Hopefully theres hope for love still.

[xms62889]

My name is Jimmy, I am a 24 year old gay male and I have only had one real sexual relation ship which ended in 2010. How did i catch genital hsv1 not even having sex in sept of 2013 you may ask? I jacked off with another guy who failed to inform me that he was having sexual health problems.(he was having an outbreak so i probably infected myself by touching him and than myself) I know i got it from him because 2 weeks after i got a bump on my penis, but had a negative igg for both hsv1 and 2. i retested at 8 weeks and sure enough my igg was .091 equiv for hsv1. I have no doubt in my mind that I have them because i've already had 3 outbreaks since the end of sept. Its just hard. i've always been so careful, and i have passed up so many opportunities for sex because i was protecting myself, that i'm that unlucky to catch an std during my first encounter with the second person i've ever done anything with, with the absence of oral or any kind of sex or genital contact. I just wish i could feel good about myself again, i'm young, attractive, i like to body build, i'm in school, but my life has been an endless feeling of depression and unhappiness. my life was going so well, and its a hard pill to swallow that i have to explain to someone that i get contagious genital sores, and pray for acceptance.  i am trying my headrest to get back to life, but i font feel like the same happy, outgoing person. i held such a high value on my health, and i feel like its gone. i had such a love for myself and everyone around me, but now i feel like i no longer deserve love or anyone for that matter. life was already kinda hard before, and for the first time in my entire life i was feeling good about my self (bodybuilding, getting hit on for once) But its hard to feel good about anything when you have a run of cronic genital sores. any advise would be appreciated! how do i feel good about myself again:-/

[Johnson_28]

Honey, I am so sorry you are struggling so much with this. I was diagnosed in 10 years ago and it was a huge blow! I actually got hsv1 genitally when I was a VIRGIN. My boyfriend performed oral sex on me and there I was... stuck. It was a horribly traumatic time and took years for me to feel 'okay' again. Everyone reassured me things would be okay in the end but I didn't believe them. I didn't understand just how many people have this. So the saying goes, "If you kissed your mom when you were a kid, you have herpes!" Most have herpes (cold sores) on their mouth.

Four years after getting it, I ended up meeting my wonderful husband. I informed him after 2 weeks of dating and he was scared but very quickly decided it didn't matter. I let him know, "You could get this.. I'm not going to tell you that you can't. But we will do everything we can to ensure you don't." Well, 7 years of marriage and he hasn't caught a thing. We don't even use protection! (though I would not recommend this - be sure to use something) When you really click with someone there is noway they are going to let you go because of a little thing like herpes. Would you let go of someone if the roles were reversed? Love or the 'chance' at love is an extremely powerful thing! I would just be sure to tell whomever you start a relationship with at a time when it feels right. If they reject you for it then they are absolutely not worth your time. It's sort of a a-hole filter, if you catch my drift. ;) (btw, my husband is the only one I ever felt comfy telling... I always knew when I was dating someone who wasn't serious about me)

And hey, maybe this puts a damper on going out there and having a 'tryst' with someone but honestly - that's not safe to begin with. A lot worse things can be caught and you don't want to chance those.

I know things are rough right now but they will get muuuuch better! Herpes is not a biggie. Btw, to relieve the outbreaks get yourself some Lysine. This is proven to work just as well as prescription medications. Also look into herbal remedies to relieve the itching and discomfort. As time goes on, your outbreaks will become less and less.

[Life360_Dave]

Hi, if you tested negative 3 months post exposure then no need to retest.

[xms62889]

just an update,today(month4) i was diagnosed with scabies. should i retest for hsv1. the boy i jacked off with was recovering from scabies and the doc said my bumps were definally scabies related(they were also on my butt,legs,feet ect. what are the odds of me catching scabies and genital hsv1 on the same night.(jacking each other off) the sores i described in this post never went away and now are at a horrid peak.(there are way more) they are big raised bumps and the doctor scraped them. now im begging to wonder if ive been dealing with scabies this whole time lol.

[xms62889]

Johnson 28, i really appreciate that post. it has given me some hope for the future. honestly, i have already found 6 people who said they would go out with me even with my run of herpes. (they were mostly people that have crushed on me in the past and i confided in them) and all of them said that if we fell in love it wouldn't matter. i have good days and bad days(as you already know, and today just happened to be a bad one, and i really appreciate you coming out and helping me. from what i have read hsv1 is more mild anyways(even though i must say it hasn't been mild so far).
My grandma did this really nice thing(for xmas) and made me a vitamin regimen. she told me to take vitamin C twice daily for immunity and skin health, got me a bottle of vitamin-b complex-50(which supported the nervous system) bought me a strong multivitamin, and a bottle of "herp-eeze" which has lysine and sunflower oil in it along with a lot of other good stuff. she is a vitamin expert and she suffers with shingles and herpes zosters and explained they were similar viruses, and that these supplements combined kicked ***! also she is 90 years old, in perfect health, has all of her teeth, has her own house, and she amazes her doctors because she is only on 1 medication at her old age. but she told me she got into vitamins in 1963 and it was the best decision of her life. i was so touched when she did that because it made me feel loved and special inside. she even let me in on a little secret and told me she used to get cold sores:)
Im so sorry that you got herpes when you were a vergin, that must have really have been hard to deal with!! Im so happy that you found your self a cutie that was willing to take a chance on love with you, i can tell deep in my heart that you are  worth it. I really appreciate you taking time and effort to read this. maybe one day when i am in a better position i can come back with my own success story like you:) and help someone younger saying "my life is over" with my own set of kind words. honestly you don't even know how much you have made my day… i hope your marriage continues to work out and i hope i can feel good about myself with in due time. i need to get my mind back into body building, health, and working out because it will all probably help a lot. thanks again..

p.s maybe i can just take your word of advise and just believe that everything will be ok and work out, and that i will find love again science it does happen. I know i deserve love even though i made a stupid mistake. and hopefully I'm as lucky as you are:)…


and 1 final question, did you feel like you settled for less or were you fully attracted to your husband, and like are you happy in the decision you made of marrying him?

[Life360_Dave]

Anything below 1 is considered negative and if you tested at 8 weeks and have tested negative as you have you most likely are negative. Test at 12 weeks to confirm.

[xms62889]

I will look into it deeper, but im not getting my hopes up at this point. from what i have read jacking off does pose a low risk and that why i said i was one of the unlucky ones because im a rare case. my results are as fallows thus far.
2 weeks
hsv1 IGG .16
hsv2 IGG .07
8 weeks
hsv1 IGG .91
hsv2 IGG .11
My doctor said i was really close to the equivalent zone and that i most defintally have hsv1.. Should i consider getting another test done. also should i really be to worried about hsv1( even if i do have it) since 60-80% of people have a form of hsv1. i really appreciate this. and i sware you should get paid for what you do!

[Life360_Dave]

Hi and thanks for the compliment!, If you tested at 8 weeks and had a score of .91 you are negative now and most likely will test negative on another test. At 8 weeks you should fall into a low positive like 1.5 or so. Retest as just having sore means nothing in them selve. Also having a swab of any new sore is really the way to go. And by the way, touching his penis and touching yourself is really unlikely to pass the virus. There needs to be some direct contact with the virus with some rubbing to force the virus into the nerve.

[xms62889]

I also want to thank all of the great people on this forum who sho a great deal of love and support.. Grace HPP is such a beautiful soul, along with life 360 and catinbarefeet.I feel for anyone dealing with this crazy disease!