Depressed

my results
HSV 1 : 5.0 pos
HSV 2 : .90 neg

i have turned into a complete hypochondriac.  i have never had a cold sore in my life.  but the more i read up on it the more i wanna cry
1. since ive never had a visible cold sore does this mean i will get them later on in life?
3. is there any chance this test result could be wrong ? my friend gets cold sores all the time and said he tested negative so i dont get it.  
4. i have a cold right now does that mean i am shedding the virus right now

my main concern is giving my bf hsv1.  i dont even understand how i got it im sure through asymptomatic shedding which scares me.  im terrified to be sexually active for the fear of giving him hsv1 especially genitally.  in fact i dont even wanna kiss him.  my distance is tearing us apart.  someone please help me my doctor makes it seem like its not a big deal and little information is given to me, when i try to do my own research and read websites there information terrifies me and makes me suicidal.  telling me half the country has hsv 1 isnt reassuring it makes me mad that i tested negative in 2008 and in 2011 im positive.  i was never promiscuous how did this happen to me ?

[IDTB]

Are those IGG numbers?

If you've never had cold sores before then good for you, no need to start getting upset now. The test result doesn't mean that now all of a sudden you're going to start having cold sores. Well, at least not unless you succeed in stressing yourself out enough over it ;-)
If your test results are IGG antibodies then you may have had HSV1 for a long time and didn't know it, and never had symptoms. A lot of people who have it don't have symptoms. (Lucky for them & you!) You can bet that many people who do have symptoms wish they didn't.
You might want to get your BF to get tested himself. He could also very well have it and not even know it. Has he ever had cold sores that you know of?

[gracefromHHP]

as I mentioned in your prior post on this, thank mom and dad that you haven't had obvious cold sores. There really is a gene that makes you more likely to get obvious cold sores.  should you expect to start having obvious cold sores at some point?  You may or may not but if you haven't noticed one by now, no reason to think that you will start having them in the future.

even the best blood tests we have still miss 1 out of every 10 hsv1 infections. your friend who gets cold sores and tested negative on the igg blood tests is experiencing this. your hsv1 igg of 5 isn't likely to be a false positive and is over the false positive cut off rate. really no reason to retest because of it.

has your current bf been tested for herpes to know his status?

is it possible that you are shedding hsv1 orally right now since you have a cold? yes it is. Odds are you aren't kissing your partner anyways to protect him from your cold.

I really recommend that you ask for a referral to a counselor or therapist from your regular doctor. You need to be talking to a professional about this. thinking that suicide is the answer for this incredibly common infection isn't a normal response and you need to seek out a professional for help.  You need professional help for these feelings - please seek it out.

[TiredOfGirlyProblems]

I know what you are going through. I freaked out when I saw that my blood test came back pos for hsv1, mainly cuz I was in denial. I had an occasional blister on my lip, but they always healed within 3 days, never looked ugly and so I assumed that I had bit my lip causing a blister. Well after freaking out about the positive result, guess what, I got a huge ugly obvious cold sore. My fault for freaking out and stressing out so badly! So calm down, no need to think suicidal thoughts, I know it's depressing to hear the news but life goes on!
I am in the same boat as you, I don't even want to kiss my bf, he has never had a cold sore in his life!!! So I'm scared of passing it on to him! I have also decided to never give him oral again because I fear that I will pass it to him genitally,
I still have been freaking out about passing it to myself genitally even tho I've been told numerous times that it's practically impossible!! I hope soon I will be able to stop stressing over it. I know that it really isn't a big deal, just have your bf get a blood test to see his status, and refrain from kissing if you feel a tingle in your lips, or when you are sick.

[angelbabyk85]

thanks guys suicidal wasnt exactly the right word :( but i am extremely anxious and constantly obsessing over this

[angelbabyk85]

she just said i was hsv 1 + how do i know if thats genital or oral if i have never had any symptoms ?

[TiredOfGirlyProblems]

Well you won't know, not until you get symptoms, but usually if you have hsv1 it's oral.