Hi people,
I'd like to keep my anonymity, so it would be good if you just call me Rama, and I'm 21.
I am very happy to find such a society activation, i'd never came to the idea checking for such a website even though websites are my profession.
First, i would like to tell you a story of how my head aches started.
I remember my first, and i can clearly say, my worst headache of my life, i was just 6 years old, if there's a factor measuring headaches, then that headache would multiply with the maximum, i remember i ripped my hair off from my head, even cold, very cold water on my head didn't help, i guess it was the child mentality that even made me kick the wall with my head. After that headache, my family told me that for just one second i lost my consciousness, and the next day that i woke up, i can clearly say, i never felt the same like i was before, and it was hard to notice such a thing with 6 years, it's hard for a kid to feel, not to mention accept, a difference in its life.
So far so good, i did not have and big problems with headaches after it, maybe i had some that changed my mood, and forced to do stuff that i didn't like made me have headaches too (like learning/studying areas that werent my interest), but never considered with what i had with 6 years and what im having now. But when i turned 16, the headaches came back, very rough headaches, couldn't describe them in my words, even the neurolog said to me it might be from my sleeping disorders, the fact was true, the headaches were reduced when i started working which stabilized my sleep, and then i even quit smoking which reduced them even more. So with 18 i was a bit freed from the worse, it's not that they stopped or the headaches volume dropped, NO, they just got more rarely, from 16-18 i had them like every 2nd or maybe 3rd day, from 18 and on they dropped to a single event per month.
I wasn't really concerned about them until i read about cluster headaches, i've seen some pictures where they show the symptoms, and yes, the part of the brain that hurts (it changes time to time), thats the part where my eye lid closes a bit, even after the release of the pain. And it feels like the headache is around my eye everywhere, but sometimes the whole part hurts. As i said, i wasn't really concerned until i got another shocking experience, which totally changed my character at the time when i was on the headache, i nearly punched my mother cause she was not listening to me that i need silence, i seriously dont know how i controlled myself. Apart from that, the clock ticking was so annoying, that it felt like a hammer on my head, i even heard the clocks on the other rooms, this was even usual on all of the headaches, until this one, i could hear the electricity on the wall (the cables inside), and to prove it to my self, i turned all the electricity off, and i didnt hear the noise anymore, and i did that twice, just in case to have total evidence (but i really am very aware of reality, i dont think i hallucinated that). One of the results at the end of the pain, i've realised that i had blood under my forehead skin, that totally freaked me out, so i began researching for cures, apart from Ibuprofen that helps time to time, if i take to late, than im f****.
What i've noticed on the internet by researching is that psychoactive substances (also known as psychedelic drugs) have a immense effect on eliminating cluster headaches (remember, i was never sure that i have cluster headaches, but it was the most matchable symptoms that i've found). It takes a lot of courage to share this with you, and i think now you understand why i chose anonymity to write here down. I tryed one of the helping Psychoactive Substances, even though i've read a lot about it before testing it, from what i've learning, it wakes something very spiritually and religious in a person, but might have huge negative effects, but i've notices that it depends on what kind of person you are, and from that nature, i am a very positive person who laughs all the time and thinks about Peace nonstop. Anyway, so one day i've decided to test it (LSD), even though it took me months to get to it (those druggies and their way of dealing, very very sad). I must say that i've enjoyed what i had from it, but im not here to explain an effect of a drug, but to confirm in a way that it helped, it cured the headaches for nearly 6 months, then i've started having the headaches again.
Now here i am. One of my choices is to try another psychoactive substance which is natural, magic mushrooms, and i have people who said that they helped them even more than LSD. But im hesitating. Hesitating because i want professional tips before i choose another solo choice for my self.
Another thing that i would like to add is a conversation with one of my colleagues who says had KINDA the same problem, and we share (shared acutally) a same different problem too, which i think connects with the headaches.
It's a Nose problem, since i live in the world, i cant remember that i breathed air with my two holes from the noise, i definitely noticed that one of my nose channels is closed inside, i can breathe with it but it's like using 10% of it, and it hurts the other channel which gets overloaded. I do even have serious problems with smells, for example Parfumes give me headaches very fast, from what i've noticed, its Ammoniac thats causing this, but im not sure if it's the right chemical.
And finally, i'm having hair loss at the top of my head, behind, which is very uncommon for a 21year old, i can clearly say, hair loss started with 19.
For the readers, i hope i was clear, please feel free to ask any question.
Have a nice day.
Rama