****Open Forum Sunday****Happy Easter Everyone*****

[capermom]

Just opening this one early. When I come on in the mornings I can't open one!!! Hope nobody minds me doing this.

******Happy Easter*****

[S.TTC#1]

Yes HAPPY EASTER TO EVERYONE! Hope everyone has a good holiday weekend.

Now, I'm sorry to be negative right now, but I'm having a bad day today.  It was today, one year ago, that I found out I was pregnant! And its really upsetting that I'm sitting here still not preggo again.  I thought for sure that I would end up pregnant again by the due date (12/7/03) or at least by now (when I found I was preggo). And its my fault for taking my fertility for granted.  I just thought, "no biggie, I'll be pregnant again soooonnn".  Well, that's not the case.  I know God will let things happen when its best and I shouldn't have assumed or expected something else to be.  I pray everyday things will turn out for the better and I keep my trust and faith in god. It's just days like these that really bring me down and under.  
To make me feel even worse, I REALLY want to go to Church tomorrow.  I usually work on Sundays, so I never get a chance to go and I have off tomorrow plus it being Easter I really should go, but I also want to sleep in since I haven't in awhile and this will be my only day to just relax and I also have lots of school work to do. So now I feel guilty for not wanting to go. ;o(

Argh, sorry for bringing this forum thread down (negativity) just need to vent.  Anyways, let's get back into happy mode...and enjoy our weekend.

Thanks for listening.

[PregnantAGAIN]

Happy Easter all!!!

Steph, 12/7 of 2002 is my daughters bday, I know you are probably like ugh shut up, but I just wanted to say... I am glad my daughter shares a birthday with such a special angel baby.:c) I cant wait until you get that BFP! I will be here celebrating with you! Hugs to you!!

[Kristen26]

Happy Easter to Everyone! Hope you all have a great day and enjoy some time with your families.

For all you Pregnant ones, try to enjoy every minute and not worry too much.


S.TTC#1 and Everyone:
I'm really sad too. It must be the holiday or something. Lots of little ones out hunting for Easter Eggs. It makes me think about how I should be having a little one soon too. I am hoping that after I get past my due date (May 13th) things will get a little better. I went to a big easter egg hunt today with a friend and her 15 month old. Big mistake! There were babies and pregnant ladies everywhere!! I am really so happy for all of you who are expecting, so I don't want to get you down. You all actually give me hope that someday I will have a pregnancy go well. I just need to vent too. This is so hard. It's been 5 months now since my miscarriage. I thought I would be doing better, but lately I've been on a little downhill slide. I saw a friend who hasn't seen me in while, she said sorry to hear about my loss, and I started crying in Target! Yes, in Target...Ughhhh! I didn't understand before I had a m/c how much it affects people. I always thought, they would just get pregnant again, and everything would be O.K. I now realize that only time can help to heal the grief. Even if I do get pregnant again, I will always think of my first baby. I hope and I pray that we TTC after m/c will soon find the joy of having a baby in our arms to hold. Until then, thank you for allowing me to come here and talk about my fears and hopes. It has helped me more than I can express. Happy Easter! ~Kristen

[msklar]

Happy Easter...

Danasel, Ashton is thirteen lbs. Its funny because I know a lot of babies born the same time as he was who all were much smaller, but have all caught up in weight. I guess he wasnt meant to be such a big boy..lol...He is not very long though, so three to six month clothes. still fit him very well....

And in case anyone is wondering, I have to spell the numbers since this stupid HP laptop keeps messing up on me. The only numbers that work are 5and6.. Nothin else. Gotta spell em out...

DOnt buy HP laptops..lol

[nanakay]

let me guess you are a tiny little thing??

for some reason every petite girl i know have big babies and then once they get older (the babies) they turn into these little skinny kids.

I don't know how big my nephew was when he was born (he is adopted) but now i call him skelitor.  he is so skinny, he just has a really high matabolism, the kid can eat with the best of them (when he wants) but he is constantly moving. he is in the 75% for hight and 10% for his weight.  

anyway, most of the girls we took lamaz with were real little and they all had these huge babies, then my dh and i come in with our little tiny thing that at 2 1/2 months we were cheering because he finally hit 11 pounds.  (i'm not huge but i am far from tiny)

sorry this is babbling isn't it?? oh well
have a great Easter

~nanci

[nanakay]

I promise not to babble...

i just thought i would give an update.
af showed up today, but that's ok at least now we think we have the problem pinpointed and we are taking steps this next cycle to over come the problem.

we had my sons' birthday party yesterday and it went very well.  It was a beautiful day here (about 74 degrees) so the kids were able to play outside, yah!  he got a **** load of stuff (as if he doesn't have to many toys now) so i got to spend the rest of the afternoon and evening taking things out of the boxes (damn twist ties) i swear you need security clearance to get into some of these toys.

hope you al have a wonderful Easter!

