In Memory of bonnie

My long-time friend passed away this morning.

That's her pic in my profile.

I'm very depressed . . . ..

Wyntre

[tulips27]

Oh boy do I know what you are feeling right now.....Ive  been thru this a few times. Takes quite some time to fill the hole in your heart.
My deepest sympathies..........
Just keep thinking of what a good life she had.

Im sorry.

[dperry10]

Sorry to hear of your loss.  I know exactly what you are feeling.. But know where she is now, she can see and hear, and run and play , and she will be waiting to greet you when the time comes.   Its a rough time, but you will get thru it.   Just as you will get thru treatment.     SVR    Well try to remember all the good times, and funny things she did.   It helps you get thru it.   We are always talking about the quirky little things that Cessna did.   I still miss her..    But I see her headstone everyday..    The picture I posted was one of her daughters, Zsa Zsa.  My ex gave her away, when I went out of town on company business.    That I think was the final straw.      It ended soon after that.   I miss her too.. she was attached to my hip constantly.   If I did not put my hand on her, she was right up on me, trying to make me touch her.    She tried to slip me the tongue in this picture.. LOL  

[debnevada]

I'm so sorry Wyn.

I wish there was something i could say to help.

[wyntre9]

thanks all,

Isn't there some CM song that goes something like this:

I lost my home
I lost my job
But worse than that
I lost my dog.....

Trying to *LOL* but it's true . . .

Bonnie had a good long life . . .I got her in 1994 when someone threw her out of a car.

It was their loss, my gain.

I had to bring her to the vet this morning.  She'd lost bladder and kidney control, was vomiting, had a huge infection around one eye . . .I know it was time but I kept wishing she'd pass in her sleep . . .

I held her as the vet inserted the needle. . .she was gone within seconds . . .

This is really hard.  thanks for listening.  Bonnie and the flock thank you, too.

wyntre

I know Bonnie is . . . .

[Tater_ToT]

I am sooo sorry for you loss....
I'm grieving too right now so I KNOW what you are going thru...
We lost Our Sweet diabetic Heidi "Foo-Foo" yesterday evening...
I did the same thing & put my dear Heidi's picture in my profile, & she is now a resident at Rainbow bridge!

http://rainbowsbridge.com/residents/HEIDI061/Resident.htm

as hard as it is... I guess we have to be grateful & feel bless for the time we shared.... but it's HARD

Sending you great big {{{{{HUGGS}}}}} & sharing the tears!

[Tater_ToT]

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....  

Author unknown...

[jools57]

I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Bonnie...i will keep you in my prayers...
Blessings

[Tater_ToT]

My Heidi was in the hospital in ICU since last Thursday, do to complications of her diabetes...
Severel days & several grand later she developed pneumonia... & we knew it was time to make the call....she went quick & painlessly.... she was ready to go...
I sat with her a long while holding her & praising her.... even got up & gave her some water twice out of my hands by the sick.... I told her I'd meet her at Rainbow Bridge, & that she was gonna rest now, & what a good girl she is & that I Lover her.... I had scoot down in my chair & had her laying on my chest  cuddling her & been talking softly in her ear & kissing her face... & we we're nose to nose when she took her last breath!

It was hard, but I know it was time & the right thing to do... & I feel better knowing she is no longer suffering!

Hang In There!

[wyntre9]

Oh jeeeezzzz, Tater,
  
I'd just pulled myself together enough to go online but after reading your post I'm bawling my eyes out again. . . .,

I couldn't even read the whole thing . . .my glasses fogged up . . .i got as far as the Rainbow bridge part. . .

Thanks for posting and I'll read it again when i can see.

You're braver than me .... I held her but i just couldn't wait for it to be over so i could run away and collapse . . . .

wyntre

[susan400]

Awwww  I'm so sorry that you lost your pup, your friend.   I remember my very 1st experience with death was when I was 7 years old and my beloved cat, 'Tar-Baby' was run over by a car.  I found her  on the road.  I was devastated.  I don't think I'll ever forget that moment.  That cat sleep with me.  At lot of times she was my only friend!  I grew up in an area close to a military base so people were always moving away.  So, I grew very attached to my cat.   Anyway, I'm so sorry for your loss!

