your comment actually made me feel tons better, I don't have a death wish i'm just to scared to face reality i guess. i will visit an std clinic asap.
Unlikely its cancer. Go see a GYN. Get the vaccine for strains that you do not already have. If you know you are handling this wrong, why are you not doing the right thing? Do you have a death wish? Feel like dying before you are 21? If not, then do the right thing for yourself. Visit a STD clinic if you can't afford a GYN but do realize that pap smear exams are going to be needed for the rest of your life.