When will this feeling go away from cocaine?

[erac k bye]

One week and one month ago I tried cocaine one night.  I did about 3 lines and I was feeling the effects.  I then smoked some marijuana and I still felt fine.  I then little a little more cocaine and felt fine still.  At this time it was about 3 am.  Me and my friends then decided to smoke some marijuana because we were coming down off the cocaine, and we had a little bit left and we put it in the bowl with the marijuana.  About 5 seconds after taking my 3rd hit of this bowl an extreme high came over me that i could not control.  One time i smoked too much marijuana and i sort of remembered that and that time i had blacked out so i laid down in fear that i might fall on my head.  I then began dripping with sweat.  The people that were with me said i was pale but then said that i was getting my color back and i could tell i felt better.  After laying on the ground for 20 minutes i thought i was semi-ok so i got up and walked over to our camp fire.  I sat down and realized i was not ok.  An intense high came over me again that i could not handle.  I could not focus on anything and i was affraid to move.  I was affraid to do anything.  My friend gave me water because my mouth was becoming dry.  I then had to pee because of this but was affraid to get up.  For 2 hours i had this feeling then i went to the bathroom and then sat back down in my spot.  Also for this two hours instead of being sweaty i was cold.  I could not focus on anything.  Finally after that two hour period and i got up i tried to goto bed.  I could not then decided i should drive home and try to sleep there.  I couldn't.  I then ate two bites of cereal and it made me puke.  I then drove to where my parents were.  At about 11 am i finally fell asleep and woke up at 5 and i still had some of the feeling with me.  That night i fell asleep early and woke up the next day and seemed relatively ok, but not perfect.  I also used to smoke marijuana daily, but did not use cocaine.  I felt very anxious the next day but i figured i was hung over or something from it.  The following day i think i felt ok i dont really remember, but i smoked marijuana and the feeling came back.  I then told my parents about it and we went to a doctor and he said there's nothing wrong me but i know there is.  He said i could have only gotten brain damage if i got a stroke which i dont think i got.  It is now a month and week later and i still feel the same.  I used to sleep in until 11 now i wake up at 7 am and sometimes i also have trouble just falling asleep.  Now i feel like i can barely focus on stuff and my eyes feel off, almost like i am permanently slightly tripping.  Sometimes i get an attack where everything seems to go quite like the feeling that first came upon me and i feel like i am going to die.   I am scared did permanent damage.  Is there any way i could have done some damage that could take months to resolve or is it permanent, or could i just have PTSD? Any info will help me.

[Roger Gould, M.D.]

You certainly have a form of PTSD, but whether it is chemical or psychological is the question.  The key sentence in your report is that you smoked marijuana and it came back. From what you said, it sounds like you have continued to smoke mj.  The first thing you have to do is stop, because it is more likely you had an overdose reaction initially because of the cocaine, and you are suffering from a reoccurance phenomenon.

No, you don't have permanent brain damage, but you do now have an extremely sensitive brain to exogenous chemicals, and you will have to be very careful what you use from now on, and should probably avoid pot for a long time.

[erac k bye]

I have not used marijuana since that one time, but i permanetly feel like i am on some type of drug.  Sometimes everything seems like it is about to spin and when i see something strange such a small plane high in the sky i question whether it is there or not.  I think about the way i feel from when i wake up to when i goto bed.  Even when i am not thinking about it, i am thinking about it.  what should i do?  Everyday seems the same as the last and it has for the past month.

[lmroswell]

You see, it's not worth doing the stuff.  Hope you feel better soon...

[leigh47]

I'm sorry that you are not feeling better. Since this has gone on for so long, why don't you make an appoinment with your doctor and discuss it with him/her? I think that would be the best thing for you to do. Take care.

[erac k bye]

my doctor said i have no damage and that it needs to fade into memory but everyday i think about it 24/7, no less than the day before.  I just got some anxiety meds i think they may be helping.  I don't see how therapy can help me but maybe everyone going into therapy feels that way.  I heard hypnotism might work so maybe if i get hypnotized into thinking it never happened i might feel better.  i dont know.

[Cindy91]

I cannot imagine how scared you must feel about it all, but at least you are doing the right things... you have reached out for help from people who obviously love you (your parents), and have consulted a doctor (your first official line of defense).  My recommendation to you would be to resign yourself to the fact that you have definitely put your system through something exceedingly traumatic, something that will quite logically take time--possibly a good deal of time--from which to recover.  You should resign yourself to this fact and give your body and mind the rest that it so obviously and desperately needs.  I would continue to revisit your physician for regular and frequent followups to make certain that all is going as well as can be expected, and that you are on the mend physically, emotionally, and mentally.  With time, you will feel very much your old self again... at which time it would be in your best interest, without a doubt, to find alternature sources of excitement than drugs.

Good luck and best wishes... and I mean that!   :)

[erac k bye]

im def done with drugs i can for sure live with that i just want to feel like im not on drugs once again

[Sirrus]

You may have Depersonalization...
I got it from smoking marijuana once (the effects actually working)...

www.depersonalization.info

[marienyberg]

I have been on Paxil after a scary withdrawl from alchol. I think that was my poroblem.  At first I took Zoloft. that worked great after w
2 weeks not drinking.  then my Ins. BS changed i to Paxil. chohol?  I have drank for a long time in the
past and never had this problem. I think that
I have aged and cant handle wine any more?

[erac k bye]

how long did your depersonalization last

[nmss]

Hello,

I had a similar experience when using mj 10 years ago. Not neccessarily in the symptoms when high, but the feelings of fear, anxiety and depression throughout the experience till well after I'd 'sobered up'.

I was completely crippled emotionally and spiritually for almost 2 months. I dropped out of school and could not sleep. There was a racing, cold feeling in my stomach and I was really frightened for most of the time. I tried taking hot baths to get rid of the 'cold' but they didn't work.

What brought me out of it was starting to exercise and focus on my health. I got heavily into martial arts. Somehow, the combination of rising self-esteem and positive stimulus for the body was pushing my mind in the right direction.

I think I have recovered, but you never really get over something like that. It's very scary. It makes me extremely wary of mj. It's possible it was laced with something else, but I'll never know.

I'm now living a mentally healthier life, even though I'm slacking off.

One thing that helps - if the depression/anxiety feels like it's coming back - is alcahol (alcohol). Not getting drunk, but buzzed. It kinda warms me up and pushes away the 'cold'.

Good luck. Don't give up. You have to re-aquire your sense of self; do it by finding something meaningful to you and focus on it.


James.

[erac k bye]

so its been 10 years and your still slacking off? im out of school but i hope ill be back.

[kloedanser]

Stop smoking pot.   You went off on a bad high and you will never be able to smoke again withut going back there.  Sucks, dont it? I used to smoke,got messed up on other stuff just once and now every now and the I still fell a flashback.  Cure? Water, Hydrate yourself daily.  Take your body weight in lbs. and diveide by 2.  That number is the  amount of ounces of water you need daily, DRINK IT. Get off the mj.  It will never be the sane, you will always trip bad when on it,  dont do it.  good luck.