Susan

[pigeonca]

You've got me crying.  I find I always cry over pets more than I do over humans - maybe because there are no emotions other than love to complicate things.  Human emotions are way more complex, and not so pure.  Dogs came to this earth to be our friends and to care for us in exchange for our caring for them.  They're domestic animals, not made for living successfully without us, and we hold them in trust.  The love of a dog is priceless, and losing that pet leaves a vacant hole in the universe.  But the hole will fill up, slowly, continuously, until only a lovely memory remains. My heart goes out to both of you in your losses.

love,
pigeon

[geterdone]

I wish I could put a cm song together for ya but maybe this will do bobby goldsboro, honey with a little improve of course. Can't get past the first verse myself tho. Anyway, sorry for your loss.
jasper

[wyntre9]

Thanks, Susan.   The worse thing is I think I'm secretly relieved . . . .I'm not a very good nurse . . .   isn't that horrible?  :(

Pigeon,

i'm still crying too, or at least i was until geterdone mentioned the song 'honey'.

geterdone,

I looked up the lyrics and this part really made me laugh!  

She wrecked the car and she was sad
And so afraid that I'd be mad,
but what the heck
Though I pretended hard to be
Guess you could say she saw through me
and hugged my neck

Sounds just like Bonnie until i took her license away.  She was so short she couldn't see over the steering wheel.  

wyntre

[Forseegood]

I liked this one, maybe Bonnie is now running with my Sweetie....

It is said that when two friends have walked hand in hand through the shadow of a rainbow, their bond is strengthened, and the colors of the rainbow and the world are now brighter, nourished by the loving support beings gave one another during darkness.

  

[PSP-n-Me]

my deepest sympathy for your loss...Being such an animla lover myself, I can only imagine how hard it must be for you both - Please know myheart goes out to you both - Lots of hugs Beth

[wyntre9]

Thanks for your comments.

For some reason, just knowing other people know about bonnie  is comforting. . .

Forseegood,

I have meant to tell you the pic of Petunia is precious.  

tell Sweetie to keep an eye out for bonnie . . . .

wyn

[Tater_ToT]

wyntre,
Bless your heart... I was gonna say... Maybe your Bonnie & my Heidi are playing over in the meadow ... Looks like they are in Good Company with all the others that got there before them!

pigeonca,
I KNOW... when I popped in here & the first thing I read was about Bonnie... I just Burst Into Tears Myself... I Just HAD to reach out to wyntre to let her know she's not alone... this kind of stuff (although inevitable) just Rips my heart out!

Beth,
Thanks.... they really are like our very own children... I think it has to do with that "Unconditional" Love!!! It's Heart-Rendering!

[CIRQDUSOLIEL]

I wish so much that I could place my arms around you right now.  As you know just this past Thursday my little one, Pansy, died.  I was thankful that the last face I wanted her to see was mine to gently remind her that she was so unbelieveably loved!

I know of your heartache and loss.  I was just mentioning to some people that as a child I always had animals growing up, but as an adult, Pansy, and my other little one, Jacodi were the very first ones that I had ever had.  So the connection and love that I had for them was so much more intense.  

As a believer, I do believe that Heavenly Father has them close to Himself as they await our arrival oneday to be reunited!  This has been one of the things that I think on that has helped me...now I send this same loving thoughts and prayers onto you, my dear friend, during this time.  Please know today as everyday that you are loved and prayed for especially during this time.  

Together in Christ,
Rick

[CIRQDUSOLIEL]

Wow, it seems that we are all experiencing the loss of our loved ones.  I just got myself together from reading Wyntre's post when I saw that you're little one past as well.  I did the exact same thing you did in the vet's office with my little one last Thursday morning.  I feel blessed to know that our little ones knew beyond everything that they were loved!!  Please know that along with Wyntre I am praying for you that Heavenly Father will comfort you during this time.

Together in Christ,
Rick

[wyntre9]

Heidi, Bonnie, Pansy and Sweetie.  :)

The canine fab 4.

I've known this was coming for almost a year but it still hit me really hard.

I recently went through moving, losing job, financial problems, not to mention Hep DX.

