Hello..a last question grace

[caesar_1]

I had posted previously and you had told me to move on..in 2010 and 2012.

I am from Malaysia as you may have noted.  I had really moved on dear Grace.

My last question is just that I had many sex partners from 2008 till 2010. I slept with around 14 women, some high risk partners and always used a condom for sex but had some unprotected oral sex.  I slept with only one girl in 2011(both protected oral and vaginal only) and I had just a protected oral sex  and some brief frottage - genital touch of bare genitals in 2012 January.  

I never had herpes like symptoms. Just some burning urination in 2009 and a razor bump just after shaving which i popped, scratched and opened into a big wound on my sensitive scrotum skin.  But the wound healed completely just leaving dry skin in like 4-5 days when I applied alchohol and antiseptic Betadine gel for some days in Feb 2012 ( 1 month after last genital touch contact).  I never got symptoms and doctor also checked and never saw an ulcer or anything like blisters.

Please note that my previous tests has been herpes IGG non type specific (the combined test).  

Today I got my final results for tests.  I had IGG combined again and it came out Negative from doctors office.  I looked in whole country and phoned countless labs and clinics and got a type specific test which is not the same as in US (not herpeselect or others) but it is type specific.  My IGG 1 and IGG 2 results are both negative from this type specific test.  The lab told me the test is accurate after 3 months.  My IGM aslo negative.  

All my other tests also negative.  My fiancee also tested and all her tests negative. She is divorced and had only one partner before (last sex 6 months ago for her).

We are planning a marriage and forming a family.  We did not have sex yet though we kissed.  We are waiting till marriage and settle into something concrete rather than short term thing.

QUESTION: CAN I BELIEVE I DO NOT HAVE HERPES NOW?  
The thing is that I have had repeated negative tests IGG combined since nov 2010, then may 2011, then decemeber 2011 and finally May 2012.  And the type specific test I could get here is also negative for HSV1 and HSV2.   My doctor told me Im ok based on the IGG combined test.  I still want to confirm with somebody more well versed like you.

We have decided not to proceed with anything if one of us is infected. Break up;(.. Its a one chance I do not want to miss to build a family I could never have (parents died when still child).  I love her truly.

[gracefromHHP]

we discussed this in detail in your original post. your providers are telling you to move on. if you can't, seek out professional help for your anxiety over this.

[caesar_1]

I have really decided to change my life.  I have left alcohol and all bad habits.

Do you think I need to move on from this herpes/std phobia now?  

I mean after all these -ve tests and all...  I have spent like over half my annual salary in just testing and worrying and doctors.. I never dated a girl in between for feat of contaminating her.  My life has turned sour and hellish. I really need someone knowing on herpes/stds to confirm my situation if I can stop worrying and move on now.

[caesar_1]

Hello

Thank you for your time and reply.

My providers have followed up and to this point they have told me to move on as all my STDs results including the herpes combined and herpes type specific are negative.  However they were not herpes experts as such.

I even tried to send blood to the US and UK for testing but it was not possible due to local customs problems;(..  I had no choice but do the tests Iv had here.

I just want to know in your opinion of dealing with herpes all these years if all this testing for me is fine and I move on from fear of herpes or should I really try to do more testing?

I am about to enter in this new relationship and I will never want to infect another person if I have something bad.  But my negative results reassure me.  I just wanted to confirm my position.  I am sorry to be such a pain.  I have nobody else more knowledgeable to turn to.  I have tried everything possible till date Grace.

[gracefromHHP]

really nothing more I can add from your previous questions. follow up with your providers as needed.

grace

[caesar_1]

Also got itch in genitals in 2010 from sex broken condom till 2 months.. Extreme itch flaky skin bit sometimes.. Some redness n spots red I scratchb and it healed in 2days I put antiseptic Ayurvedic cream.  but  I never lesions or blisters when I made doctor look after few month itch.

[caesar_1]

I also neck lymph at back. N smal lymph jaw I palpated. Hard and here since over 1 year I saw.  All this increased my fear of infection. I got flu in winter season seldom. I discovered herpes in2010.. And I'm worried since.. I want to move and know if I can b free..

Sorry for long description.. Thnks u advance. I said max I can.

[caesar_1]

I also feared asymptomatic herpes.. All this drovve me to depression.. But my tests I could get here -ve..

I hope u will reply. I want to live on. Please advise me a last time. Please

[caesar_1]

and i cannot possibly know if I have ever had any other herpes virus like herpes 3,4,5,6,7 and all that..and if they have any bearing on my test results...i read on internet,

I want to know if am free of hsv 1 and 2 from my repeated -ve results and lack of syptoms or if i need more testing,

I am worried. I promise I will see a therapist if I can move on and believe my results now. im unsure for now.

[caesar_1]

I also do not know if I have Epstein Barr Virus but I never have any symptoms.  I kissed many csw during sex.  I do not know if this could have affected my IGG type non specific but my results have always been negative after repeated testing.  And the type specific test available here I got also has been -ve for HSv 1 and HSV 2 separately.

I have provided you with a max info i can.

I just want to know if I can move from herpes fear and believe Im free from it now?..that i will not infect my partner after marriage?

I want to change my life once and for all.

[caesar_1]

Bump

[caesar_1]

bump

[caesar_1]

I cannot remember the names of the drugs. combuvir for 3 days and then there was another one they gave me I do not remember though.  i was bummed and damn worried then.

Bye bye,,take care,, I got to return to work. Hope you will reply,

[caesar_1]

I did get few big canker sores (no blister) in mouth gum once when i took antiretroviral drug for few days two years ago. Never again though.  And not a single cold sore in childhood or varicella (got vaccinated in elementary school) or any kind of herpes infection.

Nothing more. I said it all i could remember.

[caesar_1]

I also have some inguinal (groin) lymph nodes on both side. They are small around 0.5-1cm and hard. I noticed them in 2010. Never pained at all.  I had unprotected oral sex with girls (csws) up till 2010.  There was unprotected cunnilingus also.  But never any oral sore or genital one.  Nor I noticed any sore on those girls.  Perhaps on the last one in January 2012 i saw something red but I really do not remember and not sure if it was herpes lesions or stds.

As of now I am healthy but just stressed.

That is all. I have nothing more to add or say.

[caesar_1]

I forgot to add that i had broken condom again four years ago and it was unoticed.  I had a brief like 1 minute unprotected sex with a high risk partner due to condom fall off three years ago. It is after this that i had the burning urine,.around four weeks after it.

Else as I said I never had any visible oral or genital sore.  I want to believe i do not have herpes now.