penis shrink

yeah i have a problem iam 70 yrsold when i was 11 yrs old i went swiming for 3hrs in the ocean my penis was normal before that as i have 3 brothers and know at that time it was normal . but after swiming i went to put my clothes on my penis shrunk to a size of a baby and my tesicles were shrunk to i panicked and they stayed like that ever since i was so embarrassed at gym time people would laugh i was ashamed i never went to my parents about it or to a doctor i use to masterbate alot as a kid like around 7 yrsold i started doing this some 13 yr old girl molested me i feel in love with her my mother caught us and i could never play with her again so i started masterbating (masturbating) at a very young age iam just wondering if i could have damaged something i was married 28 yrs got a divorce had 2 kids it would get hard and come out but after that it turned in to a baby toe very embarassing after my divorce i went to a massage parlor and had sex i did not care what they thought of my penis but after i had sex laid on the massage table with my legs at a ninety degree feet flat and the women said wow your penis is huge ? i said what i reached down and it was bigger than ever my testicles were just hanging i started to cry because all these years i have been ashamed to even go to a doctor to find out why everything had shrunk and just humiliated at school by all the kids i now know that something happened to it some strange accident in the water that day that made it shrink but at that position everything is normal but when i stand up it all shrinks to baby size any body out there got a clue i laid it all out there