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582963 tn?1483452520

OMG ...IM HAPPY THEN DEPRESSED THEN ANGRY,

THEN MAD.............anyone feel like they are going in circles...praying for AF not to come...weeks later shes a lil late....makes u think ur pregnant...a couple of days after getting a BFN..she comes and then ur depressed all over again...............then u hear ur best friend or coworker or family member is pregnant and ur like WHEN IS IT MY TURN!!!! People always tell me the same thing I tell others......(it will happen, just dont think about it, ..) Im driving myself crazy waiting and wanting this ever since my first miscarriage............I wish I could go AAAABBRAA-CA-DAABBRAA and like that it happens!!!         ANYONE FEEL LIKE ME!!!!GGGRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!
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582963 tn?1483452520
Well Im blessed and Patiently waiting on my Blessing .................I know God has Perfect Timing so I will continue to Wait on Him.......I just wanted to ask all to continue to lift me up in Prayer..........Because I know it works! Thanks again .......and Baby Dust to all trying Women!!!!!!!!!!!!
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582963 tn?1483452520
Well Im blessed and Patiently waiting on my Blessing .................I know God has Perfect Timing so I will continue to Wait on Him.......I just wanted to ask all to continue to lift me up in Prayer..........Because I know it works! Thanks again .......and Baby Dust to all trying Women!!!!!!!!!!!!
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760797 tn?1303264540
Good job Erica, there's no pl,ace for that on here! We adopted one of our children and adoption is wonderful but we still wanted to ttc even after my m/c. It is none of anyones business and to call someone a retard, how ridiculous, we're not in 2nd grade. What a rude b!
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663562 tn?1291131883
good, glad that's gone!!
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663562 tn?1291131883
I really don't think you need to call someone a retard because they want to have a child. I really feel that was an insensitive comment and that there was no need for it. Yes, adoption is a very viable option (I, myself, was adopted) but to be so callous as to make someone who is grieving feel like **** about wanting a baby again is ridiculous!! Maybe you should try and be a little more sensitive to people's situations on this forum. We are all grieving the loss of a child and to be called names is not very helpful in the grieving process.
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I am so glad I found this site. Everything you all have said is everything I have been feeling. Since I had my miscarriage 2 months ago, I have been on an emotianl rollercoaster. And I just dont understand life sometimes. The ones who deserve it most are the ones who get it and the ones who would give anything to have a baby are the ones who either cant conceive or loose the baby somewhere along the way. But I keep trying to stay positive but when you are happy one minute and sad the next and angry the next minute it is hard to stay upbeat. Sorry, I am having a sad day tonight. Maybe tomorrow I will feel better and be more positive. Good luck to all of you who are trying to conceive. I know we will make great mothers when the time comes.
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582963 tn?1483452520
God is still working!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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582963 tn?1483452520
Yes you are right its like right now in life thats the only thing you want is your baby and its the only thing you cant just go buy off the internet or buy off the shelf this is something that has to be timed just right and done at the right moment....which puzzles me because some of these girls/woman can have sex once and get pregnant or on their first time get pregnant while the rest of us time clock ourselves and mark calendar days and basically live as a robot.  I wish we didnt have a 24hr egg because with this you have one day to a day n a half to try for a baby even a man sperm can live 3days....Even dogs get pregnant easy its just so frustrating that this is not happening as easily as others.........so many babies in foster care, so many babies in adoption facilities, so many babies are being supported by us (government children) and none of us are getting the blessings that we desire.  I know the Lord has a plan for everyone and I may just be tooting my horn and a bit upset because of the way I talk bad about the mothers who live off the government but hey what can I say I have a 3bedroom house with a fenced in front and back yard with 3 chihuahuas.............with no babies.........very unfair.....I pray that it comes soon for us Ladies Ive waited 8yrs .....8 long yrs..........Im ready for my pain to end...........and my blessings to begin....I love my God and I know he knows whats best for all of us............I just beg that WE are next!!!!!!!!!!!!
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My sister and I deceided to get preg. together and then I misscarried.  I have a sister, cousin, best friend, and 5 other people around me preg.  I don't know how I should feel.  I'm happy for them and would NEVER wish the pain I'm going through on anyone, but I'm also jealous of them.  I know exactly what Lil_Lady24 is saying about women who don't deserve to have children, who abuse, abandon, and kill babies and women who want a baby so bad not being able to have one at all.
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I'm going through the same thing right now.  I was on depo for 5 years and after a year off I got preg.  on week 12 I went to hear the heart beat at the DR. and there wasn't one.  After an ultrasound I found out the baby died at week 9.  My husband and I want to try again right away but my hormone levels took 6 weeks to get back to normal.  During that time we tried but no luck.  We are still trying like every day after my period to the next one and still no luck.  My moods are all messed up.  I'm sad, then angry, then depressed.  I feel like there is something wrong with me.  I will pray for all of you and I hope good news comes soon!!!
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582963 tn?1483452520
You are right I try to take it one day at a time.....last week I had to take my dog to Pets Mart to get her a new collar... I drove up and there were cops everywhere....so I was being the nosy woman that I am and asked the cashier what happened.....she said (you didnt hear this from me) but a man left his 2 month old in the car while he ran in pets mart to get something for the dog.  Someone passed by the car (windows rolled up, in texas, on a hot day will feel like 100+ degrees in your car) and saw the baby and called the cops.  They announced the name of the car and liscense number over the speaker at pets mart and he didnt come out until minutes afterwards.  Now tell me why in the world would a baby be born to be put into that situation.  About 6yrs ago here in Texas a young girl was pregnant with a baby girl they named baby hope ( i believe) and the teenager placed her in the large dumpster and left her there to die.  They didnt charge her but put her in hospital well guess what she got pregnant again and this time she placed this baby on the side of the highway near a pile of ants which the baby was seriously injured by these fire ants but they got to her just in time to save her she is older now and doing well but imagine what story this child will have to endure when she grows up..........I have plenty of storys but for the most part I know that I will have my time to have a baby and maybe even mutiples........I just will cherish my child and make up for all the babies that have been hurt.......I cant wait to have that big belly, eating everything, feel kicking, large breast, pushing the baby out and holding my baby in my arms with my hubby on my side, raise our child in  (a nice christian home) and tell the baby how much I love her and how much I prayed for her/him.  Many take having kids for granted because its so easy for them to have sex wait 2 weeks test get a positive and go to the health clinic with no insurance or just act like life is over when we would love to be in that position.

