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Or, a walk-in clinic.
All of these options will be less expensive than going to a specialist if you can't afford to see a specialist on a regular basis.
You absolutely need to find a doctor that will help you with pain management. You should not be in a situation where you feel hopeless.
As for ice-pick headaches... do you know what triggers them other than light? Do you find that some movements trigger them... such as bending down or turning your head sharply? I would suggest avoiding such movements, this might help with the pain
The watery eye and restlessness... this sounds like a cluster headache to me? Cluster headaches are also called "suicide-headaches" because they have often driven people to suicide. They are worse than child-birth pains... which is a type of pain that most women would describe as the worst pain they have ever felt. If you do have cluster headaches, your doctor is actually putting you at risk for suicide. And, if anything were to happen to you ever... I would consider your doctors lack of care manslaughter. Cluster headaches are well documented, in the medical community, as suicide headaches. This is a well-known fact. Ignoring someone who has cluster headaches is like ignoring someone with a loaded gun in their hand. (p.s. cluster headaches, despite their name, CAN be chronic daily headaches... it is rare, but it is possible)
Anyway... enough of my little rant there...
Back to helping you...
I am sure you already keep a headache diary for triggers. But just in case you don't, you should. I am sure you already avoid alcohol and chocolate... which are two triggers for cluster headaches... which it sounds like you have... but if you don't, you might want to try avoiding those... unless you've already tried for a month or so and found it had no effect. Also if you smoke, you could try quitting to see if that helps.
You could also go to the ER and ask for oxygen and an injection of sumatriptan. Don't get your hands on theses things yourself please please please... you could kill yourself with oxygen by mistake... and even the type of under the skin injection that you'd be giving yourself with sumatriptan, it's not a good idea to do it if you aren't trained already and you don't first try it around medical care, you can do it wrong and end up not getting the medicine, or you can give yourself gross blisters or welts and stuff. So, just go to the ER and ask for these things. Tell them you have a 10/10 headaches and a watery eye and you are restless (cluster headache symptoms, hense why I'm suggesting a cluster headache treatment and not just morphine or something).
Now... if I'm totally wrong about the cluster headache thing, and you really do have classic migraines... then, well... they'll probably give you a triptan and morphine at the hospital. Which will probably work if you have a classic migraine.
Also, tell them at the hospital about your doctor who is denying you care and ask them to refer you to a new family doctor if they can.
Or.. try and find your own. I feel terrible for you that your doctor is not providing you with care.
Oh, and make sure you tell the hospital and any new family doctor about your medical history too. It is possible that your current doctor isn't being a big jerk and the reason that they are not providing pain treatment has something to do with your removed tumor and crainotomy. i doubt it. but, it's possible. so, they should know about it. anyway, even if that is the case... there must be something you can take for the pain... and a good doctor will eventually figure that out with you even if they have to do a TON of research to figure it out.