Just take it one day at a time, as the trite saying goes. 'Trite' often means 'true', and in this case, that's accurate. We've all had bad days and nights, fears, desperation, confusion, aches, pains, you name it. The hardest part for me was that the infection was messing with my brain and my emotions -- it colors everything, which makes objectifying the physical effects of the illness is difficult to impossible.
Often I would come through a few days' bad patch, and only as I was coming out the other side would I realize it was the bugz messing with me. While I was IN the bad patch, I wasn't able -- despite plenty of experience with bad patches -- to identify and objectify the bad patch as being due to Lyme+. Although I recognized this each time it had happened, I was never able to make that recognition AS it was happening. Like driving through a rain storm but not remembering that it doesn't always rain 24/7.
It's the infection(s). Very much *neurological* effects, but worse in some of us than others. I think mine were about middling compared to what others have described.
I don't know that I'd say it took courage, but stubbornness sure helped. Hang on, stay in touch, let us know how you do.
Thank you everyone... So much to take in and think about... You are all inspirational. i hope i can summons the courage you all clearly have.
I get major facial flushing. I looks lupus-esqe. It looks like I have a wicked sunburn on very select parts of my face.
Well said! and good information to have. Thank you!
One more thing that has been HUGE for me in feeling better is to go gluten and dairy free. I did this on the recommendation of another "Lymie" and I was amazed. Five days later, my intestines were practially 'normal' again, after 2 months of not being normal. Also, some of my cognitive issues declined. I didn't feel as much brain fog. I've cheated twice, once with cookies and once with some gnocchi. Both times, I felt crummy and foggy the next morning for hours. So, I'm convinced.
I do believe that every symptom you mention is on my doctor's symptom check list (which is longer than Dr. Burrascano's...they've learned more in the last 6 years).
I've been through a similar decline since August, although my fatigue started exactly a year earlier. My next symptom was shortness of breath, which started in late January '11. In late July, I got a shot of prednisone for my "asthma", and within 4 days, I was in the ER with mental confusion, significant shortness of breath, inability to take a deep breath, and general weakness. They gave me more prednisone. That's when the downward spiral took off. I ended up seeing 12 doctors, had multiple MRIs (brain lesions!) and CT scans, had another ER visit and a 3-day hospital stay for abdominal pain. A blood screening test and a CSF test for Lyme were negative, leading doctors to believe that excluded Lyme, even though it was printed below the test results that "A negative result cannot be used to exclude Lyme disease."
I finally paid out of pocket for IGeneX blood tests and a consultation with an LLMD. My IgM Western Blot was CDC negative, but IGeneX said it was positive. I had a positive band on 31, which is specific to Borrellia. This band usually shows up in people infected for more than just a few months. I also tested positive for Bartonella, which explains why most of my symptoms are neurological, as per Dr. Burrascano.
http://www.ilads.org/files/burrascano_0905.pdf
This document also contains Dr. Burrascano's symptom checklist. Some of my symptoms I only had for a few days or a few weeks. Others have stayed. Doctors usually think that if a symptom goes away, it's irrelevant. But with Lyme, it's significant, as symptoms coming and going is a classic sign of the disease.
Another thought: I found that magnesium relieves my shortness of breath and my muscle twitching. Oral supplements are okay, but you have to take a lot (abt 250mg 2 x /day) because the body is so ineffecient in using it. More useful is to take a hot/warm bath with a cup of Epsom Salts (magnesium stearate). Your body absorbs it more efficiently this way. Then see if you feel a bit better in 1/2 - 1 hour. If so, you probably have magnesium deficiency, a classic sign of Lyme/Borrellia. Magnesium deficiency can cause muscle twitching and spasms, and heart irregularity, so taking Mag is useful for reducing these symptoms.
I hope you get answers soon!
i have been in touch with another UK resident who bypassed the NIH and got a thorough lyme workup and ultimate diagnosis at the private breakspear clinic.
breakspearmedical [dot] com
maybe they can help you, too??
blessings.
About the cheeks flushing ... I never got red cheeks, but would get an irregular reddish patch on my forehead just above and between my eyebrows. It came and went.
The variety of symptoms may be due not only to individual reaction to infection, but also to the different co-infections. It's what make Lyme tricky to diagnose, and what also confuses docs who don't understand the changeling nature of Lyme.
About getting tested for autoimmune aspects as AlllergyNerd suggests, it's a good thing to rule out, but be careful that the doc doesn't do just the autoimmune testing and analysis and stops there. Not only do nonLLMDs tend to diagnose lupus etc. (which are autoimmune in origin), but they may also simply stop looking once they find symptoms that could support a lupus or other autoimmune condition.
And here's the final twist: the IDSA docs (Infectious Disease Society of America), who are totally in the bag that Lyme is (1) rare, (2) hard to get, and (3) easy to cure, maintain that once you've had a couple weeks of antibiotics against Lyme, then any continuing symptoms are not evidence of a continuing Lyme infection, but are the result of your confused immune system thinking you are still infected with Lyme *but you are really cured and your immune system doesn't know it*. The IDSA docs call this an autoimmune reaction, and it is the basis for their refusal to treat further any persisting symptoms of Lyme.
So it's a Catch-22: you were diagnosed with Lyme, you were treated for Lyme, you still have symptoms of Lyme, but you were fully treated according to IDSA standards, regardless of how you feel, what symptoms you have and what your current tests show. So ... you look, feel and test as though you have Lyme, but you do not actually HAVE Lyme because ... the docs say so.
So by all means get tested for autoimmune conditions like lupus, but if your doc doesn't 'believe' in Lyme, that's where the thinking will stop.
