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Cycle Buddies - 1/25/09

Cycle Buddies - 1/25/09

HERE IS OUR NEW THREAD!  There are a lot of TWW'ers here!

Steph - CD31
bam - CD26 / 9DPO
nunu - TWW
EmptyInside - CD25 / 8DPO
Erica - CD26
Mikaleen - CD23 / 7DPO
nickswife - TWW
smr08 - CD16
peterjl - CD11
mommyoftwo - CD8
GMB08 - CD3
kgokgo - chillin
popcorn799 - chillin

Look at all the preggers!
Mapes - 19W
AP - 14W
Tiger63 - 13W
Dani - 13W
pat4rod - 10W
CacyMichelle - 8W
munter - 7W
Ashmcc - 7W
Latrice - 6W

Lots of SSBD to all!
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Right on with me. I also posted a question and I'm looking forward to your help. You know me, 41 and clueless lol!!!!

                          Lori
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WOOOO HOOOO!  I love reading all the tww stories...  Let's see how many bfp's we get out of 13.  Now they say you have about a 25 % of getting a bfp each month, and that drops to 15% as you get older...so lets say we average that to 20% of 13 people...Bam, how many bfp's is that?  I know that is so not a hard question...but it is for me :)
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Thanks Bam!! You are amazing!

Wow! Lots of pregnant girls now!! Send me some of the water you're drinking. ladies!! Good luck to all! :D

As for me, I piac this a.m. and got a BFN :( It's still way early and since I haven't had a reg. cycle since the m/c, I don't know when to expect AF :(  Haven't really been NDing enough to get a BFP this month anyway, so I'm not really expecting anything...I move on Thurs. or Fri. so, I won't be on much, but please keep me updated! I want to see lots of BFP's when I get moved in and my internet hooked up again!! :D

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Sending everyone in the tww SSBD and hoping some BFP's will come from that list.  I hope everyone is doing well. Im starting to feel like **** now a days, i have my first ob appt on friday.
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Dani...2.6 Bfp's.  (so maybe Bam'll get her twins to make up the half)

I am giving in and beginning testing at 8DPO because my bb's are so super sore I can't stand it, and have been for 3 days already.
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mikaleen / dani - yep, 2.6 :)  LOL about the twins!

I gave up and tested at 7DPO, silly me.  I really won't get my hopes up to see a BFP until after 10DPO.
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mikaleen...I've got my fingers crossed for you! :)

latrice-- Sorry to hear you're not feeling well, but I'm glad at the same time! Symptoms are a good thing!! :D Good luck on Friday! :)
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mikaleen-thanks...I figured it was 2.something, but that's as far as my math skills go LOL!  We have to remember to keep track and see if anyone is having twins...Bam...to be honest, I am glad it's not me!  Keep posting everyone when you test!  Here's to seeing two pink lines :)
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Bam -thanks.

Good luck to the Booty camp girls. I wish you all a BFP!

Ps I hope all the pgs are having a nice and calm pg not like mine. I was admitted in the hosp friday night. Yikes.

I HOPE YOU ALL HAD A GREAT WEEKEND!
Hugs,
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Thanks BAM, I'm actually 9 weeks 2 days! SSBD to everyone!
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Thanks Bam, i am also 9 weeks today not 7, but good try. Cant wait to see al those BFPs for those in the TWW. Good luck.
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Hey ladies, I've been so depressed lately as this week i was due with my last baby. I can't stop thinking about it and it's driving me crazy. My firnd who was pregnant at the same time just gave birth to her son. I want to be happy for her but i feel sad. I hate being jealous. I feel like such a bad person
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Bam; good luck on testing. I was 9dpo when i tested this time and got BFP! Praying for you.

Latrice: feeling like **** is probably a good sign! I hope you start to pick up.

AP: take care of yourself hun.
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Hey Gals, I am off to get an u/s and blood work today. I hope to see my Dr as well later this afternoon. I hope she says we can try again right away. Thats what DH and I want to do.
Tiger: Its o.k to be jealous, its normal and I hope the rest of your pregnancy goes smoothly.
Bam: My fingers are crossed for you and I can't wait to hear that you got your bfp. Do you have any symptoms?
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popcorn-good luck and let us know how it goes today.

...and asking someone in the tww if they have any symptoms LOL!!  I think the tww is full of symptoms!  Don't ya just wish there was a major symtpom that was full proof so we would know on 1dpo if "it" happened or not!