~nanci

[capermom]

Hey everyone. Yup, I'm sad too. Sad, worried, the hole darn thing. I have company coming over for dinner and I am just not in the mood. I am going to call the doctor tomorrow and demand he send me for an u/s. I just can't take this any more. I am worried to death, it's all I can think about. Now that I've caught up on my sleep, I'm not even tired any more. This is making me worry. At least that was one little symptom, now I have none.

The boys had me up at 6:15, the little buggers. They love the egg hunt and the chocolate trail I always make for them. I went back to sleep though until 9:30. What a nap!

TTC, sorry you're sad today too. Hope you day gets better!

I hope you all have a great Easter!!!!

[S.TTC#1]

PregnantAgain- ah, thanks, I appreciate it.  That was sweet.

Kristen: hearing your speak sounds JUST like me.  I know that it can seem very rough but we just need to stay positive.  I'm a firm beilever that things will happen when you least expect it. So let's get out into the world, enjoy it, stay occupied w/ various activities and soon enough we'll get our "good news" we've been waiting for.  (good things come to those who wait)

Capermom: well I decided to go to church this morning.  I'm all alone today.  DH is away on duty w/ army in Boston.  So I felt better going to church even if I was be myself.  And I wanted to let you know that I thought of you when I went and prayed for you and your baby.  Just think, there's NOTHING you can do right now but wait for those results so don't let it bring your day down and your family's day. Enjoy the moment.  

Btw, your due date is 12/7/04, isn't? Well, that was my EDD last year. I hope you get to hold your precious one in your arms in 8 months.

Bless you all and happy Easter.

[metallic_angel]

hi everyone,

  Today me anda adam decided to focus just on us and not if im pregnant or not.  I guess its working because it hasn't come up until i came onlien to chat to ya'll.  Easter is okay (i got a pilate kit and a workout outfit so i'm just gonna go try it out) the dog went nuts with his new basket of toys... all though he seems to like the basket a lot more then his toys.. you can never pleases them. lol...

  Everyone keep your chins up. I know it gets harder around holidays because it feels like a family thing.  Thats why adam and i make it a policy to just have fun and concentrate on our little "family" (me, adam, and dallas(the dog)) and do things for us.  Holidays are a big break of the worries of the world.

HAVE A GREAT EASTER

Anna

[Still_AndiJ]

I have to jump on the December 7th band wagon, my 2 year old's birthday is 12/7/01, the 60th anniversary of the bombing of Pearl Harbor.

I know how hard it is to see your due date roll around, when I got pg with my 3rd pregnancy, I was due 4 weeks after my SIL and 2 weeks after my best friend. I had to see both of them go on to deliver these perfect babies. I was lucky to go on an delver my son 10 months later. But then my most recent loss would have had my due date on January 30th and even though I am pg again and due on May 19th, it was hard to see January 30th roll around without my little angel to hold.

In time it gets easier, I promise. You will never forget your angel and no one should ever ask that of you. I still think about my first 2 m/c, and those were 8 and 12 years ago.

I wish everyone a Happy Easter and I hope everyone can find some peace in their lives.

Andrea

[S.TTC#1]

I just saw this on the conceptionstore board.

http://danielfairbanks.com/jude/jude.htm

Its a birth video, but gross or anything.  Really sweet, sad, happy, everything.....I don't even know why I watched it but I did and had to forward it on here.

[blondie72]

I know today is Easter and the message it sends does make me happy but today in church a baby about 1 month old was baptized and the Pastor held him up and said "Isn't a newborn baby just a wonderful gift?".  It was then in the service that I lost it.  A baby is a wonderful gift and I should have had mine by now or at least ready to POP any day now.  I am so happy to be 4 1/2 mo pg again which made it a little easier today but it was still a little hard.  I hope all of you who have lost your precious ones found strength in the Easter message today.  It did help to look up at the big cross and crown of thorns and know that my baby really did not die but is in a wonderful place.  I know we would all rather have them here in our arms but it is comforting to know they are in the next best place.  Take Care to all of you and I hope your holiday was wonderful.  Thank You - Angie

[S.TTC#1]

Awww, I know how you feel but now just imagine how you feel and add that pain to those who aren't even preggo again like you. You can at least rejoice in the fact that you are expecting a little one very soon. (And I know it still makes no difference, we will always remember the ones we have lost).  It's VERY hard and hurts so bad. I too saw lots of families and young babies at church this morning.  I was also by myself, DH isn't here, so I just felt sooooo alone.

