Ok, basically, I don't have a question exactly, but I'm writing this more or less to vent.
I have had the same sexual partner for a year. I know for a fact neither one of us has cheated on each other. I have many skin tags, around my neck, and my upper thigh, that have been there for year, years before I became sexually active. I started growing something on my vagina a while ago, I didn't really pay attention to it, because it was small, and not on my labia, or inside of me. It has gotten a bit bigger, but to me, it looks and feels like a skin tag. I have quite a few, so I was like whatever, it's just another skin tag. I mean I've seen a million pictures of genital warts, and it looks nothing like them.
I finally went to the gynecologist a couple weeks ago, and she said it looks like a genital wart. I need to wait for my pap, so I don't know right now and it's killing me. I mean I'm looking up everything I can on it, and I can't believe how common it is, and how many different kinds there are.
So, in one hand I'm thinking, what? I've been with the same person for so long, why is it taking a year or more to finally give me 1 wart? It's a skin tag! Then I think... wow... I have genital warts, I'm a disgusting ***** who's had too much unprotected sex! But you know what!?!?! I cannot believe you can get it from kissing! You can get it even with a condom on! You can get it from oral! That's horrible! This is so depressing.
I'm reading and seeing things that say genital warts are moist, or they are like white, or like crusty looking, or like cauliflower, or there are like 10-20 of them. Not a single one I've seen or read about looks like what I have. Mine you can move around like a skin tag, and it doesn't have the same texture as a wart. Then I have my doctor telling me even skin tags are contagious! What!? I am just so bewildered by all of this, and I am so distraught and stressed out.
I feel as though, no one will ever love me, taking in to consideration all of my flaws, and to top it off, if I have an STD, I'll be alone forever. Even though it's common, if I have HPV, no decent man will ever want a long term relationship with me.