All during the moving, back in the Spring, i kept praying Bonnie wouldn't die then coz i don't think i could have handled it.

that was when i had to go on prozac.

A friend emailed me today that maybe bonnie was 'hanging' on until i got settled . . . I think she was right.

I know she was uncomfortable in her body.  I know she was suffering.  i know that's not how she wanted to live.  When i got home from the vet's i felt her snuggle down next to me on the couch while I was sobbing my eyes out, and she was saying, "I'm OK.  I can see now;  i can walk again;  I can hear."

And when i was leaning over the table at the vet's. holding her as he inserted the syringe in her leg, I felt her body go limp after a couple of seconds and it really wasn't Bonnie, anymore, that I was hugging. . . .

She's being cremated with one of her favorite tee-shirts and I'll pick her up later this week.

Boy, did I love that little creature . . .

thanks everyone for helping me get through this awful day.  

tomorrow i have to make the 5 hour round trip to see the gastro.  It's been hard to think of a good reason to keep the appointment . . .

wyntre

[Conz]

my heart goes out to you. I have lost more than a few best friends and it hurts. but somehow new best friends alwasy find me. on the sideof the road, in a parking lot...... :>) guessit smy calling in life.

mourn for your friend.  then honor her memory and save another life. god bless.

[Myown]

So,so sorry. I know what you are going thu. It's such a heart breaker when this happens.

It so horrible to lose a pet. They are just like children as far as I am concerned..  Bonnie is so-so cute!!!  

I'm sure you have lots of pictures that will bring back fond memories of Bonnie.

Hang in there Wyntre. There are alot of animal lovers on forum,,,we all know what you are going thru and are grieving with you. I pray with Rick that you will feel the comfort of God surround you.

[wyntre9]

Thanks conz and myown.

it just doesn't seem fair that these wonderful creatures have such relatively short life spans . . .

I can live 35 to 40 years and Venus has a potential life span of 98 years.

it's just so heartbreaking with the furry ones . . .

wyntre

[GrandmaA]

So sorry for your loss. I cried for 2 days after my son's cat died. I adopted hiim when my son left home. Time is a great healer.

[wyntre9]

Thanks for posting, grandma.

I may break your two-day crying record!  

In a way, I'm glad i have to make the long round trip tomorrow.  it will be a welcome distraction.

I've been thinking about you. . .only 3 or 4 weeks left!

Hope you're feeling better and enjoying your retirement.

hugs,

wyntre

[Liv]

So sorry for your loss.  I called out sick from my job for two days after we had to put our beloved Boston Terrier, Jake, down.  He died the day of the Tsunami in 2004 and I was so pitiful I could only think of my own loss.  Pretty bad huh?

[Forseegood]

and all the pet lovers....when Sweetie died, I had all these plans of taking her out to her favorite park, the Palisades in Santa Monica where she would do this jumping dolphin thing in the landscaping there, (she had good taste) and I was going to have a little ceremony for her, etc...but I couldn't go there for the longest time, it reminded me too much of her, and her ashes stood up on my mantle...so I just bought a nice urn, and put them there, so she could watch us...it kind of comforts me to see her there...they mean so much to us don't they?

Wyntre, while I was looking up nice animal poems for you, I saw all these poems about birds from Rumi, one of my favorite poets...perhaps, once I'm through with all this, I'd really like to get a big parrot, one that I could just have with me ...you'd be my go-to person...you must be a really kind-hearted, generous sort, that Bonnie wanted to stay with you till you were settled.....to me they are so much wiser then us, they know when it's time to go and they are at peace with it....Peace to all sentient beings!

[wyntre9]

I'd love to advise you about parrots.  I know some rescue organziations and I also know people who rescue birds and often have some up for adoption.

would like to see the rumi poems.

wyn

[meki]

www.indigo.org/rainbowbridge_ver2.html


I can't watch it without crying..

Win --- I'm so very very sorry....

You're a good parent! Love like that is hard to replace.

Hugs,

Meki

[wyntre9]

Thnks, Meki.

I'll check it tomorrow.

wyntre

[Forseegood]

Gone to the Unseen (Rumi 13th Century Persian Poet)

At last you have departed and gone to the Unseen.
What marvelous route did you take from this world?

