Sir, you don't have any STD. Until you are positively dignosed, you have no STD. Plain and simple. Please stop this self-hate and get some therapy. You need help and need to move on from this paranoia. Innocent until proven guilty!
A girl to use gardasil first but without revealing my situation will be difficult. Sucks I ruined my life after making it this far
Thanks for your help.
However, think I will have to live with this forever. I can't ethically expose a virgin to this without telling her. I surely can't tell anyone. I can't marry most other girls because it will destroy my parents. Maybe I can convince some
There are no reliable tests for men anywhere in the world. Although China has been PCR testing men, no one in the Western medical community agrees that it is a reliable test. That's the key word "reliable". It just doesn't exist for men.
Do not assume that you have HPV. And do not assume that every virgin does not have HPV. Some do because of oral sex or frontage. Fingering is an extremely rare way of transmitting it but it may be a cause. You should not be ashamed of your behavior with your ex-fiance. There is nothing you can do now to reduce your exposure assuming you were exposed. How would anyone find out if you or your ex doesn't say anything?
Here's an interesting link about virgins and HPV.
http://www.businessinsider.com/10-percent-of-virgins-have-hpv-2012-8