help me

[jezzibaby]

i seriously need your help. i had a miscarriage last week i was only a few weeks pregnant but i just got so attached to it so quickly. ever since i had the miscarriage i've been feeling very depressed. i always have the same dream about the baby and it makes me so sad i keep miscarrying it over and over again. last night i was on the phone with my bf (the father) and we got to talking about it and something inside me just snapped. i took 12 pills of ibuprofin and 8 pills of motrin. he found out and made me throw it up. but i was telling him i just want to kill myself so i can be with my child again. i feel like i'm losing my mind. what is wrong with me? please help me!!!!

[frank_noahsmommy]

Oh Honey I am so sorry. You do not need to hurt yourself like that. There is help, I know I have been there. After my 1st m/c I did not want to get out of bed, take a shower, nothing!!! But I had 2 other kids at home that needed me. I spoke to My Dr. and she gave me a prescription for an anti depressant. I never thought of myself as depressed, and never wanted to take pills. I hesitated to take them, but they did help also talking to some one about how you are feeling helped. Please message me if you need to talk. Lots of hugsxxxxxxxxxx Michelle

[miracleofasingleflower]

i can  understand being on the edge. this is the deepest pain you will ever feel in your life, the loss of your baby.
but keep in mind, your baby is with you now and watching over you.
always keep hope.
if you go to your baby now, you will be robbing yourself and the earth of the other precious children you are meant to bring into the world.
i know it is hard now, but there is another baby, a healthy baby, who is waiting to be loved my you and to love you in return.

"If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly our whole life would change"

[bernie40]

Please don't feel alone in feeling like this.  When I lost my first baby (20 years ago now) I too took an overdose and had to have my stomach pumped.  I was so distraught and all I could think was that I wanted to be with my baby.  I was immediately referred to a psychiatrist and began a course of anti-depressants.

My advice to you is to go and see your Dr as soon as possible and explain exactly what you are feeling, you will not be the first young woman to have come to him with these feelings.  He will help you, either with counselling or medication - you are suffering from grief and need help to get through this.

I'm glad your bf sounds so supportive.  Please know that you will get through this and you will go on to have a precious baby in the future.  I went on to have 3 babies, I miscarried again but then had another baby.  I now have 4 children and I am so glad I didn't succeed in my overdose attempt.

Don't try and get through this on your own, seek the necessary help so you can heal and grow strong.

Big hugs to you and I'm so sorry for your loss xx

[StephRox13]

You need to get some help. You're baby is in heaven with God. If you kill you're you won't be. You're young & have many years to keep trying for your baby. It is emotionally hard to lose your baby no matter how far along you were. If you research my 1st pregnancies end in miscarriage. You're not the only one & you won't be the last. Many women on here have been trying for years to have a baby & have had many miscarriages.

You have good support from your boyfriend so that's good. You need to take care of yourself so in the future you can try again. Get done with school if you're not so you can provide a good life for your baby. Good luck.