Beating your wings and feathers,
you broke free from this cage.
Rising up to the sky
you attained the world of the soul.
You were a prized falcon trapped by an Old Woman.
Then you heard the drummer's call
and flew beyond space and time.

As a lovesick nightingale, you flew among the owls.
Then came the scent of the rosegarden
and you flew off to meet the Rose.

The wine of this fleeting world
caused your head to ache.
Finally you joined the tavern of Eternity.
Like an arrow, you sped from the bow
and went straight for the bull's eye of bliss.

This phantom world gave you false signs
But you turned from the illusion
and journeyed to the land of truth.

You are now the Sun -
what need have you for a crown?
You have vanished from this world -
what need have you to tie your robe?

I've heard that you can barely see your soul.
But why look at all? -
yours is now the Soul of Souls!

O heart, what a wonderful bird you are.
Seeking divine heights,
Flapping your wings,
you smashed the pointed spears of your enemy.

The flowers flee from Autumn, but not you -
You are the fearless rose
that grows amidst the freezing wind.

Pouring down like the rain of heaven
you fell upon the rooftop of this world.
Then you ran in every direction
and escaped through the drain spout . . .

Now the words are over
and the pain they bring is gone.
Now you have gone to rest
in the arms of the Beloved.

Tator: so sorry to hear of your loss too, I just had time to read the entire thread, I love that Rainbow Bridge poem too, my heart goes out to you and your family.....

[Htownwife]

Hi Wyntre! So sorry to hear about Bonnie. We too, had to put our beloved basset hound, Hunter down about a month ago. He was 14, totally deaf, and beginning to lose his vision. He also lost bladder control, and when we took him to the vet found he had cancer that had spread to his stomach and intestines causing him to lose control. I know how hard it is to part with such a dear friend....our boys had grown up with him!!
I know he's in a better place now, but that doesn't keep you from missing them.
Hope you're doing ok!!

[wyntre9]

beautiful poem.

What book is it from?

wyn

[Forseegood]

Signs of the Unseen: The Discourses of Jalaluddin Rumi (Threshold Sufi Classics) (Paperback)
by Jalal Al-Din Rumi (Author), Jalaluddin Rumi (Author), Wheeler M. Thackston (Author) "The worst scholar is one who visits princes, but the best prince is one who visits scholars..."  

Glad you liked it...

[Kalio1]

Im so sorry.

Hang in there.

[Kit-c]

--So sorry to hear about your bonnie,,,
I have lost many little pieces of my heart also,.,.

Rain-bow Bridge,,,always makes me cry,,,,but I do know we will all
see our Darlins again---

sending you hugs,,,,,Gale

[Tater_ToT]

Hey Ya'll....
Boy this thread has ripped me down one side & slap up the other (But It's all Good)... It's so nice to see so many animal lovers among us & to be able to share our joys & tears! I was actually shocked to see so many recent losses but it is so nice to see the compassion & it is obvious how much we all clearly loved our pets!

My grandmother (whom was a very religious person) used to always say that you could tell a lot about a person based upon the way they treat their pets... & she used to say that the Bible clearly says All Creatures go to heaven: *Genesis 9:(8-17)* but that's only one example out of many references to that! Since that is based on FAITH (& that's all I have had to get me thru many scenero's when all else fails) I have to believe it & have faith in that,,, & I Really DO!!!

I too am truly sorry for each & everyone of your losses as I know & understand the grief & pain you are experiencing & I wish I knew the magic words that would make it not hurt so bad... but I don't, cause "IF" I did I wouldn't have such a Heavy Heart with paw prints running all over it down to the very pit of my stomach myself.

They say TIME heals all... but I am not real sure it is that easy, or that's all there is too it.... TIME is a process, (not a matter of measurement with hours, minutes & days).... it's a process that involves acceptance & finding peace & finding a way to cope with the adjustments & new routines of "not" having our loved ones by our side... they had become such a great part of our lives that maybe we didn't even realize how much they occupied (not only our homes, but or hearts & time too) till they are no longer with us....

Personally I can't do a darn thing without thoughts & memories racing thru my head... it's like I see her everywhere, & every little thing I do reminds me of her... (it's almost like I expect her to come running up at any given moment).... My bed feels so empty I can't sleep..... I can't pull up a chair & sit at the table without just getting my tummy in knots, & loose my appetite! (which hey that might be a good thing considering my recent weight issues)...

