. ya don't know whether to offer congratulations or condolences.
Thanks for the concern about meds but the office manager has already gotten pre-authorization from the prescription plan for peg, riba and she's working on the neup.
the correspondence I have says the refills are approved through April, 2008, so i guess I'm good to go on that front.
that's one reason i don't want to change Dr.'s right now, despite the long RT. The staff is so competent, efficient and on top of all paperwork.
So at least these pumpkins are in a row. (can't stand the thought of the poor ducks suffering)
I know what you mean about all the appointments. Sometimes I feel like an old car going in for replacement parts. Often wish I could ditch the current model and get a whole new body. hahahaha
Why the dermatologist?
wyntre
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