Help Me: Masterbation(masturbation) Is Killing My Life

[Mr_Leo555]

I'm A 19 yr Male Goin On 20, I'm In The US Army, I Have A Good Life, Make Money, And Love It All......There's Just One Problem. I'm Addicted 2 Masterbation (masturbation) :(. I Started At 15 And Been Going Ever Since, At 1st I Didnt care there's nothing wrong with self-pleasure, it's healthy. Now as i reach my 20th birthday, I've been seeing changes in myself and my life. I maseterbate everywhere, i mean EVERYWHERE....public bathrooms, public computer labs, in the car, hell, an hour before i started typing this, i started doing it with like three other people in the room with me, it feels so good when i do it, but then i look around and see that im touchin myself with other people in the room using computers thank god for walls here. i'm in iraq right now and i get a bonus ever pay day...i have alot of money saved up from my 1st deployment...then i saw this popup 4 camgirls. i thought it be fun so i joinned, This week by itself I've jacked off 2 that site like 8 times a day. 8 TIMES!!! and they ask me 2 keep reloading my credits. which i do gladly till today, when i found out i spent HALVE OF MY DEPLOYMENT SAVINGS. omg all that save up money from me almost dying from getting shot at and almost being blown up........down the drain....i feel so stupid, i wanna end my life...so i'm askin.....NO PLEADING, for help please, im in iraq, so i cant see anyone 4 it, i've been in the same boat as the other guys here, bad side effects (except oder), losing my social life, not focused..I...I just want my life back please help me i know im young but i dnt want to do it anymore....no more, i'm just a kid getting ready for adulthood, I don't wanna live like this anymore..........

[pokesallie]

It does sound as if you have a problem and really need help. Your Unit should have someone - medical personnel, psychologist, counselor - or someone you can talk with about this. No one wants to be an addict and that appears to be what is happening to you. Please do talk to your superior officer, best friend, medic, or someone who can help you. This sounds similar to any other addiction, the more you do it the more you want to do it! You might try rewarding yourself for not masterbating (masturbating) and see if that helps. Or just try delaying the desire and limit yourself.  I send my best to you.