But my point is.... a loss like this is tremendous, & I just am soo thankful that I didn't have to go thru this on TX.... I don't know about ya'll, but I was an emotional wreck on TX & I really don't think I could have gotten thru a blow like this as fragile as I was.... so those of you that ARE having to do this (especially on TX)... please feel free to discuss your emotions, there is no since bottling it up inside.... I just want ya'll to know that you are NOT alone, & that the grief you are experiencing is very normal & if any of you want some extra support I can be contacted thru Heidi's memorial page... they even have candlelight vigilances over there on Monday nights & I'd be happy to join you in one of those... (heck I may even sign up for one of them on behalf of my loved one)... I just want you to know you are not alone!

Miki, That was a beautiful Flash & Foresee that was an awesome poem
HTownWife, Foresee, GrandmaA, CirQdusoliel,Wyntre... I really am incredibly sorry for your losses...  & although I am just thoroughly convinced we'll all see our babies again, it doesn't make the pain any less... I'll keep ya'll in my prayers,,, & Hang In There!
:)

[mustangshelly]

I grieve with you and feel your pain..put my boy down  last year after 14 years and held him as he slept....Remember that he is always alive in your heart and memories..hugs shelly

[Forseegood]

hey good for you, if it's what you need, i'm all for it! you know the cliche's takes time...best to you!

[wyntre9]

liv, kalio, shelly, kit-c, htownwife, meki, all,

Thanks again for everyone's understanding and kind words.

Today was a little easier than yesterday - 5 hour trip to Dr.  helped distract me - and i know Bonnie is in a better space . . .

I just hope no one on forum gets miffed at the
"Pet-lovers Pity Party."

htown,

how's greyson post TX?  Is he feeling better?  Are you?  you must be getting ready to go back to work.  

My case was up before the state review board august 2 and my request for db was approved.  I checked the website and saw my name there so i guess it's true.  the good news is my health insurance will continue, uninterrupted, and i'll get a modest monthly stipend.

wyntre

I

[orphanedhawk]

Wahhhhh!!!!!!! it is so hard to lose those who love us unconditionally. . . animals, especially dogs.
    My husband doesn't cry. He just doesn't. When our collie died, he cried. He wrote a poem for her and carved it in wood, took her body up to a lovely spot on our mountain and buried her.
  She, too lived a long life.  We have our photos and memories. I'm glad we gave her a good life because she sure enriched ours.
             more giant bear hugs for you from me.               hawke
p.s.lots of turkeys are back, every morning, gobble, gobble.

[wyntre9]

It was bad.  I was crying so much, on the drive to the vet, during the procedure, on the drive back . . .i don't know how I made it home in one piece.

It felt like my eyes were city fire hydrants opened on a sweltering day.

I've heard of other 'stron' men who generally 'don't cry' just go to pieces at the passing of a beloved pet.

I have an extended family of jays hanging around the deck.  they are a riot . . .so many different calls.  i gotta get one of those programs that helps people recognize the meaning of the different vocalizations.  The jays keep 'mobbing' a juvenile red tail hawk out for a quick meal.  I can tell, now, whever's he's in the area coz of the racket the jays set up.

wyntre

[wyntre9]

not only did i forget to post it, i forgot what i said!  D u u uubu h.

Guess it wasn't important.

I think I was asking you how Nick is?

wyn

[Htownwife]

Thanks for asking about Greyson. He's doing well....feeling better all the time. He's got another appointment coming up soon, and we'll see what we find out!!
We're both scared but hopeful at the same time. His worst lingering side effect is getting annoying red bumps on the top of his head that bother him a lot. He finally shaved his head, and says that helps.

Yeah, school is starting soon. I went up there today, met a coworker,  and started getting ready for this year.........ran papers (you know the drill!)

We just got back from a vacation in Alaska!!! We loved it!!
Just thought that with all the stress we've been through, we needed a break. We took the youngest son with us because he's been here all summer. The older one is married in Oklahoma City.....and we miss him a lot. We're going to visit Labor Day weekend.

