Post partum depression after miscarriage,,,Please help

Okay. I am a complete mess. I had a miscarriage a week and a half ago. I was ten weeks pregnant. I thought that I was fine (emotionally) I was upset but okay. Tonight I had this sudden panic attack that I had just done something horrific. I felt like I had just stolen a car and been caught by the police. I was overcome with this feeling of guilt. I was afraid for my children and I called my husband and my mother immediately to come be with me. I just had this horrible feeling that I had done, or could do something bad.

I am wondering if it is possible to have a post postpartum depression or psychosis after a miscarriage? Does that even happen. I am losing it. My husband is acting like I am going to hurt my kids...which I would never do.

Please if anyone has any suggestions I would appreciate it.

[melo1224]

First of all I'm soo sorry that you have to face this. I'm not sure about post partum after m/c but we all know the many changes your body goes through when you become pregnant.

You did the right thing by talking about it and calling the people who love you most. If your feelings continue I would def see a doctor. Just keep talking b/c keeping it inside will only make things worse.

I hope it's just the overwhelming stress that you're going through physically and emotionally and that you're feeling back to normal real soon! Keep us informed.

[bam1014]

I'm so sorry that you are going through this.  A m/c can really wreck havoc on body as well as mind.  I agree with melo, you did the right thing.  Nothing can be gained by holding it all in.  If these feelings continue, yes definitely see your doctor as it could easily spiral into depression and that is nothing to mess with.

I wish you the best of luck and hope that you feel better soon.  We are here for you if you need to talk.  There is a site called pregnancyloss.info, I found that to be of great comfort to me.

[TesW]

Well I went to see my OBGYN and told him about my experience last night. He was reluctant, but put me on LEXAPRO (antidepressant SSRI). I don't feel depressed, but what I never want to feel how I did last night again. It terrified me. I keep thinking of Andrea Yates, and I bet she didn't know she was so depressed either.

I did not think the m/c was bothering me...but clearly it is. It is just coming out in a very different way than I expected. As always, thanks for the support.

[Latrice414]

First i would like to say im sorry for your loss.

TesW, i no how your feel, i had a missed m/c in june, i was 10 weeks, and for months i was in denial about being depressed, my mood swings were very exterme. In november it got worse, i went to see my dr and she prescribed me zoloft, and it helped, sometimes short term medication is helpful.

Like the ladies said, a m/c can cause havoc on body mind and soul, and its not a good feeling.  Having a good strong support system is helpful to.

I will keep you in my prayers

[kgokgo]

Sorry about your loss. I`m glad you posted this question coz its going to benefit a lot of people. Sorry I`m going to hijack your post.  I also think I `m going insane, as for me I can`t put a finger to it but I just know that things are not right. I feel very sad for no reason, scared, overwhelmed e.t.c. As some of you know, I had 2 miscarriages within 3 months and I think the emotional part is catching up with me now. I`m glad that you got help, I`m going to visit my Dr on Monday.

[ArmyPrincess819]

I'm sorry for your loss. No a m/c can't cause post partum depression. I myself have had 6 m/cs and one was at 19 wks. The further along in your pg the more hormones you have to get back to zero. At 10wks your hormones are at the highest they will ever be during pg. Every woman handles the aftermath of their m/c differently. There is alot of support on here as well as support groups or professionals who are trained in this area. I wish you the best. I hope that soon you will find peace and begin the healing process. I can't tell you enough how sorry I'am for you. Take care and best wishes to you. If you need to talk I'm here....
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[EricaB28]

I am so sorry for your loss. For me, I think I am still going through some sort of depression from my m/c in August. As for postpartum depression after m/c, I have read that it is possible. I did some research on and this is what I got out of it :

"Can Women Suffer from Postpartum Depression After Miscarriage?

Published: October 19, 2006

After the birth of a child, it is common for women to experience some type of mood disturbance. Typically, it is relatively mild (postpartum blues). However, about 10-15% of women experience a more severe and disabling illness, postpartum depression. It has been suggested that women who develop postpartum depression may be more sensitive to the hormonal changes that take place after delivery and that these hormonal changes may contribute to emergence of depressive symptoms during the postpartum period.

With respect to depression after miscarraige (miscarriage), it is thought that some women may experience similar, although less dramatic, hormonal shifts. Whether these hormonal changes can directly precipitate an episode of depression is still unclear. However, we do know that most women report some degree of psychological distress after a miscarriage, and that about 1 in 10 women actually meet criteria for major depression. Risk factors for depression after miscarriage include a prior history of depression, having inadequate social supports and being childless. Symptoms of depression include feeling sad or blue, loss of interest in one’s usual activities, and hopelessness. If any of these symptoms emerge after a miscarriage, further evaluation is necessary."
This was from www.womensmentalhealth.org

I hope that info helps. I think it might be a good idea to talk to someone. I myself have been thinking about doing that recently. It can't hurt, right? I get terrible mood swings where I get so angry and then cry for hours. I know how you're feeling and it doesn't feel good. We are here for you, anytime. Just know that you have a wonderful community of women here supporting you. Take care

[bam1014]

kgokgo / tesw

I'm glad that you are both seeking medical assistance. It's the best most responsible thing for you to do.  As I've stated before I've suffered from depression  since my late teens.  I also developed issues with anxiety and panic attacks in my 20's that still linger on today.  TesW - I've been through panic attacks - I know how scary they can be!

