i don't even know where to begin. depressed as a child, so when i discovered drinking i loved it. when i was 19 i got into a.a. and remembered an incident of
abuseAlcoholism
Chemical dependence - resources
Child abuse - physical
Child abuse - sexual
Child neglect and psychological abuse
Drug abuse
Drug abuse and dependence
Drug abuse first aid
Family troubles - resources
Laxative overdose
Signs of drug abuse by a teenaged neighbor, just felt "crazy" started cutting etc after being sober for almost a year. depression led to drinking again, and then
firstFirst progesterone mc10
First progesterone mc5
First-progesterone vgs 100
First-progesterone vgs 200
First-progesterone vgs 25
First-progesterone vgs 400
First-progesterone vgs 50
First-testosterone
First-testosterone mc hospitalization. 6 hospitalizations later, i'm 24, clean from crack and alcohol for a month, really hit bottom, so that is
clearClear by design
Clear eyes
Clear eyes acr
Clear eyes clr
Clear-atadine
Clear-atadine children's, i know i'm an addict and i'm working on
recoveryRecovery position - series. the rest is confusing. two different psychiatrists insist i have
borderlineBorderline personality disorder personalityBorderline personality disorder
Histrionic personality disorder
Obsessive-compulsive personality disorder
Paranoid personality disorder
Personality disorders disorder, yet my therapist i worked with for three years disagrees, and i'm trying to get into half-way houses but the dual diagnoses are closing a lot of doors. three years ago i started on zoloft, 200mg. now i take 1000mg depakote, and 50mg. seroquel for sleeping, 25prn for anxiety. went off 40mg of buspar last time i was in the hospital a month ago. my parents just think that i have no coping skills, the medication is "masking" that, and i should go off of them and live in a therapeutic community for a year. the t.c. won't take me because i overdosed on seroquel in june, and the diagnosis of major depression, and i'm sure of borderline. a couple years ago i got ptsd, major depression and alcohol dependance, now it's etoh dependence, generalized anxiety disorder, panic disorder and major depression along with the bpd.
so i know this is long, but it seems like every psychiatrist is unwilling to disagree with the last one, and i can't get any clear advice that i trust. any thoughts? thank you. i really want to get better, but i am so confused.