Is this a suicide tendency

[FM44]

I am on Celexa after being taken off Zoloft. Mainly just because my doctor wanted me to be. On Celexa for 2 months and in that time have had strange thoughts. As I am driving I think what would happen if I just took the wheel and turned it. This is on the highway going about 75mph. Or I think what whould it be like to be dead. This scares me because I don't want to die. I am seeing a psychologist. Should I tell her?

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

You should tell her and also tell the psychiatrist who is prescribing the medication, and seriously consider going back to Zoloft.

[cindymhi]

YES!!!   Tell your psychologist as soon as possible!!  He or she can then help you figure out whether this is caused by the new drug you're taking!!!!

Good luck!

Pam

[grrlfriend]

The zoloft might also be bringing out some kind of latent obsessive-compulsive tendencies: definitely check with your therapist!!

helen

[wildcat]

Yes, tell her immediately, those are signs of a death wish and one of these times you will take the action.

I am on Effexor and have been on Celexa and have tried to kill myself by deliberatly causing seizures using a strobe light. I have done this three times already over the past six months and the last time I was actually asked if I really wanted to go to the other side while I was unconscious. I thought about my cats needing me and changed my mind and prayed to God to help me stop the seizure tonic stiffness long enough to cover my eyes to get out of the seizure. I was in those seizures for two hours each. It was something I felt obsessed to do and the depression was severe at those times. I average a seizure every three to four days anyway, [not two hours], only 10-15 minutes or so that's sort of why I play with it and even am in denial of having a seizure disorder somehow. It sounds crazy, maybe I am. I feel crazy and it's been a long and disgusting last two years for me. I still am on the borderline but not suicidal now. I want my soulmate back. I was made to realize this by my fill-in psychiatrist the other day but the court system won't allow us to be together because of past alcoholism and arguements. The court ordered a stay away but I told them last year they can drop that once he gets treatment. I got treatment and am no longer an alcoholic. He got treatment too by the court forcing it but they still won't allow us to be together. Now I don't care if I live or die most days. He is the one that named me wildcat. He is the only person I have ever felt true love for. I have never loved anyone else, they rest were only companions.

I am babbling and had better stop since I feel irrational. I hate being out of control of my feelings and thoughts. I know what many of you are going through. Good luck to all and prayers to all that need and deserve it.

[RainBow Child]

Fight the system. Don't let them run over you.
You could move to another state and there is nothing they could do about that.
If he and you have been treated there show be no reason to stay away.
Unless they think that you both will start back to drinking.
Good luck to He and You . I wish you the best.

[wildcat]

Rainbow,

Thank you for the advice, but we live on a small island in the West Pacific and neither of us ever plans to leave it for any reason. I would not go back to drinking, I have been in complete remission from the alcohol for almost 1 1/2 years now. He on the other hand is of a completely different culture where drinking is almost a ritual with everything, so he may go back to drinking. It is a problem and one only God can help with. Thanks
again though for trying to help.

wildcat

[Fan]

Definately tell your therapist. Is this the first time you have had thoughts like these?I had good or okay luck on all the SSRIs except Serzone which gave me intrusive suicidal thoughts within days of being on it... who knows why? But trust your instincts!

[FM44]

Told my therapist yesterday. Afaid now that I will be intentionly thinking of something just because I am aware of those feelings. Not sure that made since. But have had a different experiance since then. It is posted under Scared.

[boombaby]

I am 31 yrs old, i have been bi-polar since i was 16, i have been on just about every med that you can name or think of, yes,,,, it is a sign of suicidal tendencies, when you have a med change it has a very powerful impact on not only your mind, but body, please do tell your doctor whats going on, it is not good!