How to remember my baby that passed..?

[EmmaSummers143]

I can't get over my misscarrrige..?In January I was raped by my (ex) boyfriend. He got me pregnant, but I found out after I broke up with him. I never told him, but it didn't matter at the end because my little one ended up leaving me by miscarriage. I know that everything happens for a reason and that It would've been difficult carring for a baby "caused by abuse and assault," but you'll always wonder what they looked like for who they would've became. Seeing pregnant woman really pulls on my heartstrings too. I am happy for them but I wish I could be pregnant too. Is there anything that makes this better? What can I do to remember the loss? For example I threw away the pregnancy tests, but is there anything else I can do that physically relates it? I know that sounds weird, but I just need closure..

[heidiannweber]

I would also suggest that you see a therapist. Dealing with a rape or a miscarriage alone would be difficult and even more so together.

[AnnieBrooke]

Some memorial societies have a service once a year for all the babies who have miscarried.  You could call and find out, and go.  

Some women have written about having planted a tree or a flowering shrub in memory of their child who was lost.  Then they have somewhere to go when they want to think of them.

You can also find jewelry online that deals with hearts and wings, some people engrave it with the date the baby would have been due, or the date of the loss.