Feeling pretty DOWN Today!

[speedmamma]

This question I post to an experienced fellow sufferer.  I am new to this forum 3 weeks now since I was diagnosed.  I had HSV1 and had a very SEVERE primary outbreak, I can only say that mu outbreak never blistered and became Ulcerated almost immediately(imagine a canker sore x1000 and thats what my ulcers felt like) They became ***** and raw. And almost looked infected.  The only reason I post such a graphic description is I have now noticed that exactly were the mos severe ulcers were I literally have darker pink scaring, I never had so called scabs.  I wan to know will this always be permanent scar tissue?  I read that the skin area goes back to normal mine looks like it will scar.  Could it be this way forever, It has not been a good day today, feeling pretty low, had a fight with hubby, told him it was all his fault and that he would never know the emotional and physical pain of what I am going thru, I thought I would never blame him for this, but today I did and I am sorry but I do not feel bad I said it. I told him he would never understand everyday waiting for and not knowing when another painful outbreak would happen.  I know I should not of done this but after seeing the skin on my vaginal are not looking the same, I just had to release some anger and I did on him.  Well enough of my whining, if anyone can help it sure would be appreciated.  Thanks guys!  Just needed to release some raw emotion here.  Everyone have a good day!  

[slacker101]

When someone is feeling REAL upset, anger is the easiet emotion to deal with so that's why people get mad at others when they are upset. It's easier to deal with than being upset. As far as being cool, yeah, hey, what can I say?? haha. Don't be upset... It's annoying to have but so are husbands right???? :)

[speedmamma]

You know I just want to tell you seem like a pretty cool person.  You always seem to say something that makes me smile.  One day i hope you will get back 10 fold what you have given to others on this forum.  Thanks alot.  I know it gets better, I just had one crappy day today and took it out the person that was closet to me.  Hey have a good one and thanks again.  :))  

[slacker101]

Actually, if your primary outbreak was bad, the recurrent ones from HSV are usually pretty subtle. That's if you ever get a recurrent outbreak again since it is HSV1 and they do happen less than 2. At least you and your husband are on an equal playing field now. It's NOT as bad as you think. You will be fine :)