I wish someone will help me out, and I think this is such a pathetic thing about myself. I used to masturbate once every two days and I started around 2 years ago. After I got a girl friend this summer and...went all the way for a home-run in just few weeks, I had to leave her to United States. My life became very pathetic, because it was my first time having sex and I missed those feelings. My masturbation was never comparable to those great times so I do it more often than before such as once per day.
After few months, I started to fight so much more with her through Skype.
I found myself impatient, not funny but sarcastic, tiring, easy to be mad, picky about everything, and no matter how much sleep I got, I always felt exhausted. I'm not sure if these are side effects from masturbation, if they are not..then great, i'll...keep my routine going until I see her again and stop doing those unnecessary acts, but if they are side effects, then can someone please help me how to find a way to stop them? everytime I tried stopping them I found myself staring at girls around my school trying to find opportunities to have sex, or staring at my boobs, this wasn't me, and I've isolated myself much more than before due to the perverted mind I have after having sex.
I don't want porn, I don't want masturbation, i don't want to be mad, I don't like to be tired, please help me remove all these things from my life because I don't need it