Cycle Buddies: October 15

Anyone else due for that witch AF on or around October 15???  Let's be cycle buddies...

[bam1014]

My AF is due on 10/13.  I'll never make it w/out POAS.

[nunu1977]

Ill get back to you on that one... goodness knows when shes gona show up!

[steph9803]

I am due for AF tomorrow, but sometimes she comes late...So I will be the oddball...lol

[mapes10]

Welcome.  You don't have to be the oddball since we're all still kind of guessing when AF will come.  Any chance of a BFP???

[mapes10]

Cycle buddies:
  I resisted the temptation to test this morning.  I am trying to hold off until Saturday or Sunday.  DH laughed at me last night when I told him I tested yesterday.  He said it was WAY too early and just be patient.  What do guys know :)  So when is everyone else testing?  I want to be able to celebrate or comiserate with everyone!!!

[steph9803]

I was too busy to get online yesterday, but I took a HPT...I got a BFN. I should have tied my hands behind my back when I woke up because I only had a cheap test that doesn't pick up until 100!! I just couldn't resist...lol Now I have to go buy another one and test again probably on Saturday. Patience is not my strong point :D I will be happy just to see that any of us finally gets a BFP! Then spreads that baby dust around...lol

[bam1014]

I too couldn't help myself and had to test last night.  Of course BFN.  I'm kicking myself for not waiting till this morning at least.  I did get a HPT, with 3 tests, knowing that I will test again on Monday, when AF is due and if it's still BFN, I'll do it again on Wednesday.  After that I'll have to give up hope.

I finally admitted to DH last night that I had been testing.  I have hidden the 2 tests that I did take, waiting for the chance to sneak them in the garbage.  (DH does all the cooking so he'd be sure to spot right away).  Anyway, to my amasement he just gave me an amused look and shook his head.  I guess he's just as anxious as me to get the BFP, but it's like pulling teeth to get an emotion out of that man!!

[bam1014]

XXSSBD to you all !!!

[nunu1977]

Im sitting here laughing at how everyone else is just like me and just cant resist testing early and maybe even hiding there tests from there DH. If i have a test in the house then im going to test early. My Dh found out that i found the ones he hid because I acidently left the wrap by the toilet. At least all he did was ask with hope what the result was. so many times today i thought AF had arrived... some mild cramps and all that... but still nothing. If I don't get anything in a few days them im sure to give in and go get another three pack.

[nunu1977]

oh and mapes, Im proud of you for resisting! I hope i can get some of that will power from you!

[bam1014]

I swear I have a metallic taste in my mouth, which I have heard is pg sign.  Am I just imagining this 'cause I want it SO bad?  I don't think I've ever had such an excruiting TWW.  It's so much different now that I know we can get pg.

[nunu1977]

I heard that as well but i had a bad sweet after taste every time I ate rather than the metallic taste.

[bam1014]

This waiting is so hard.  Last time I got my BFP, I wasn't expecting it, since we TTC for 2 years.  We had given up hope.  I didn't even track my symptoms.  I know I was really tired.  I 'm still tired, but I don't know if it's cause I'm pg or the fact that I have a full time job and have just gone back to college part time.  My classes are killing me, I work and study that is my life.  The one thing that I noticed tonight, is that my dog is attached to me.  He won't leave me alone.  I wonder if he knows something is up.  He was like this the last time.  He's normally a lap dog, but this is getting silly.  I can't get him off me.

[nunu1977]

I can see why you could be tired with work and school. Its even harder to get through the TWW when you feel you are having symptoms. I wish I could make time go faster for you till POAS!

[steph9803]

I saw a post somewhere else where a woman asked if animals could tell when you are pregnant.  There were a lot of responses.  They all said that their cats and dogs would be attached to them before they even knew they were pregnant! And one lady even said that her cat would be like that even if she was just ovulating...So it seems that they know something! I hope that your dog knows something that you don't ...lol

[bam1014]

Thanks nunu!  I laid in bed this morning debating the pros and cons of POAS.  I didn't do it.  I keep telling myself patience.  Of course that's not to say I won't change my mind and do it when I get home from work :)

[nunu1977]

If I use reverse psychology on you and say "I bet you can't wait!!!" will it work and make you determined to wait till at last AF is due????? are you due for AF on the 13th?