We can have events in our lives that shift the chemicals in our brains resulting in depression.  m/c could easily be one of those events.  Sometimes the chemicals regulate and shift back on their on and sometimes they do not.  It's just important to remember that there is nothing wrong with you, there is nothing that you did to cause this.  Depression (and anxiety) is a medical condition and there should be no stigma in seeking help for it.  That's the clinical side.

That being said, there is also the emotional side, which can effect your ability to rationalize.  People who have never suffered depression simply can not understand that it is nothing that you can "just snap out of".  It is important to seek medical attention before your judgement gets too clouded.  As Latrice said, sometimes you just need that short term medication.

I'm always here to talk if any of you need to.

[MissinMyLilMan]

I am So Sorry, I Just Had a d/c in december i was 17 + weeks 2 days before i turned 18 weeks,  right after i got out the hospital i was so depressed i didnt know what to do with myself, i couldnt sleep, eat or think right i cried all the time i didnt want to do anything at all. the next morning after gettin out the hospital i did a britney spears move i dont know why it was just something i felt i had to do just to left a lil weight off of me i went to the salon and just cut off my hair. i am saying this just to say that everyone is different and handle horrible situations different its good that you had someone to talk to about it, i didnt my soon to be husband doesnt know what to say to me right now so he just dont say much on the situation, i can be down and out about it crying all he have to say is dont cry it will be alright.
when you feel down and out find something that you like to do and just do it to take you mind off it at the very moment it helps me to come to this site and read about others in the same situation and tell my story it helps to let it out and to people (women) going through the same and have them comment back to you just to talk it keeps your mind at ease
hope all works out for you and yours good Luck best wishes to everyone

[lanegritadeamor]

i just had a M/C three days ago. i was 10 weeks going on 11 weeks. i am feeling really down and I have become insomniac. I barely want to eat. but I really don't know if it is ppd. I was hoping to get some answers here and I did. thank you. and sorry for you all loss. I know what you going thru

[brina1018]

I just had a m/c at 17 weeks yesterday morning. I was sad due to the loss of course. This was my fourth pregnancy, first m/c. I have 3 beautiful children, and I had mild cases of the "baby blues" with all previous pregnancies, including the m/c. My first child was a little stronger case, but my aunt had informed me, so I knew what I was feeling, even though it could be overwhelming at times. I believe the crashing of hormones that cause the post partum depression/psychosis, crash just as much at 17 weeks, or 10 weeks. The reason I say this is because the way the depression felt today had an extra... dimension you might say. I was sad yesterday, and half of today of course due to the loss, in and out of crying, feeling guilt, etc... but this evening added a familiar sinking, hopeless... hole in the heart, pit of my stomach sadness. With my other children, it started 24 to 36 hrs after delivery. This is the samr feeling, beginning in the same time frame. I absolutely believe you can experience post partum after a m/c, because I feel it now, and I know exactly what it is.

[Mich1599]

You are wrong, anyone who has been pregnant is at risk for PPD whether they carried the baby to term or miscarried.  Unless you know for sure, no one should post medical advice on here.  Your hormones drop drastically which cause your emotions to go in a tailspin!!!  Anyone who reads this and feels like they have the symptoms should see a Dr. ASAP!!!  Trust me, I have had it and know the symptoms!!!

[jellybean02]

Hello I was 12 weeks pregnante. And was told at my first Prenatal appointment that the babys heart stopped.  I had bleeding weeks before for two weeks. I had called my Drs office and beg them to see me and they wouldnt.bleeding had stopped so tjen I thought everything was ok. I undetstand that I could have a m.c anytime. But I fig if I had as much bleeding that I had they would have seen me.   So not its been 3 wks since mt m/c and I mood is like night and day.  I had to get three blood transfusions and d/c.  At this point I hate and I mean hate everything around me. I want my husband to leave.. I have no family they started a lot of stuff at the hospital. When I was in there. I feel no ine listens to me when I try to express how I feel.  I tryed to tell my ob dr and she said ill just put u on pills. I feel thats not what I want.  I have lots and lots of friends and family who r exspecting. A d I can not deal with thay at all. If someone can help me.

[mommom698]

Find another doctor.  I have had 4 m/c. We fired our OB doc after the third m/c and didn't even let them do the d/c.  You were not treated with compassion or care.  Find a support group in your area...be real about how you feel, but remember that you cannot live in your sad place forever.  We have sought the Lord to understand our losses...He has revealed Himself and His peace to us...even in the midst of tremendous losses.  Our last m/c was the day before Thanksgiving, our second one on that day...crazy, but we were almost 16 weeks along and I actually delivered our sweet baby and then had to have a d/c...be real, talk and talk some more...don't let anyone tell you that you should feel some way or not...try to celebrate your friends who are expecting and think of it as hope for you someday...