Good luck to everyone!
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Tiger - I'm sorry that you are so sad.  I know how tuff it can be.  My co-worker's baby shower is coming up in a couple weeks and it was supposed to be a joint one for both of us :(  

Cacy/Munter - I don't know how I got so far off on your dates!  I swear I looked at your pg trackers.  I'll get it right next time :)

ALL
10DPO, another day, another dollar, another BFN.  My bbs were really sore since O, but that is a side effect of the Clomid.  I was really sick on Fri/Sat, but turns out it was from switching to Rx pre-natals (vs the OTC I was taking).  Now my bbs are no longer sore and no symptoms.  Good news is no zit, tell tale sign of AF.  I go to the dr's today for my Clomid check and since I missed my bloodwork on Fri, I will get it done today.  Just checking progesterone, so it won't tell me too much.
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Tiger- I'm sorry that your feeling sad, my due date with my son would have been in March and i'm really dreading it.

Popcorn- Good luck today!

Bam- DON'T GIVE UP!! I'm praying for you.(((hugs)))

I can't believe I missed bd'ing last night, my son's car got stuck and dh had to tow him out it took a while and I fell asleep :( I hope that wasn't my day!!
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Tiger- Thanks. I wish I could give you a big hug I'm sorry you are so sad. It's hard and time is the only thing that eases the pain. I hate the waiting gane believe me. Just know your lil baby is on your shoulder and with you all the time. We never forget but in time it's easy to look back in peace not pain. You are close to my heart today. Take care of yourself and your lil baby in your belly. How are you feeling? I will ttyl....

Bam- Don't give up not yet. I'm sorry about the baby shower coming up. I wish you were here to so I could give you a big hug. Keep your chin up and know you are in my thoughts.I'm crossing my fingers for you. I hope you get your bfp. I'm here if you need to talk.....Big hugs to you...

Smr08- No more missing bding..LOL. Remember everday until ready to test or period is due! I swear it works. I will ttyl....

LOTS OF STICKY BABY DUST TO EVERYONE...
Ps I don't know about everyone else but mondays stink....Seriously!
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CD1...I was so positive that I was going to get a BFP Sunday that I couldn't sleep all night. I woke up at 5 yesterday morning and PIAC only to find that I had started spotting.
Of course I knew what was coming. I have been so optomistic this entire month and BD'd every day for almost 2 weeks straight and then some! I was so sad yesterday that I didn't want to do anything. I was ready to tell the dr. just go ahead and give me the Mirena now so I don't keep doing this to myself. I hate when things bring me down. I would be delivering my little angel 4 weeks from today :( I have 1 more shot to make this happen! So I am going to be praying like crazy and doing everything humanly possible to get a BFP this cycle!
It is wonderful to see so many BFP's lately! Keep bringing them in TWW'ers =P
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Hey ladies I am kinda new to the CD days and etc.. I never have done that. but I think I can Offically say I  started AF THANK GOD its about time.!!!  its been a long miserable  10 weeks since m/c....but I have smile on my face right now I am just so happy to see AF .. yea I know I sound crazy but hey what can I say.. 10 weeks a bit too long..lol



LOTS OF STICKY BABY DUST TO EVERYONE...
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I'm so sorry that AF showed her ugly face!!!!! I was really hoping this was your month. I'll pray extra hard for you next month.

                              (((hugs)))
                                  Lori
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Hey All! Hope you're all doing well :D Not sure when AF will come as I haven't had any sort of regularity to my cycles since the m/c, but I'm on CD 27 and either AF is coming soon or I'm getting a BFP this month. I have really sore bbs. and I've got cramping that goes into my thighs (prob. because of the way my body has been since the m/c). Also I'm exhausted, which can be attributed to the move. But still, I just keep hoping.... Good luck to all in the tww...I'm right there with ya! (Sorry if this doesn't make much sense...I'm absolutely exhausted..lol! :P)
E.
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I have my fingers crossed for you! Hopefully you get your BFP and not AF (we need to lock that woman up!!!) Good luck to you and get some rest.

                                         Lori
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Erica- I'm crossing my fingers. I wish you a bfp. Good luck my friend....

Extra sticky baby dust to you!
Hugs,
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Thanks ladies!! :D
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No worries that you got it wrong because i went for my u/s last Wednesday and i am actually a week further along than i thought so you would have been pretty close. I think i have updated my preg tracker but i'll have a look.

Erica - good luck hope you have your BFP this month.