[mapes10]

Hopefully all these are good signs and we can all be excited when you get a BFP.  Let's see who's going to be first.  I'm trying to wait until tomorrow morning, but I too laid in bed this morning thinking about it.  I can usually resist during the day, but the morning is the worst.  I'm not even due until at least next Wednesday. I had a kind of weird thing happen, so I'm not even sure when AF will come.  When I used an OPK last Thursday, it was positive.  I did it again on Friday just to see, and it was positive again.  One more try on Saturday and still positive.  Going out of my mind trying to figure out what's wrong with me, then negative on Sunday.  I have read that can be normal, but I am still not sure when I actually ovulated.  I HATE WAITING GRRR!!!  I hope someone gets their BFP so I can be happy for them!!!

[nunu1977]

did you test at the same time of the day with all the tests? that happened with me also. i tested in the afternoon for I think three days and got positives and then in the morning was negative.
I used only that one kit though. Ill see what happens if i end up needing to use one again.
I want someone to get a BFP too just so I can be happy for someone even if its not myself just yet!

[bam1014]

I'm past the point of reverse psychology.  I've lost all sense of reasonableness.  After all, I'm asking my dog if I'm pg LOL!!  I even had a dream the other night that one of my co-workers told me I was.  Which may sound odd, but I have had dreams in the past that come true.  I dreamt that a girl in our office was pg and the next day I told her that, it turns out a few weeks later she found out she was.

Yep, AF is due on Monday, the 13th.  My DH and I have our 4 year anniversary on Tues.  Wine or no wine . . .

[nunu1977]

CONGRATS on your wedding anniversary!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm not a drinker so I could be bias, but im going to say sparking grapejuice in stead..lol  

I had to laugh about you asking your dog if you were pregnant!

My friend had a dream about 108 months before i got pregnant.. even before i started trying that i was going to have twins and I ended up getting pregnant with twins. I pray that i do agian but can carry them full term this time!

[Dani711]

I wish all of you the best of luck with your tests.  Someone has to get that BFP!!!  It just stands to reason that one of us will be lucky!  Hey isn't there ANYONE out there who is going to be going through the TWW with me!  You guys are all the ones in the same boat as me, but our cycles are off!  i need some POAS buddies!  I ovulate around tomorrow and I was already checking to see if any preg tests were on sale...even though I have three still in my house...THREE...that just wont do!!  lol  (i may need to start buying them in bulk)  My husband was laughing last time when I was preg. becuase I got two tests...then went out and got the one that said "pregnant" or "not pregnant"  like two lines werent enough.  My dr said so many women buy like 6 tests when it comes up positive!  We figured the makers of those things make a whole lot of money from crazy people like us :)

[bam1014]

Well, Crud!  I'm out, AF came 2 days early!  But here's how my afternoon went, just to amuse you.

I was so proud I didn't POAS this morning, but by afternoon I couldn't wait for the clock to turn 5:00.  I made sure that I didn't go potty this afternoon and didn't drink any fluids so as not to dilute.  I was dead set I was going home to POAS.  Then right around 4:00, I thought uh oh, something may be going on.  But I wasn't sure and I didn't want to go check, 'cause then I would have to pee and would ruin chances of the HPT tonight.  I rushed right home and to my relief DH isn't home from work yet, so won't know I tested.  I was going into the bathroom and I remembered someone posting who forgot to look before POAS, when they had AF anyway.  So I checked and yep there she was.  I even hesitated for a minute and thought of POAS anyway (you know . . . just in case).  Reason grabbed hold of me and now it's safely tucked back away in my sock drawer.

