reactive depression?

[medhelpvolume]

Hi doc.I am 21 years old,i take luvox,a benzodiaepine to sleep better ,and klonopin.I have been suffering since i was 13.But only when i went to college at 19 i started seeing a shrink.I suffer from ,depression,axniety.
The thing is,every time i hear the word,"depression,anxiety",or i see someone crying,or two people having a fight,or people living on the street i get very anxious and depressed,tension builds up in me,i feel like the world is falling a apart,guilty,like everything is my fault(although clearly it isn't).And the same thing happens when i have to tell someone that i suffer from depression and anxiety and explain my symptoms(for example to a shrink,or a friend),i become so depressed,and feel so guilty and anxious and inner tennsion.i feel so messed up,i start judging myself in my head.After a while,1h,2h maybe one day i get better.
Is this thing common?is this a consequence of depression?Have you heard about this kind of stuff?

[medhelpvolume]

I did some scrrening test online for adult ADHD and they returned very likely.I will talk to my psychiatrist about this thursday.When i was younger many teachers would write on my test inatentive,i was doing everything to fast at math and always did mistakes on simple calculations.I always had trouble wrting essays,my mind would not work and cause distress,and also when had to read a book.Is it possible that untreated ADHD got me into this mess,and if indeed i do have ADHD and treat it with medication,  will it improve my situation(i will be less anxious in certain conditions because my mind would slow down and think more organised,i would be less agitated,less impulsive,i would procrastinate less,improve my depression)?

[Peter Forster]

It sounds as though your reaction has some elements of a severe anxiety reaction (such as a panic attack or trauma reaction) that is triggered by stigma and shame. It would be great if you could find someone to help you work through this, perhaps your therapist?

[medhelpvolume]

Thank you for the reply doc.
I was trying to say that certain events like(seeing too people fighting,seeing homeless people,seeing someone crying,talking to a therapist ,and psychiatrist about what is going on with me)exacerbates my depression an anxiety to a extreme level.In this kind of circumstances  i can not think realistic anymore,i am overwhelmed by feelings of guilt,worthlessness, i feel intense anxiety,i feel like killing myself.But only in this circumstances,that is what i am trying to say.And after 1 h or 2h or maybe a day i start feeling better,thinking better.

[Peter Forster]

If I understand your post correctly, you are describing one of the most challenging and common aspects of psychiatric treatment - the sense of guilt and shame about the condition. Our clinic is a strong supporter of the Silver Ribbon Campaign for Brain Disorders for that very reason - to fight the stigma that prevents effective treatment. Of course, depression just intensifies this feeling, but it is common across many different psychiatric and neurologic disorders.