And all the other ladies trying in the tww good luck to you too ;0)
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Steph - boooo, stupid COW!  I'll be praying extra hard for you next month!

Erica - GOOD LUCK!!

hazeleyz - YAY - AF.  Whew, we got that out of the way, last time we'll celebrate her!

As for me, 11DPO and still BFN.  I'm losing hope here girls :(
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Bam...when did you get your BFP the first time?  Sometimes it just takes closer to AF.  Keep your chin up...How are you feeling? Any symptoms of either?

Erica...As long as I've been on here you have had long cycles.  CD27 seems way early for your bb's to be sore, so I'm hoping maybe this is your month.  Mine have been sore since CD21 which is pretty early for me, but 9DPO BFN this morning.  

Steph...I am exhausted just thinking about another month of daily BDing.  Yeesh.

Good luck to everyone else!!!
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I was not an obsessive tester pre-m/c, so I didn't even test until after AF was late.

Steph - how long was your cycle this time?  Is it back to normal do you think?  Will you try OPK's this time around?
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right on with me..i am cd6 today...steph..so sorry...i can relate...i want to be pg by my due date too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thanks bam for doing the list!
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Hazleyez- I missed your comment sorry! Congrats on getting your period. I hate af it sounds so gross! Ha but anyways you must be so relieved! Good luck my friend!

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Hi Ladies,
I had my u/s yesterday and also some blood work. During my u/s the etch said my uterus "looks beautiful" and then I laughed of course....never had someone say that before :)
The tech said he could see my ovaries and said I had 9 eggs in them, 5 on the left and 4 on the right. He said one of them was 6mm and he thought that one would be the one to "pop" this month. He said he could see a little bit of blood in the uterus, but so minimal, that it would amount to spotting. And then last night I had some brown spotting.
I didn't get to see my Dr., but I will see her on Thursday as she wants to wait to get all my results.
I guess I am cd9, if I count the first day of bleeding/miscarriage as #1.

Hazleyez:  Congrats on get your period. Thats a long time to wait, I would have gone mad by that point I'm sure.

Bam & Erica:  Good Luck poas/piac its still not over t'il the ugliness shows up. For you Erica, it could be a while.
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Popcorn - I'm so happy your u/s was positive.  Does that mean you were given the blessing to TTC right away again?
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Popcorn-- lol!! Porb. a long while....congrats on having a "beautiful" uterus!! Too funny :D

Bam-- DO NOT GIVE UP!! not until the COW (lol!) has showed up....finger crossed for you hun!

To all my ladies-- Thanks for all of the positive reinforcement :D Here's hoping we see some more BFP's soon :D Good luck to all!!

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Bam- I'm not sure about ttc right away. I only see my Dr. on Thursday. I hope she says go ahead b/c I'm ready to try again even if she says no.

Erica- How long has your cycle been? I know the last one was like 45 days or something crazy like that.

Keep up the positive vibe on here and maybe we'll see some BFP in the next few days.
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popcorn-- CD28 today...so not very far into one of MY cycles. I think this might be how my body is reacting to AF since the m/c...I'm having some bad cramps today, so maybe it's a positive sign that my cycles are getting shorter...here's hoping for that!! It makes ttc very tedious when your cycles are 47 days....here's hoping that's not the new norm..
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bam- You can't give up hope yet...It's still early and until you see AF you still have a shot at your so deserved BFP! This cycle was only 31 days :D The last one was 30 which means that things might be getting back to normal! Which give me some hope that I will at least know if I'm getting my BFP or not before my due date. I know yours is coming up too...

I am praying for all of us especially the ones whose due dates are coming up!! I don't have much time to stay on tonight...Lots to do :D Thanks for all of your wonderful words of encouragement! I hope all of you are having a great day.
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I hope everyone is doing well. Keep trying girls! I know it's hard but i was just about to give up when i became pregnant. So stick with it even though it is such a hrad time. I'm wishing you girls get BFPs very soon and you have the stregth to keep trying!

Best wishes

Stace
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Hey ladies, wanted to see how everyone is doing, I see there are 2 possible BFP's already from the other thread i read. As tiger said dont give up, you have to keep trying, especially on fertile days.  Sending much SSBD:)
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HAPPY THURSDAY GIRLS!!  Just one more day till the weekend!

