please help!!!!!!!!!!!

me a 29 year old,single, already have undergone varicocele in 2007 and noticed improvement in spermcount after surgery but the next 3 years spent it horrible, like rigorous masturbating cos am a depressionist and am stinking addicted to porn also am a binge drinker n heavy smoker, but lately am into detoxification. I exercise and take fibre foods and keepin myself away from all the above actions for the past 7- 10 days.

during last year i started to feel the varicocele started to reccur in my left side and now its enlarged visibly as it was before my surgery in 2007, also i feel the same kinda pain in the right side too but the pain generates in the upper side. i felt embarassed to go n meet the same doc again and to tell him all bout my stories as he knews n my family well, and so i developed varicoceles on both of my sides for the past 1.5 years.

I already have wasted lotsa precious time i had a change of place avoidin my friends group and now in a different location in a relatives place and am now takin sum time to rejuevenate myself thru workouts and shed off my toxics of alcohol and am seein good results like am feelin good, my complexion improved feelin healthy, and wanna continue for a month till the end of december..
*Can I continue this and go to the doc at the end of dec or towards the end like 3rd week? cos am now worried bout my physical appearance too but which now is showing drastic improvements and wanna drag it for some more long days and appear fit mentally n physically.
*Can i wait till this month or the mid of jan for varicocele treatment also i cant afford surgery imdtly now.. can i wait n act? *am worried if the sperm count will increase this time? also i suspect i have this IBS too my left abdomen aches if am not havin food or stand for long.. my left part of my body i always had felt it weaker... i have lots more to ask but i want sumone to reply for all my queries,, please bear wit me all... can i take a month time shape up my body detoxify it and then go for the doc , am stressed seriously if i think bout this but i do have the pain in the left testicle as i had before the first surgery.. i don wanna hear negative replies as any repentant would wish, please encourage me i seek help

Is it ok to wait n perform a varicocele surgery?
Is it ok to exercise like push ups & briskwalking?
Is it ok to b on diet and detoxify thru intakin lotsa fibre foods?

[remar]

Good for you for taking care of your self. That's great. But if I were you I would go ahead and see my Dr now. Drs see and hear everything so don't be worried.    Remar

[remar]

Good for you for taking care of your self. That's great. But if I were you I would go ahead and see my Dr now. Drs see and hear everything so don't be worried.    Remar