I hope someone else is luckier then I this month.  SSBD to you all :)

[Dani711]

Sorry AF had to come...but at guess that is at least 2 days of not having to wonder.  I always wish that if i am not preg then AF will come early, thus less suspense and hopefully ovulation earlier!!  
(But i must say, I did POAS last month eventhough I got AF, only because it wasnt REALLY heavy, and everyone in my family says they had almost an actual period every single month they were pregnant.  It sounds weird, but back then women didn't worry so much like we do.  i mean, imagine having a baby without having any ultrasounds!  Sometimes I wish i didn't know so much!
Good luck next month bam...sorry AF came..it gets depressing each month.  But what holds us together is being able to post here and know that we all know what you are feeling!

[nunu1977]

that was me that POAS then realized I had AF. well it was more she showed as I was POAS. I got another three pack tonight. I so want to go test now as AF hasn't arrived yet but Im half wondering if its because I haven't had an AF yet since the D&C and she will take longer than four weeks.
after saying that i didn't think AF was going to arrive today i ended up having cramps. I don't really get why im having cramps but no AF.

[Dani711]

After my little deal, it took 7 and 1/2 weeks to show...so who knows what our bodies will do??  Good luck though!  Have you looked on the internet for POAS in bulk!  I was actually thinking about it, but thought it might be overkill, but I am sure i would have no problem going through them!  It makes me feel better to know either way!  I was talking to you about telling my husband about ovulation time...I decided to take the laid back method, and took an ovulation test and laid it conviently on top of the bathroom garbage...too obvious :)

[nunu1977]

I have seen POAS in bulk online but was not sure if I should go for it. I found one that detected a minimal amount of hCG levels. I got another three pack last night and ended up not waiting till this morning to test. BFN!
this morning ive been in so much menstrual cramp pain since 4.30am but no AF. i ended phoning the after hours service to speak to the on call dr. im waiting to hear back.

[waiting21]

AF isn't supposed to come for 2 weeks yet!  I am excited and going to go crazy looking for symptoms!  My husband and I are most likely going to get 2 puppies this week, so at least I will have something to focus my attention on!

[steph9803]

Hopefully you'll be telling us all about a BFP in 2 weeks :D It's a good thing you are going to have 2 little puppies keeping you busy...it should help the time go by...Keep us updated!

[Dani711]

Did you get a hold of the after hours clinic??  I sure hope something happens that gives you some answers soon!  I know you dont want AF, but at some point it is better that being in pain for NO reason.  
I keep hoping that as each month passes, this whole TWW process will be come easier and I wont feel the need to POAS so often, but who knows, if they are really a good deal to buy in bulk...?

[nunu1977]

yes ther dr phoned me and said it might be a clot in the way of the menstrual flow. he didnt sound worried at all. but im not sure that is what it is. I dont cramp that bad with AF and these are bad. today has been better though. BFN on a test this morning. I have a phone number waiting to call to get into a new OB/GYN. I just hope they can take me in tomorrow. the Dr told me to take pain killers for the pain but i think they upset my stomach or liver or something because then i end up with pain all over my tummy as well as cramps in my lower abdomen. Im at the point where I just want it to start so I know there isnt anything wrong down there now. what if the surgeon did something wrong!!!!!

[mapes10]

I was busy yesterday and unable to check, but I am so sorry to hear you are having a hard time.  Like I told you before, it too me six weeks to get AF after my D&C, but I felt like it was coming earlier.  I tested this morning, and I think it was a bfn.  I say that because I saw the dye going across the test after about 3 minutes, but you're not supposed to read it til 5 minutes.  My son woke up before the 5 minute mark, so I just threw it in the trash.  Well later I went to throw something away, and there was a light positive.  I know not to read it after 10 minutes, so I'm thinking it was a negative.  Either way, I'm still holding out hope for the last few cycle buddies who haven't had AF yet.

[steph9803]

I hope that one of you gets a BFP in the next couple of days...So I can at least be happy for someone...AF just showed up :(  
Somebody is due for some good news! I'll say a prayer that you still get your BFP's
And I'm on to ttc a July baby...