Well I went out and bought a 3 pack of FRER last night.  Tested, BFN.  As of this morning I feel like AF is going to show any minute.  I think I'll be ok with that since I have the HSG to look forward to (so to speak).  I very gently brought up the s/a again last night with DH and he gives this very heavy sigh and said that he had just thought for sure I would be pg by now.  Poor thing, it made me sad to see him sad.  We briefly discussed some options, but I don't know where we are going to go with that right now.

I really just hope the COW shows up today, so I can get started on my next cycle.
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Well I just entered the tww and scared...yesderday I was excited today I am scared and thinking omigod what am I doing!!!!  after to miscarriages in a row I am gun shy!!!!
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Welcome to our group!  We have a couple women in your situation.  So we are all here to support one another.  Getting the BFP is half the battle, surviving the stress of it is the next :)

Good luck to you, when do you think you will start testing?
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Happy TWW!  I am like you...terrified after 2 m/c in a row and wondering what I am thinking.  Some days I think, Hey, it happened twice already, it's not gonna happen a third...and other days I think, Man, it's happened twice already...why NOT a third?  Good luck, and we are due for some definate BFP's! (not mine and Erica's is it or isn't it... =) )
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Hi everyone! Well i'm CD20 today and i'm praying that I hit the day : ) This is my first time trying and boy is it stressful! I have very light cramping and a little pressure in my lower belly, I also feel very hot, hopefully it's not af showing up early again this month : (  Mikaleen, I'm still not ruling you and Erica out, you both deserve a BFP.

Bam- I'm hoping nothing but the best for you! You are such a sweet person and very helpful.

Mialvan- I know exactly how you feel : )
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I started the big O yesterday!!! So in about 10 days I will test.  
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Good luck to everyone in the TWW.  The waiting things stinks, but hopefully we will get some BFPs to celebrate.
Bam- if the cow is going to come, I hope she comes soon.

BTW I have a RANDOM rant- being a teacher I sometimes wonder why people reproduce.  I know that is mean, but some of the kids are so HELPLESS.  If they can't do something the very first time they try, they just quit.  They would never survive our forum with some women having to try over and over again with disappointing results.  I just want to say that I admire everyone's persistence.  Some of you have been trying for a while with several disappointments, and you still try.  YOU'RE AWESOME!!!
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What was the earliest you got your BFP in the TWW?  What brand did your use?
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i like the clear blue easy digi...but since this group i do the dollar store for starters........if i ever get my bfp on a dollar store..then ill follow up with the digi.....and on the digi..seeing not pregnant is worse than not seeing two lines..............
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Thanx Bam yes about time she came and hopsefully the last time i see her for 10 months lol... hoping for a BFP next month.. :0)
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Bam: I hope you test again and yo have some good luck, but if this isn't the right month for you I hope the beastly COW shows up real soon.

Erica: My fingers are still crossed for you....Like I said, I do not trust the dollarama brand one bit. I think it only detects hcg over 100, but thats my own opinion.

Smr08: I guess you will test in about one week or so. Good luck and I hope we hear some good news form you soon too.

Mikaleen: Do you think all chances are off? How many times did you test? How far along would you be at this point? Are you going for blood work?

I had my Dr's apt today and she said that my hcg level was 2 and she did not see a reason for us to wait to ttc. She has put me on prescribed prenatal pills. They contain more iron and 5mg of folic acid. I take one in the morning and one at night. She also wants me to use an ovulation kit so I can pinpoint exactly when I ovulate to make sure that my luteal phase was too short due to my last chemical pregnancy. I'm very glad we can try again right away....thanks for all your help over the last two weeks.
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QUESTION???
I am cd11 and I was wondering when I should start using my ovulation kit?
My cycles are usually 30 days and the pack I bought has 7 test strips in it.
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I am dpo 3 days and cramping bad  uugghh. to much bding I bet  LOL
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Popcorn799 - I'm glad you can start trying again right away.  If you are CD11, you should probably start testing now.  If your cycles are 30 days you will probably O around CD16.

Mialvan - LOL

As for me, still no COW.  I even demanded that DH BD last night to see if we could get her to come :)
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Popcorn799- Thanks! I hope to share some good news with all of you "VERY" soon. I'm glad you got the OK to ttc, I'll keep my fingers crossed for you!

                                    Lori
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Mialvan- I tested positive on 10 dpo with the $store test...

