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Hi everyone .. I want to thank you all for your help.
I never " hook up" with anyone, ever. I want to be in " love " I always say, my friends laugh at this and go and sleep with a new guy every night ( total personal preference nothing bad against them !) Well, one night I got so drunk, so so drunk.. this boy walked me home , nice right? Well when we got to my apartment he came in, I practically passed out on the couch and he bagan performing oral sex on me ( first time I've ever had this done to me ) and fingering meI was in and out of conciousness but I remember he then tried to have sex with me, the tip of his penis only touched my vagina for maybe 10 -20 seconds no insertion or friction because I began to sober up a little at this point and pushed him off me screaming how I am a virgin what is he doing he apologized and left. The next morning I woke up with a little soreness in my vagina .. I attributed this to being fingered. Later that night though I started feeling very itchy down below. The next day I was still itchy and had some soreness in my legs from what I can recall. I then had a bunch of tiny red bumps on my buttocks and felt somewhat fluish I don't know if this is from the actual hsv or from thinking I had hsv that was making me feel sick. I was freaking out. I assumed I had contracted HSV1 from the oral sex, i was a ball of emotions but could kind of handle it somewhat because of the prevalance of hsv1 ( good chance future partners would have antibodies) and the non severity of the outbreaks. I never received a culture because I was unfortunatley to scared to do so I could barley even move. At 9 weeks I went to take a blood test, my doctor ordered the test and I soon realized that he had only order a herpes 2 test ( i asked later he said they dont test for hsv1 too common , how frustrating! ) My hsv2 test came back negative, however now my head is spinning. I keep thinking that maybe the penis vagina contact resulted in hsv2 and I am literally in a state of such depression I don't know what to do. I am away at school and I can't stop crying for more than an hour, I start spontaneously crying in class. I have never even had insertive sex yet. I have never even done anything with anyone yet. I feel like my life is over and I know everyone says it's not and I'll be fine it gets better with time but I really want to die. I was wondering what is the accuracy of a 9 week test ( I know it's too soon I didn't realize until afterwards) and based on my situation do you think hsv2 is likely. I had shaved that day and I know that makes it more likely to transmit :( Please help .. I am so lost .. I can't even breathe
I never " hook up" with anyone, ever. I want to be in " love " I always say, my friends laugh at this and go and sleep with a new guy every night ( total personal preference nothing bad against them !) Well, one night I got so drunk, so so drunk.. this boy walked me home , nice right? Well when we got to my apartment he came in, I practically passed out on the couch and he bagan performing oral sex on me ( first time I've ever had this done to me ) and fingering meI was in and out of conciousness but I remember he then tried to have sex with me, the tip of his penis only touched my vagina for maybe 10 -20 seconds no insertion or friction because I began to sober up a little at this point and pushed him off me screaming how I am a virgin what is he doing he apologized and left. The next morning I woke up with a little soreness in my vagina .. I attributed this to being fingered. Later that night though I started feeling very itchy down below. The next day I was still itchy and had some soreness in my legs from what I can recall. I then had a bunch of tiny red bumps on my buttocks and felt somewhat fluish I don't know if this is from the actual hsv or from thinking I had hsv that was making me feel sick. I was freaking out. I assumed I had contracted HSV1 from the oral sex, i was a ball of emotions but could kind of handle it somewhat because of the prevalance of hsv1 ( good chance future partners would have antibodies) and the non severity of the outbreaks. I never received a culture because I was unfortunatley to scared to do so I could barley even move. At 9 weeks I went to take a blood test, my doctor ordered the test and I soon realized that he had only order a herpes 2 test ( i asked later he said they dont test for hsv1 too common , how frustrating! ) My hsv2 test came back negative, however now my head is spinning. I keep thinking that maybe the penis vagina contact resulted in hsv2 and I am literally in a state of such depression I don't know what to do. I am away at school and I can't stop crying for more than an hour, I start spontaneously crying in class. I have never even had insertive sex yet. I have never even done anything with anyone yet. I feel like my life is over and I know everyone says it's not and I'll be fine it gets better with time but I really want to die. I was wondering what is the accuracy of a 9 week test ( I know it's too soon I didn't realize until afterwards) and based on my situation do you think hsv2 is likely. I had shaved that day and I know that makes it more likely to transmit :( Please help .. I am so lost .. I can't even breathe
Hahaha thank you Grace! When I went in to my gyno to get the write up for the blood work he also performed a full examination and said everything was fine so no yeast or bv for me but thank you for the advice! Haha I know it's time to put down the mirror. I have spring break in march so i will be taking another blood test than at the 17 week mark for my own peace of mind, I will post the results. Thank you again!
vaginitis is pretty common after oral sex. not a bad idea to be seen and get some basic testing done for yeast and bv infections vaginally.
call off the crotch watch! Not worth it and all it does is add to your anxiety.
call off the crotch watch! Not worth it and all it does is add to your anxiety.
Thank you very much Grace. You don't know how much you help people by doing this. I think you're right I think I do need to speak with someone to deal with this. I don't have any outright symptoms at the moment but I have been having weird tingly and itchy sensations since this incident and it is just causing me a lot of anxiety I spend hours bent over in front of the mirror looking for any little thing and I am turning any red spot I see into possible herpes. I know it wouldnt be the end of the world and I need to get life into perspective, I wouldn't kill myself because I could never do that to my family but I just feel like I would never be fully back to my old self who use to enjoy life 100% I would always feel like there was something wrong and missing. I don't know. Time to talk to someone I guess. Thank you so much again for you time and kind words Grace!
please take advantage of the student counseling services at your college!!! You need to be talking to a professional about what you are going through emotionally right now. Make the call now to talk to someone! If you seriously think killing yourself is the answer to dealing with this, please call your local suicide hotline and talk to someone there now first. They are trained professionals and can help you a lot!! It is never worth ending your life over something as common as herpes!!
At this point, really not much you can do. your symptoms don't really sound like genital herpes. honestly unless symptoms reoccur, I wouldn't even bother repeating your herpes testing. should they reoccur, be seen promptly at your student health center to get a proper exam and some basic testing done.
talk to someone so you can deal with your date rape incident and can move forward. This is consuming you and keeping you from living day to day life and you need professional help at this point to start dealing with it all.
grace
At this point, really not much you can do. your symptoms don't really sound like genital herpes. honestly unless symptoms reoccur, I wouldn't even bother repeating your herpes testing. should they reoccur, be seen promptly at your student health center to get a proper exam and some basic testing done.
talk to someone so you can deal with your date rape incident and can move forward. This is consuming you and keeping you from living day to day life and you need professional help at this point to start dealing with it all.
grace
How much longer should I wait to retest .... I feel like I want to kill myself I know that sounds silly over a virus but I feel completly shattered.
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