[nunu1977]

what brand do you use? was the light positive pink or blue or more gray or a shadow?

[mapes10]

I used the equate brand, and it was definitely not an evaporation line.  It was pink.  I still don't think it's the real bfp I was hoping for, but I am thinking about buying the digital tonight to try again tomorrow.  I want to think it was postive, but they say not to read it after 10 minutes for a reason.  How are you feeling?  Did AF show up for sure?  Have the cramps gone?  I hope you're doing better.

[nunu1977]

I use the same brand. I got two positives with it over a week a go and four negatives since. I am still wondering if i still had Hcg in my system with the first two.
Still no AF. I had some cramping yesterday but not too bad, just like a normal menstrual cramp. but no cramps today so far.
I found this website when i was searching false positives. it said that if its pink (or Blue depending on the test) that its positive. it will only show up pink if it detects any level of hCG. it also said that there is a chance of gray or a shadow line simply because of the moisture.
I sooo hope it is a BFP!!!!!! when i was pregnant the first time i got two positives that i didnt notice at first they were so faint. when i looked at it hours later thats when i noticed the line. so on my third one i looked closer and saw the faint line a after a few minuets that slowly got darker past the ten. of course it was on the third day so the hormone was a little stronger in my system but still.
I am so excited thinking that you might be!!!!!! let me know what the next test says!!!! I cant wait to feel the excitement again of seeing a positive line show up!!!

[mapes10]

I really appreciate your (and everyone else's support).  I want to think it was a bfp, but I just don't know yet.  I love hearing everyone else's stories because it always gives me hope that I am not alone.  We are all struggling with similar situations, and this is a (cheaper) form of therapy :)

[BP0629]

sorry to hear AF showed up. on the positive side it was early so the torture of waiting forever wasn't as bad. Enjoy your anniversary and celebrate your love for each other. if you have a short cycle like some of us lucky gals you can always practice! *lol* my DH keeps teasing me that practice makes perfect!!! :-) take care of you....and i'd say celebrate with sparkling juice...you are still TTC so start those good habits early! best of luck to you!

[bam1014]

I am happy AF showed early, so she'll be gone by tomorrow.  We been together for over 10 years, but I guess a little more practicing can never hurt ;)

[mapes10]

Cycle buddies:
  I noticed in another forum that their cycle buddies got really specific saying where everyone was on their cycles, tww, bfps or whatever.  Is that a good idea, or is that too much?  Would that make ANYONE feel sad/upset/bothered?  I was just thinking that we could keep track easier and then everyone who's in diffierent stages might distract us from our tww (thanks Dani).  Thoughts?

[BP0629]

ok so AF is still hanging around after taking FOREVER to get here after my MC. This weekend was really hard on me emotionally/mentally being thats when AF came. Yesterday was a wonderful day, I went on a filled trip with my sons pre-kindergarten class and had a blast. Checked on my BF's that are expecting (all around my due date) and all was well. Last night I cried myself to sleep again....my DH keeps telling me to hang in here and it'll happen when its meant to. Then this morning at work I was talking to a friend about one of my follow up MC appts with OBGYN & another co-worker chimes in about my drs name & wanted my opinion of him because she is bubbling over to tell me that she is 8wks pregnant with her first. My friend hugged her & congratulated her and I congratulated her. She and her hubby are still in that 2yr newlywed phase. I then excused myself about 10 minutes after the conversation & had a little cry. I know I am SOOOOO blessed to have my 4 & 5 yr olds (1 of each at that) but I so want a 3rd to feel complete. I can't even imagine how selfish I must sound to those of you who are struggling to concieve (conceive) just one. My brother & his wife had to use fertility meds for both of their children so I know i'm lucky. But it just hurts so much to know that i'll never get the opportunity to hold my 3rd in my arms. We will be trying soon...once AF gets outta the picture, but it just seems that the whole world is PG but me.....These emotional days suck!!!