Mapes- I am SO with you on your theory.  I have such a hard time with our neice, she is 16, has actually quit every single sport in the middle of the season, has "no try" and has everything handed to her.  I can't even see her being able to live on her own at 18 if she wanted to...it is sad.  I think the worst thing you can do is spoil a kid and not make them work for things, even if it is just doing chores.  I really don't understand how some of these teenagers are going to make it in the "real world".  I mean, they can hardley write anymore, everything is "text lingo" and it is absurd!  Sorry DH and I have been having alot of talks about this now that we are hopefully going to have one of our own!

EVERYONE ELSE----Still rooting and checking in on you everyday.  GOOD LUCK :)
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Thanks for the update! Its nice to see where everyone is!!!

Unfortunately...no luck this month for me. It was kinda sucky how it happened. After both of my losses I went back on birth control as most of you know. For 2 months my cycle was right on. Well...i've been fighting off a cold for about 2 wks now & wouldn't take anything for obvious 'hopeful' reasons. Sunday night my temp went up to 102 & it took hubby getting quite upset w/me to get me to take ibuprofen. *lol* I went to the dr on monday (still a little soon to test for preg). Come to find out I have pneumonia, sinus infection, and some funny sounding infection that caused my throat to be covered in little blisters. I kept saying my right ear hurt & the dr said it was fine, it was just the mass of blisters on my throat. I thought my throat was sore from coughing for a week. He started talking meds & I said look, we've been TTC with the attitude of if it happens it happens & I don't want any meds because after losing a set of twins & then 1 more right after i'm not chancing messing another one up before it even gets an opportunity. He went through everything he was going to give me & its saftey & said its this & home to bed or you're going in the hospital because my left lung is full. Needless to say I took the RXs. Every inch of my body hurts & I have no voice, energy, nothing. Then to put the icing on the cake to all this joy...I woke up Tuesday morning & who was there to greet me about 6 days EARLY!!!! Yep, AF!!! GRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!! My DH said you poor thing, like you weren't feeling bad enough. He said its probably just someone above looking out for us & wants me to be healthy when I get the good news. Then he said hurry up & get better so we can get back to work, and this time take it seriously. *lol* He's not right I tell you, thats why I gotta love him!  I hope some of you had better luck than me this month!!!
On a positive note, since AF came early, we'll get to start trying sooner in February!
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Emptyinside- I hope you feel better soon. Best wishes to you on ttc and I hope you get a bfp soon!
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Emptyinside - That really stinks you are so sick.  I hope you start to feel better soon!  I agree with DH, someone is looking over your shoulder and now that AF came early you can feel a little better about taking the meds.  I'm praying that you have a very successfull February!
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I hope you get well quick! Good luck to you in February!

                                           Lori
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Gmb- I'm sorry you were so upset by that post. I reported him to medhelp. Probably a bored teenager!
Hugs,
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Popcorn- I am not going to test again until Sunday...I still don't feel so great, but I'm not as tired as I was.  If this doesn't stick I'm not testing next month until AF is officially late...I don't want to catch pregnancies that aren't going to stick...it's safer to wait.

Everyone else- Best of luck next month to everyone who has to try again...I wish everyone health and happiness and lots of ssbd...Good luck to everyone still waiting to test this cycle...


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Hey ladies i jus wanted to give u an update on my OB appt, it went well, she did an unexpected u/s and we got to see the heart fluttering away, it was one of those portable u/s that was so small, im 7w and posted my little bean on my pic profile.

Dont give up ladies, you have to keep trying, especially on your fertile days. Feb is heart day so lets do a lot of baby dancing ladies. Sending much SSBD to all.
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Congratulations! What a beautiful sight when you see that flutter on the screen. I'll check out the pics of your little bean. Glad all is well.

                       Lori
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Latrice- Congrats. I'm so happy for you! Now you can sigh a sigh or relief. Best wishes to you and your baby!
Ps I wish I could have a normal healthy pg so I could go back to baby dancing daily never mind the heart month...LOL
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BAM:   I did one strip today and it was negative, so I guess I'll do one every morning. I usually have a few signs that I'm going to ovulate (sore nipples and increase in CM), so it will be interesting to find out when I truly O. How many dpo are you?

EMPTYINSIDE:  I am glad that you are taking the medication and it is a good thing you got AF. You wouldn't want to be pregnant and have to take them. I hope you feel better soon so you can right back at it.

LATRICE: Its nice to hear from you. I am glad you got to hear the heartbeat...that must have brought a tear to your eye. I'm sure it would for me.

I am CD12 today and we are going to start BD tonight or tomrrow. I'm not really sure if my cycle will be regular, but we're gonna try anyway.
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