  Everytime I pray I ask the Lord to bring my baby 9billions time closer than ever before.........not sure if it will help but the Lord knows where my heart is and when he is ready I will be too!!!!!! Yall please continue to pray for me and it will be returned in the same manner!
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646038 tn?1268395986
Its like you read my mind! Its crazy how having an MC kind of takes over your life. Its like you already knew you wanted a baby, and now you know you can get pregnant, and then you're excited you are pregnant, and then in the blink of an eye its all gone...then you continue an emotional roller coaster w/ the anticipation of BFP or AF. Then you turn on the nightly news and see all the horror that some children face and you want to jump into the tv and well...you know...do not nice stuff to people. Shortly after my MC the news aired a woman who let her 7 y-old son drive her home because she was intoxicated and messed up on some drug. Then as the story went on she was newly pregnant WITH a newborn in the hospital addicted to cocaine. It hurts, I know. BUT I do believe the harder you stress yourself out, the harder it is to conceive. When i'm having a bad baby day I simply ask my pregnant friends to just...respect me and my loss and they do. That may sound kind of hard, but they are VERY understanding and caring about my loss and respect it. Just take it one day at a time....*HUG*
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637951 tn?1257270344
Not to mention how I'm a hostess for a shower next weekend...and then I'm sure my sister-in-law will have her shower soon. I just don't understand. Plus being a teacher and seeing all these kids that their parents don't take care of at all. I know God doesn't make mistakes, but it is still so hard. I have more blessings than I'm sure I deserve, but I still just long for a baby.
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582963 tn?1483452520
Girl yes all my friends have babies and all their kids are growing up together and I feel so left out my friend just told me that her baby went to his very first birthday party .........and my heart dropped...........
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637951 tn?1257270344
I feel exactly the same way. I have been so optimistic, but yesterday it just kinda hit me, and I am so angry. I was the one trying to get pregnant and in that time 4 of my friends have already had babies, and now my best friend and sister-in-law are pregnant. Neither of them trying. I just don't understand. It is hard enough trying and going through this, much less watching everyone else around you, when it should be you.
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582963 tn?1483452520
I just want all the women who are not crackheads, not child abusers, never been an inmate 33 times, and people who dont kill or drown their kids.......to be blessed with at least one!!!! I know life aint fair but WOW they dont deserve to be mothers WE do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!     (ITS HARD NOT TO THINK ABOUT SOMETHING YOU BEEN PRAYING AND HOPING FOR)
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Dani you and I are 2 peas in a pod :0  The last 2 years have been nothing but an emotional roller coaster.  Every month, the wait, the worry, is this a symptom?  As much as you try to tell yourself, you're not going to think about it, it creeps into every part of life.  Every since we TTC, I noticed every pg lady in every commercial.  X-mas is PURE torture with all of the kids toys and baby faces on TV.  It put me in the biggest depression last year, that it was a struggle just to get out of bed in the morning.

I put my entire life on hold for 2 years thinking that next month would be the BFP.  2 YEARS, I could be 1/3 done with my degree by now!!

My BF just got her IUD out and soon they will be trying for a 2nd.  We joke about me getting pg first, but I think we both know that it will crush me if she gets her BFP first.

I share an office with a preggers!!  She is going in for her 20 week u/s today.  That means I should have been at 19 weeks.

Ok, I'm done now.  Yes, LilLady, we know how you feel . . .
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641554 tn?1319841117
Hey I understand your pain Lil_lady. I know 12 pregnant women and 2 women just had a baby. I never knew so many pregnant ppl at once. NE who.... nunu I didn't get af after my loss either. I was in my 5th month tho, no d&C natural delivery. But After 2 months still no af. I was prescribed provera but I decided to try ginger root and parsley tea. Can I tell you that only 3 days I took it and the 4th day AF begun. Maybe that will help. Sorry about your loss. I pray it will happen soon enough.
Baby Dust to us all.
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628735 tn?1273875777
Im still waiting for my first AF after some complications after my D&C. I'm sure ill get to the angry depressed stage soon enough if it doesn't happen soon though!
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551885 tn?1300383822
oh yes, I can totally relate.  This has been my hardest month of the TTC yet.  i really didn't have high expectations this month, but I am either preg with a BFN on my test, waiting for AF, or have the flu or a cold.  I was feeling so sick last night, headaches, heartburn which I never have had before, SO excited expecting to wake up and finally get that positive...then BFN again.  I really don't know how much more I can take, or what I can do about it.  There is nothing I can do that will stop me from thinking about it, month after month, it is a heartbreaking cycle at this point!  
I really don't know what will help us, when it just doesn't seem fair.  I can hear that clock ticking for me, and each month that goes by I lose more hope.
I do wish you the best luck...and know that you are not alone!
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