[mapes10]

I think every one of us has felt exactly like you do.  I remember several days recently where I just wanted to go one whole day without crying.  Sometimes I did and sometimes I didn't, but don't let anyone tell you to "just be grateful."  If your child had died at age 6, they wouldn't say that.  A loss is a loss, even if it is before everyone else meets the baby.  That child was a part of you, and you will carry the baby with you always.  Don't forget AF is a good sign: it means that your body is working and will be able to carry another pregnancy soon.  Good luck, and keep us posted.  Feel free to pm if you want to talk.  I can COMPLETELY relate.  BTW aren't the ladies in here great.  I haven't told anyone except you ladies that I am pregnant.  I just know that you understand and that we are all sympathetic to not only the pain but the CRAZY WORRYING that happens with out situation.  Thanks again to everyone here.

[steph9803]

I know what you mean...I sometimes feel guilty that I am on here whining sometimes when I have beautiful children. I never in a million years thought that I would lose a baby, and never could have imagined that it would be so hard.

Mapes- It is nice to have people that understand how you are feeling!  

All- My sister had gone to the dr. yesterday where she had a urine test done and it was negative...She got the results from the bloodwork back today and she is 4 weeks pregnant? I can't beleive how something that I was so excited about last week is now scaring me so bad...My cramping is getting worse, I am now 4 days late and having many pregnancy symptoms...I thought AF was starting Sunday but it didn't it was just a little bit of spotting. Still got a BFN this morning...

[nunu1977]

mapes- Ive already started to write down dates on AF and all that with everyone else just so i can remember where everyone is. it does take my mind of myself for a bit and that helps a lot. once i know where im at for sure Im comfortable telling
I feel privileged that I am one of the first to find out about your BFP!!!!

Emptyinside and steph-  I had a miscarriage with my first pregnancy (twins) but still feel that you have every right to feel how you do even though you already have children. anyone that says that you are selfish for morning so bad after loosing a baby has no heart so please don't feel that you sound selfish!
I hope that this cycle with bring you a BFP!

[waiting21]

Question--I am charting my temps, and I have just read about the triphastic phase, where you BBT might rise later in your cycle, which could indicate implantation.  Are any of you familiar with this?  If so, how much does the triphastic raise from the post ovulation rise?

[mapes10]

Okay so let's try this and if people like it we will post everything in a new thread.  Where exactly is everyone in their cycles?  ANYONE can post your info here, and I can guarantee that the awesome ladies here will be totally supportive.  You can be as specific or as general as you like.  You can say you are in the TWW, waiting for O, waiting to kick out AF, or be specific and say CD4.  Do whatever feels comfortable.  I am hoping that within a couple of months we can have BFPs by everyone's names.  I'll start:

mapes10- BFP on Monday (should be 4 weeks I think)

[bam1014]

CD5

(thanks so much for doing this!!)

[waiting21]

CD 18

[mapes10]

Does that put you in the TWW?  If so we will definitely keep you in our thoughts since we all know how hard that is!!!

[waiting21]

Yes I am waiting!  I am thinking I can test on Monday (which would still be 4 days before AF should arrive), which seems so far away!  But I also never thought I would get to this place again, so I am happy for even being able to be waiting!

[bam1014]

This bump is for you Steph.  Here is a blast from the past.  This is our 2nd ever Cycle Buddies thread!  There are some pretty good LOL's here as well as some of the sad times.

[smr08]

Bridgette- I just read the whole thing and it was so interesting to see how everything came together.    Lori

[Dani711]

Wow-that is a blast from the past!  That was only the second cycle buddies thread?  How did I make it without you all from April until then???  I am pretty sure I just hid my POAS addiction to myself and kept it my little dirty secret LOL!  It is funny too, that was the O time for me where we finally made a baby!  

[steph9803]

Wasn't it fun to read!

[mapes10]

OMG that seems like so long ago!!!  I can't believe how much our group has grown and chaged.  The best part is that everyone is still around and all the new additions are so WONDERFUL!!!  Thanks for the bump.