Worse: the treatment for lupus are steroids, which suppress the immune system, which is the exact opposite of what should be done for a bacterial infection (which Lyme is).
And if you get a diagnosis of the very trendy 'fibromyalgia', note that it's not defined as a disease by mainstream medicine, but as a *syndrome*, meaning a collection of symptoms with no identified cause. There's some thinking that fibromyalgia is really just untreated or undertreated Lyme.
Bottom line: be sure to find a Lyme specialist if you think you could have Lyme.
Wow, reading this, I have had many of the same experiences and it also began in August for me. I don't have the canker sores or a couple of the other symptoms you have, but otherwise, I feel we have had similar symptoms.
I went to the ER in mid August and everything was 'normal.' I also had a CT scan, MRI, EKG, etc etc etc. After 10k of testing, there were no answers.
I went to a GP a month or so later and asked to be tested for mono. My EBV was elevated, but monotest negative, they still said it was just mono.
The end of Nov., I went back to the same GP and requested a lyme test and she also did ANA (this tests for autoimmune things, like lupus I believe) and thyroid tests. Everything was good EXCEPT I showed positive for lyme.
She started me on doxy and last week I found out I was positive for lyme on the Western Blot also. I have an appointment with a LLMD later this month and I am really hoping he will have some answers and that I can heal.
I just somehow got through my doctoral graduation activities this past weekend and my bf also proposed etc... so now I am exhausted. I have good/bad days, but do feel generally better since being on the doxy.
As JackieCA said, you should try to find a LLMD if you can and get tested, you should also get tested for autoimmune things going on. I worried about lupus because my cheeks get flushed and red sometimes now and they never did that before, but I guess it's all just lyme for me...
I hope you can get some answers! I have trouble with going into more debt with all of this, but I think you must do it to get yourself back to normal, so I hope it will all be worth it in the end.
Sending positive thoughts to you. I know how horrible it can be.
You say: "I'd just like my life back. I sit here thinking that will never happen."
That statement is something all of us here have felt at times, and it comes and goes. There is probably not a short route to a quick cure, but you can get better. Depending on co-infections, treatment can be more or less complex and lengthy .... and in any event, treatment is *not* short like most bacterial infections. Think of tuberculosis, which like Lyme is bacterial: treatment is commonly 18 months. Lyme's co-infections complicate matters and may prolong treatment, so none of this is fast or easy, but it is definitely worth doing.
I was never a big believer in vitamins and supplements, but I have learned that Lyme etc. mess with the whole body to such an extent that vits and supps seem imo to be a necessary part of life going forward. Which beats being sickly ANY day.
I completely understand what you are saying about feeling isolated. That feeling will not go away overnight, most likely, but keep plowing ahead. Things WILL get better as treatment takes effect.
Hold fast! Keep us posted on how you are doing. You are not alone.
Hi Dave,
What kind of test did you have for HIV?What time after your last sexual encounter.I understand what you feel, i'm in the same situation like you.I want to keep on touch.
Take care,
Thank you all for your comments and help so far... I have tested negative for HIV... It was the first thing I thought I may have...
I do feel very alone and that I am actually losing my mind... I have been Ill for four nearly five months. I know perhaps relative to a lot of people this is a short amount of time.
I'd just like my life back. I sit here thinking that will never happen.
Welcome to MedHelp Lyme --
I certainly understand your desperation. I've been there myself. For me, it was half the knowledge that the MDs were clueless, and the other half was the direct physical effects of the illness. But whether you have Lyme or something else, you certainly deserve to find out what it is so you can get it treated and be well again.
Even if you do not have Lyme or one of the other infections the same ticks often carry ('co-infections'), a Lyme specialist may be very helpful in sorting out what is going on. In my experience, Lyme specialists (casually called LLMDs, or Lyme Literate Medical Doctors, by us the patients) are more broadminded generally and therefore are able to see beyond the limitations other MDs seem to carry all too often.
I know that National Health puts limitations on certain aspects of medical care, but that there may be other avenues and still room for independent-thinking MDs. I just searched --
lyme disease england
-- and got quite a few interesting links. Carrie's right, it could be lupus, but an LLMD would/should take that into account as a possibility in the differential diagnosis. I personally saw 20 MDs before finding my way to an LLMD, so it can be a long trail. One of the 20 docs actually ran a Lyme test on me and it was positive even by the skewed criteria the nonLLMDs here require , but the doc dismissed it because I was not sick enough, tho I was terribly ill and the doc knew it. The medical profession is in a state of profound denial and confusion, and it takes pluck and desperation to pierce that problem.
Lyme is the on the frontiers of medicine, so dealing with it and with the medical profession is not easy, but it is definitely worthwhile. I've been there, and done that.
Please try that search (above) online, and keep poking around until you find an MD with an open mind who appreciates that Mother Nature is far, far trickier than is often realized.
Let us know how you do, okay? Best wishes --
Hi Dave:
When you said something about the rash, I'd remembered something I read about Lupus and a rash. I goggled it and found this:
http://www.lupus.org/webmodules/webarticlesnet/templates/new_aboutfaq.aspx?articleid=376&zoneid=19
It also mentions something about sores in the mouth too... I'm sure that a neuro would have tested you for that though so it's probably not that, but just in-case.
I'm NOT a doctor...not even close.....
I certainly hope you feel better and if you figure it out, please let us know.
Carrier
Did you test for HIV?I don't think is HIV, just asking, you will see my post soon, i have the same symptoms like you, i tested for hiv several times and it's negative.