Withdrawal is going to be difficult, and the best thing you can do for yourself is to ask your doctor to start you on some antidepressant medication like
zoloft, or
paxilPaxil
Paxil cr, or
lexapro to cover you while you withdraw, and then withdraw from the antidepressant which you will have been on for only a short time at a low dose.
I truly feel for you. Recently, I found out that my beautiful sister is addicted to hydrocodone as well. I can't tell you how this tears me up. She has so much going for her, but right now, she can't see past this messy addiction. It's controlling her life. All I can say is that I stumbled upon this awesome website and lots of others struggling with this issue, too. Please know that I'm going to be praying for you.
Blessings~
Kel
Rod.