Okay everyone I'm sorry I started this sad, depressing thread.  I know its Easter and we all need to enjoy the good things not the bad ones.

[Casey1]

I'm 36 weeks and today I've been having exactly what my menstrual cramps used to feel like, all day long.  I took 1/2 terbutalyine and then another half when that didn't do anything.  Also some Tylenol.  There are no well-delineated contractions per se - just one long *cramp* that wells and subsides.  Nothing that has me on the floor yet or anything.  I'd call my doctor, except it's Sunday, plus she is in Hawaii this next week.  I guess if it gets too bad we'll just go into the hospital.  I just didn't expect to feel 'menstrual' cramps at any point, and it has me confuzzled.

[capermom]

Thanks for the prayers TTC, you are so kind. I pray for all of us every night. I will hopefully get good results tomorrow. It was a long wait I'll tell you. Still, I am requesting an u/s. This is rediculous having to feel this stressed when it can be relieved for me because of an u/s. Most of it anyway, if everything is ok.

Well, I hope you had a great Easter. Sorry you had to spend it without your husband. I know that's hard. I cooked a big turkey dinner today and had my cousin and nephew, my brother and his daughter over. It was delicious. It kind of took my mind off things too. Well, I'll be here tomorrow as soon as I get my results. Praying!!

[nanakay]

when i was pg with my son i used to get cramps like that, i didn't really think anything of it until i was in for a checkup and while the nurse was trying to find the babies HB with the doppler thing she asked me if i could feel "that"  
i said feel what, she asked if i felt anything at all.  i told her i felt what feels like a menstral cramp and she laughed and said i was having a contraction.  she said not to worry just know that that is what that was so that if they continued and got closer together to call.  

36 weeks is really good.  don't count on anything happening soon though my son ended up being a week late. :)

good luck

~nanci

[Casey1]

Thanks Nancy ~

The thing is, they are constant at this point, and I have had loose stools as well now too.  I'm not counting on anything happening, but I'm afraid it will!  I want this little one inside for another week at least.  I'm having a hard time concentrating, I'm just so uncomfortable.  Thanks again for your kind words and encouragement.  I've known I'm at risk for pre-term labor, so I guess it's hard to just shrug this off.

[dawnna]

I know what you guys mean about being sad.I just broke down and started crying last night.I was just thinking about my baby and how i would have been 30 weeks today.And one thing that makes it hard for me is that one of my real good friends is having a baby and she is due the day before me.And i have her baby shower and everything to go to.It just makes me very sad to knoe that i would have been having a baby shower around the same time as hers and my baby would be born around the same time.Im very happy for her but it just makes me think of what could have been.
But we just have to know that one day god will bless us all with happy healthy babys.I look foward to the day i can finally hold my baby in my arms.I pray that god will give all us healthy babys very soon.You guys were talking about the date dec,7th.
That is the day i lost my baby. Thanks for listing to me.I will keep all of you in my prayers and i hope everyone gets a BFP very soon.And i hope all of the new pregnancys go great!!
CAPERMOM-Try not to worrie so much.I know that is hard to do.I will be praying for you.
Dawnna

[Kristen26]

Hi Everyone, Wow, the holiday has really been tough on us. I'm glad it's 11pm and almost over. It sure has brought out a lot of emotions. I've been depressed all weekend. But, I'm starting to feel better now. I think I actually have some good news. My OPK gave me a positive reading! I hope I'm really ovulating. I guess I'll figure it out in about 2 weeks. Well gotta go, I've got to get busy BD!!! Wish me luck!

[Still_AndiJ]

There must be something in the air : ) I was in L&D again last night with contractions. Most of the day I was having them and then they started to get closer. At one point they were 5-7 minutes apart. I went in and managed to only register 5 in an hour. So they released me and told me to call my OB monday, schedule a vag u/s to check my length (I have a posterior cervix which was hard to check even when in full labor with my son) and they also suggested the FFN test. So, that is what my morning will consist of. my contractions have still been persistent today, but we are hopeful he is just playing tricks on us as I am still only 34 weeks 5 days.

If you are certain your water hasn't broken, take a warm bath to help with the cramping. It has been working wonders for me (you'd think I was a fish as much time as I have been spending in my tub)


Andrea

[Casey1]

Thanks Andrea. :)  I'll be calling the doctor to get her take on it.  The baby has been feeling less active, but that's probably because she is getting squished!