with two people. I felt like my life was over at first. I was freaking out thinking i was going to get cancer, and that no one is going to want to be in a relationship with me, I'm not going to be able to have children, etc. But after reading extensively about it online i calmed myself down. It was hard enough telling my mother about it seeing as in how she is a catholic who practices the religion. She was heartbroken at first but she is still my mother and loves me so she let me know she was there for me. I also told my older sister and she accompanied me on my first appointment to the gyno. I had genital warts and that is how i found out I had hpv. Now the warts are gone after multiple visits to the gyno. I had a pap
smear done which found LSIL which means mildly abnormal cell changes on cervix. Then the next step was to get a colonoscopy done and a biopsy. During the colonoscopy the doctor said something along the lines of, "oh it doesn't look bad." so that gave me some hope and i will call in a week to get my results from the biopsy.
At the time i found out about the hpv, i had just started a relationship with the most amazing guy for me. He has been my best friend for two years and we decided to try a relationship. We have not had any sexual
so much and it took me about 20 minutes before i could even start talking. he held my hand through out the whole time. I was terrified of losing him. After i was done talking and explain about hpv. He had a few questions about it which i answered to my ability. He assured me that he was not going to break up with me for that reason. Im thankful that he sees me as a person and is not just focused on my problem. And even thought he is not completely comfortable with the topic and prefers that i don't bring it up, It was very freeing for me to just let it out and tell him. So to those people who are debating on telling their loved ones, i suggest you do it. It is hard, but worth it. If they leave you for that then it was not worth to be with them. even though it is not something to be happy about to have hpv, it can serve as a filter for those people who are truly interested in you as a person and those who just want to sleep with you.
Now with that being said I do have some questions:
1) I have been reading online that the strand of hpv that causes genital warts is not a cancer causing one, but i still have abnormal cells on my cervix. does that mean that those cells have no chance of turning to cancer? or does that mean that I can have two different strands of hpv?
2) If i do have an hpv strand that can cause cervical cancer, how long does it take for the abnormal cells to turn into cancer?
3) the guy i have been intimate with last has no physical symptoms (warts). is it possible to not have symptoms ever and still have hpv?
4) I feel like I'm never going to want to have sex again because i will feel guilty if i pass it on. how do i deal with that?
5) If i pass it on to a partner and now we both have hpv. and i start having normal pap smears and no reoccurring warts, is it possible that he will pass the same strand back to me?
If you want to share your story feel free to do so, i would like to read them.
Please do answer all or any of my questions if you can. thanks!(: