After a few bad weeks, I am now seeing the benefits of the antibiotics. I had what's called a neuropsychological herxheimer reaction, and it was the scariest weeks of my life.
Lately, my heart hasn't been acting up, and I am not nearly as fatigued. I feel physically ok. I make it through the day without needing naps, and the night before last I was feeling so good that I had insomnia. I found out that taking 100 mg of COQ10 at night was probably causing the insomnia though. Oops. :)
Mentally, I am progressing a litter slower. The memories of the week long panic attack with a constant feeling of doom are stuck in my mind a little bit. I haven't had a panic attack lately, but I am taking drugs to prevent them. My brain is becoming clearer and clearer each day, and I am hoping pretty soon I can start tapering the anxiety drugs. My panic attacks were completely random physiological and were not triggered by any abnormal amount of anxiety. Now, after the torturous attack, I think I have developed some anxiety about them (psychological). I have a little bit of what-if thinking now. The attack prompted me to see a psychiatrist, a neurologist, and a therapist. I saw the therapist today, and I think it's helping a bit.
Yesterday, I walked my dog twice, for a total of about 2 hours. No, the exercise didn't make me feel better (just the opposite), but I really want to get back on my feet. I was sore after, but it wasn't too bad. I am back to driving the car short distances, but it is still a bit hard for me to concentrate on the road. I feel fine doing some chores around the house and simple things. Right now, I don't think one would perceive I am sick by how look and how I act.
If it weren't for the strong reactions to the antibiotics, I'm not sure I would believe for sure that I had Lyme or a Lyme-like infection, even though I tested IFA/WB CDC positive through Igenex. If it weren't for my mom (I am living at home right now), I would have completely stopped taking antibiotics. I could not handle one of those megaherxes on my own. It also helps having a great doctor that will return my phone calls right away when worse comes to worse.
Thanks to everyone here for your input. I think I am starting to turn the corner.