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just a helping confession..not a question. for all visitors to read...

Well it goes like this...Im 25 male.
I had a risky exposure (me penetrating her) in red light area, protected in november 2014.
Like most of the people visiting this forum..I became anxious...started looking at my genitals..observing every detail pretty closely. That is where it all started...nearly after 9-10 days.
sudden lower abdominal pain, feeling feverish, fatigued..for which i saw a physician....and hence it got slightly better.
After 25 days of exposure..suddenly a rash from testicles to anus developed....i got suspicious since that event was there in my mind. That rash remained for quite some days...and cleared incompletely with anti fungal cream.
I had fatigue feverish feeling all the time though..which raised in feb 2015..
I went to see a physician who checked my "vit D and B12 levels" both of which came low with Vit D being extremely low. he prescribed medicine for a few months...
after 2 months..low grade fever and fatigue didn't improve..which raised my anxiety again..and hence I got trapped in loop of.."searching about Std's on google"..which is the worst we can do since google presents us with half of knowledge..we are not doctors afterall.
but bad was yet to come.....in april 2015 suddenly anal pain started with abdominal pain...and with loose motions..
and after 2 days ..penile pain and burning. I never had any of these symptoms before. hence i got more suspicious and stared believing that i have something.
I went to physician again...he told low vitamin b12 is the cause..and told i have anal fissures.
but my mind was going in the wrong way...that is super anxiety...which is the mother of depression.
penile pain and burning went automatically in 2 weeks..i thought it is herpes as it heals itself in 2-3 weeks as written on google.
Anal pain persist for many months...I took sitz bath..some creams given by doctors...but no help.
then came the time for dermatologist....some of the best in my country..
they checked me genitals...tested me for herpes igg combo and herpes 1 igg and herpes 2 igg..both of which came negative. hiv and syphilis too came negative.
still my mind was playing tricks on me and thats when i realized its power...
3 dermatologist saw me..one was even suspicious...that it can be.. since my lymph node was slightly bigger on right side of pelvis..
I saw urologist too...been through many test for many months...all i found was low vit D and Vit  b12.
These one and half year taught me a lot..i came on medhelp too.."Life 360" gave answers that i have nothing..which was right.
Now to summarize for the folks who are anxious like me..currently I am pain free..no low grade fever...follow running schedule daily with good diet..my genital pain is gone. The reason of getting free from these are:
1. I realized that anxiety is the main cause...and our mind can create all the symptoms..as told by one of the dermatologist. he suggested running even though i was in pain..i did that for 3 months regularly and saw the difference.
2. Most of you have brain induced pain..which wont go if u dont get away with guilt that You are holding.
Still if u feel..go to a psychologist...I too took meds for anxiety for 2 months which helped me along with exercise and good diet.
3. when people like Life 360, Grace, fleetwood etc tell you that u have nothing..then believe them.

Join some Yoga classes and do meditation. It will help slowly but will help for sure.

I've taken meds for pain , Fibromyalgia, penile pain , anal fissure, fatigue , Low grade fever etc.--all were started after exposure..and started because of fear, guilt  and anxiety.
I beg you all to be physically active even if u have pain...because all our pain is brain induced pain hence pain meds wont help.

you need psychologist..since you people are thinking about herpes all the time..which most of you dont have.


I am pain free now...You all can be..Just keep hope.

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15249123 tn?1478652475
Spot on nicks. I want you to know, I really appreciate your post and wish we could make it a sticky!! Well done.
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Thanks mate.
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Thanks, I'm a woman but this is very helpful. As you a whole lot of other people are going through the same. I hope u learned ur lesson too because once you have this there is no going back. Just a vague memory of what life w/o complications used to be.
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I've read ur page. You have been through a bad phase that made me recalled mine. Like u I used to think that will this pain ever go...anal pain, penile burning, pain and legs pain for several months.. in spite of clear reports.
I realised certain unconventional ways can do miracles. Yoga, meditation, homeopathic medicines to name a few.
Since my penile pain, legs pain and other feverish feelings and pain has anxiety and guilt as reason..I suspect that you should get igg tests for knowing the exact cause of ur sufferings.
Life will get good eventually..just make good daily routine and stick to it..
Bad times come to teach us some good lessons..good times are on their way.
3149845 tn?1506627771
thank you and that was quite a lovely post.
dave
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Ur welcome. I thought that sharing my story might help in good work u all are putting...
Keep helping.
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