Hope you're tolerating treatment as much as possible! So happy to hear about your disability going through! And keeping your insurance! You certainly deserve it!!
Take care!!!!!!!!!
  

[meki]

Htown - where were you? I live in Kodiak....

Meki

[Htownwife]

Hi Meki,  
We flew into Anchorage, rented a truck and drove to Seward. We spent 2 days there...took a whale watching trip and went kayaking. Then we drove to Denali and rented a cabin. Lots of hiking and exploring the area, and then we drove to Talkeetna and took a flight trip to Mt. McKinley. The view was gorgeous...I took hundreds of pictures of the mountain with the glaciers to take back to my classroom. We're always teaching them that glaciers change the surface of the land, and they just give you kind of a blank stare!
The whole trip was amazing!! We had such a good time we'd love to go back. I especially loved the bright pink Alaskan fireweed that was growing everywhere!!
You're lucky to live in such a beautiful place!  

[Htownwife]

Thanks Elaine!
Hope you and Nick are doing ok. Glad to hear you contacted Dr. Gish. Let us know what he says!
I think of you often, and hope you're having a good summer!

Hugs,
Htown

[Alady1620]

I am sorry for your loss.

[orphanedhawk]

       We have a stellar jay stealing the cat's food. They sound so much like hawks at times. The crazy mirror attacking gray jay is still lurking about and every morning and evening there’s the gobble gang. Up the hill near the pond there are a couple of small hawks? that do that kite like thing of hovering before dropping, straight down into the grass. I wish I still had my book on native California birds. The only other wild life lurking about recently are the bathroom frogs and a jackrabbit.
   Are you making any music? I'm finally functioning again, I couldn't even drive during tx.
         Hang in there wyn, you'll make it.       hawke

[ladybug52]

I'm so sad hearing about every's losses and pain. I hope everyone feels comfort in knowing that we all share the pain together.
Oh those sweet little babies....they take a piece of our hearts with them when they leave....it's wonderful that we can love them so, and KNOW with certainty that they loved us in return...
Hugs,
Bug

[mauilady]

Sooo sorry about your loss---this was the wrong post for me to read before I go to sleep; think I'll have to sleep with Tippie and Sam to make sure nothing happens to them tonite.  Bonnie's running happy and free now!

Hugs to you, Michelle

[meki]

Wyn - you play music?

What do you play or write?

You know --- don't laugh --- But I write music lyrics and my own folkie kind of toons...

When my best friend (Boris - the cat) died --- I wrote him a song...  Now - when I sing it and strum it --- He comes to my mind.

Music is a true soul calmer.

[ladywhy]

I'm so sorry.....
My lil guy is gonna be leaving me soon. I really don't know what/how I'm gonna do without him. He's 17...almost blind, almost deaf. I brought him to vet on Monday to find out why his legs are goin' out from under him and what i could do to keep him comfortable...it's just a matter of time. Like you...I'm hoping he goes peacefully in his sleep. I'm getting weepy just reading some of these posts and what you've already been through...it stinks. Again...I'm sorry.
Yvonnr

[Conz]

Wytre I am 6'1" 275 lbs. and I cried like a baby for days and would break into tears weeks and months later. I still do now on ocassion, years later.

But after I while I put up their pictures and remember all the hikes and frisbee games and just all the good fun things we did. Death is a part of life. Your best friend had the best life she could have with you and she was very lucky to have you and I know she appreciated you. Someday you will see her again. I really believe that.

I will talk to my passed friends now and then when I am alone sometimes. No, I'm not crazy. And they talk back in their own way. You will see.

As hard as it is I do it again and again becuase the joy they bring us far outweighs the pain we endure when they pass. And they would want it that way.

[wyntre9]

Bonnie and the flock thank you for your kind words.

She probably should have gone to the vet earlier but we were selfishly thinking more about how we didn't want to lose her instead of considering her suffering.

But she never complained.  And Conz, yes, we've already heard from her.  More importantly, we can feel her . . .

Ladywhy . . .we know how hard it is . . . .

maui . . .hope you, tippie and sam slept well last night.  :)

bug,

thanks for understanding.

We all feel better today so we thank everyone for listening . . .

wyntre and flock