miscarried few weeks back

[taamba]

I get jealous when i see other pregnant woman and fear my womb isnt able to hold any children...i cry too much just wana wat really went wrong

[mlajl]

Oh, so sorry... I had tons of trouble with my 1st pregnancy. I was 24.. I stayed in early labor.. I had to take meds to stop it.. around the clock.. had to set alarms to wake me to take them.. those shots are awful too. At 36 weeks I stopped all meds and waited for labor.. at 42 weeks I was induced! I became pregnant again a few years later.. this was the first of 6 miscarriages in a row over 10 years! I had given up.. I couldn't bare for my body to kill another on of my babies.. It was hard to get pregnant and stay that way..seeing Women with a dozen kids one after another upset me.. couldn't handle the kids sections in stores.. I was more angry at the women I think then jealous. Why them and not me.. I accidentally became pregnant for the 8th time. I was devasted.. I waited for the miscarriage. It never came.. I had a boy.. i was over the moon happy.. then a year and a half later I managed to become pregnant while on the pill.. number 9.. we waited for another miscarriage .. we didn't mention the pregnancy out of fear.. she was born in april..healthy and huge!  I wanted to share my story.. give u hope.. now, the loss of ur baby will always be with u..my last miscarriage was 8 years ago.. I still cry when I mention them or tell people.. the hurt never goes away.. but does become easier to deal  with. I think about all of them every day.. ur body can do it.. I didn't believe my body could, but it did after 6 losses in a row over a ten year span... and my body did it twice in a row!  Sorry if the typos and wording is bad.. have a monster headache.. but happened to see ur post and my heart bleed for u.. I began to cry.. I know your hurt well. it's awful!

[cbeara]

What you are feeling is very normal. Grieve but don't give up. I was 36 and had a mc June last year around week 9. From what I understand often there is no way to really know the cause. But very often you can still have a baby.I felt it was a boy so we named him, Jeremiah. That was my baby so when we talk about my first pregnancy we day his name. That child will always hold a special place in our hearts. It's the most difficult thing that has ever happened to me but I won't forget and don't want others to either. At Christmas my mother gave us a porclin heart shaped ornament with a dove holding a banner that read "In our hearts forever,  Jeremiah Cook 2014". It was bitter sweet and I cried but it was good to have someone acknowledge our baby and our loss. Right now it feels like life won't go on but it does and it'll always be sad but one day you will smile and laugh again. But take your time and don't rush your greif. Wishing you the best. Oh and when you do become pregnant again try to enjoy it as much as you can. Each week gets a little easier to breathe and not worry quite as much.