Help Me: Masterbation(masturbation) Is Killing My Life

[Mr_Leo555]

1st Of The Topic Is All Of THe Above, I Just Clicked One....

I'm A 19 yr Male Goin On 20, I'm In The US Army, I Have A Good Life, Make Money, And Love It All......There's Just One Problem. I'm Addicted 2 Masterbation (masturbation) :(. I Started At 15 And Been Going Ever Since, At 1st I Didnt care there's nothing wrong with self-pleasure, it's healthy. Now as i reach my 20th birthday, I've been seeing changes in myself and my life. I maseterbate everywhere, i mean EVERYWHERE....public bathrooms, public computer labs, in the car, hell, an hour before i started typing this, i started doing it with like three other people in the room with me, it feels so good when i do it, but then i look around and see that im touchin myself with other people in the room using computers thank god for walls here. i'm in iraq right now and i get a bonus ever pay day...i have alot of money saved up from my 1st deployment...then i saw this popup 4 camgirls. i thought it be fun so i joinned, This week by itself I've jacked off 2 that site like 8 times a day. 8 TIMES!!! and they ask me 2 keep reloading my credits. which i do gladly till today, when i found out i spent HALVE OF MY DEPLOYMENT SAVINGS. omg all that save up money from me almost dying from getting shot at and almost being blown up........down the drain....i feel so stupid, i wanna end my life...so i'm askin.....NO PLEADING, for help please, im in iraq, so i cant see anyone 4 it, i've been in the same boat as the other guys here, bad side effects (except oder), losing my social life, not focused..I...I just want my life back please help me i know im young but i dnt want to do it anymore....no more, i'm just a kid getting ready for adulthood, I don't wanna live like this anymore..........

[Jaquta]

You're not stupid!!  We all make poor decisions (especially when stressed).  It's possible that you needed to do that to get to the point you're at now.  A point where you may be ready and receptive to change.

It's possible your frequency has increased due to transitions you're making in your life.  You learning about who you are and thinking about what you want to do.  It's possible these are also made more intense because of the environment you're in.

The behavior sounds a little obsessive.  Don't they have people you can talk to in the Army?  Don't be afraid to use them if you need too.  I mean it.  Don't let your pride get in the way.  Talk to a medic if you have too.

I hear that you can't.  Dr Gould has a program on www.shrinkyourself.com that helps individuals with emotional eating issues.  It probably helps people with other issues or addictions too.

I hope this was of some help.  If not, I at least hope you felt heard.  The doctor and other members may have additional comments and suggestions.

Take care and please be careful.
J

[Jaquta]

You could also try posting on the compulsive behaviors forum too if you wanted to get a range of responses.  The expert there hasn't posted for a while so not sure when you would likely get a response.  You could even try looking in the forums archives to see if they had any useful info.  There have been several posts there recently on masturbation.
The expert on this forum usually provides excellent feedback and advice though.

J

[Paxiled]

J is right, this is stress, and it's frequent with young men when testosterone is most abundant.  I know in the Service it's hard to talk to someone because you're concerned about your career, but it sounds like you're trying very much to get attention.  So you might as well go talk to a counselor.  I'm not young anymore, but if it helps, many of us go through this at some point, usually after a break-up.